InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A Chance of a Lifetime ❯ Heartache ( Chapter 12 )
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By: InuYashaJunkie 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 10.15.2006 | Pages: 2 | Words: 5.4K | Visits: 381 | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 10.15.2006 | Pages: 2 | Words: 5.4K | Visits: 381 | Status: Work In Progress
I don’t own him, but I wish I did! *sigh*
I just want to tell you all how sorry I am that it took this long to get this out. Along with moving, finding a place to live and taking care of my family, writer’s block decided to attack. But I am back and hopefully after this I’ll be able to crank them out a lot faster.
Heartache
For the next couple of days Kagome cried herself to sleep. Her beautiful grey eyes were swollen and red as she sat on the couch with a blanket. She had already called her mother and informed her that she wouldn’t be coming home for Christmas, it would be just too hard to act happy around her family when she felt her world was falling apart. As she sat there she threw another balled up tissue on the table, adding it to the sea of white around her as she continued to watch “The Notebook”. Her eyes once again began to water as she watched Noah see Allie meeting Lorn at the restaurant. Her mind flashed to seeing Inuyasha with Kikyo and she started to sob.
Just then the apartment door opened and Sango saw her best friend curled up on the couch breaking all over again. She quickly ran over to the TV and turned on the movie. Sango looked down at her friend with a broken heart and sat down hugging her. Kagome clung to her friend and cried on her shoulder. ‘I knew I should of hid that movie before I left’ Sango thought to herself as she continued to comfort her friend. Since everything happened Sango and Miroku have meeting for a brief lunch every day to try to come up with a solution to this problem between their friends. That day they finally decided to go and talk to Kikyo and make her tell the truth, by any means necessary. Sango had smiled at that and started thinking of many different ways she’d make that skank talk.
Miroku on the other hand was starting to worry about his hanyou friend. Inuyasha has yet to sleep since that first night, and Miroku was slowly starting to see the effects it was having on his best friend. A slow shadowing was forming around his golden orbs and he was constantly seen drinking coffee. Miroku asked him one day why he wasn’t sleeping, he quickly learned that was a big mistake. His question was answered by a low growl and the cracking of knuckles.
He decided he wasn’t about to find out how far Inuyasha was willing to go in his current state of mind and bolted from the apartment. He came to the conclusion that he wasn’t going to press his luck with his roommate until the problem was solved. Yet after his lunch today with Sango he decided that it’s time him and Inuyasha get all the details straightened out, no more avoiding the situation. Miroku silently entered the apartment still afraid of the hanyou and closed the door. With a deep sigh he started to relax until he noticed the pair of silver ears peaking over the top of the couch.
As he walked over, he made sure he stayed a save distance away just incase he was in a pissy mood once again. But when he was finally in view of the couch he was amazed. There was Inuyasha finally passed out with his head resting on the cushion. “Inuyasha?” he slightly whispered to see if his friend would jump to life but there was nothing, just the twitch of his ears. “Inuyasha?” he said again a little more loudly and again just the twitch of his ears. As a test Miroku walked over and lifted Inuyasha’s arm, he saw his clawed hand grip at his forearm but there was still no sign he was awake.
Miroku raised a dark eyebrow and stared intensely at his best friend as he set his arm back in place. Grabbing one of the couch pillows he gently set it on Inuyasha’s lap and watched in amazement. After that he walked quickly to his room and started dialing Sango’s cell phone. He continued to call, pacing back and forth in his room but each time he got her voicemail. “OH come on girl!” he yelled at the tiny phone and walked out the door.
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Meanwhile a red cell phone sat vibrating on the couch where Sango and Kagome once sat. Now the girls were in Kagome’s room sitting on her bed talking. Sango had finally talked Kagome into taking a nice warm shower and getting into some clean clothes. ‘Sango was right about the shower making me feel better’ Kagome thought to herself. She felt refreshed wearing black dance leggings an a pink tank top. Her long raven hair was thrown up into a messy bun on top of her head. “I think I am going to go to the studio for a while.” She said quietly while staring at the mural on her wall. Her eyes never leaving the empty place on the tree. Sango’s eyes went wide as she stared at her friend. “Are you sure?” Her concerned voice broke through her thoughts and she looked a Sango. She just gave a small nod with a weak smile and climbed off the bed.
‘I need to be strong’ she thought to herself as she made her to the dance studio. When the elevator doors opened Kagome quickly made her way down the hall afraid to let her gaze wonder to the break room. As she stepped into the studio a look of amazement replaced the look of sadness. She walked closer to the window and watched as the snow fell outside. ‘I didn’t even realize it was snowing’ she thought to herself before breaking away and inserting a CD in the stereo. Not bothering to turn on the lights, Kagome stated to dance as the music flowed. The words of the song brought tears to her eyes.
If you're not the one Then why does my soul feel glad today?If you're not the one Then why does my hand fit yours this way?If you are not mine Then why does your heart return my callIf you are not mine Would I have the strength to stand at all
As she danced flashes of the night her and Inuyasha made love flew through her mind and the tears started to flow down her cheeks.
I never know what the future brings But I know you are here with me nowWe'll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life withI don't want to run away But I can't take it, I don't understandIf I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
She glided across the floor on the tips of her toes as even more images passed behind her eyes. The way he made her laugh, the way he made her smile. How he would pout if he didn’t get his way. She felt like her heart was breaking all over again.
If I don't need you Then why am I crying on my bed?If I don't need you Then why does your name resound in my head?If you're not for me Then why does this distance maim my life?If you're not for me Then why do I dream of you as my wife?I don't know why you're so far away But I know that this much is trueWe'll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life withAnd I wish that you could be the one I die withAnd I pray in you're the one I build my home withI hope I love you all my life
As Kagome danced, she wished the words to the song were true. She wished her and Inuyasha could be together and be happy. She gracefully arched her arms above her head and did a slow spin before sweeping her arms out in front of her body. She immediately went into a arabesque, extending her left leg behind her and her arms extended gracefully at her sides. She then arched her back before hugging herself and going into a slow spin once again.
I don't want to run away but I can't take itI don't understandIf I'm not made for youThen why does my heart tell me that I amIs there any way that I can stay in your arms?
She quickly wiped the rears off her cheeks and once again stood on the tips of her toes. She never noticed the person watching her from the shadows of the studio. She tired to stop the images of Kikyo and Inuyasha together from playing her mind. Closing her eyes tighter for a moment she went into another spin and concentrated on the falling snow outside.
Cause I miss you, body and soul so strongThat it takes my breath awayAnd I breathe you into my heartAnd pray for the strength to stand todayCause I love you, whether it's wrong or rightAnd though I can't be with you tonightAnd know my heart is by your side
Miroku was still frantically trying to get a hold of his girlfriend. After the sixth time of getting her voicemail, he threw his cell phone down and let out a cry of frustration. As he threw open his door he was startled to see a wide eyes Inuyasha standing there. “What the hell is your problem?!” Inuyasha half yelled. Miroku gave a nervous laugh and quickly tried to by pass his friend. Inuyasha just raised his eyebrow and watched as his friend bolted for the front door. ‘That was weird’ he thought to himself before heading to the door. His mind immediately going back to Kagome and the pain he knew she was in.
I don't want to run away but I can't take itI don't understandIf I'm not made for youThen why does my heart tell me that I amIs there any way that I could stay in your arms
As Kagome continued to dance she felt two strong arms lightly wrap themselves around her waist and move with her. For just a moment she froze. “Don’t it’s just me.” a deep voice rumbled. Kagome turned around quickly and looked at the person before her. The tears started to flow even more as the song came to an end and from being held by the person before her. She threw her arms around his neck and sobbed into his chest. Koga held Kagome tightly as she continued to cry. He could smell the sadness and distress as soon as he stepped off the elevator. He had heard what happened between her and the mutt but he wasn’t aware of how bad it was until he saw the mark of love on her shoulder.
Koga quickly dropped to the ground as Kagome crumpled, still sobbing. After a few more minutes her crying finally stopped and she looked up at Koga. “Why didn’t we work out Koga?” she asked softly. “Because…I wasn’t him.” He answered her before looking down. Her beautiful grey eyes shone brightly with unshed tears. “I am so sorry Koga!” He gave her a little shrug and a smile. “It’s alright, I have my mate now.” Kagome’s looked at him surprised. “Who?” Koga couldn’t help but laugh. “Ayame” Kagome smiled and gave him a big hug. “I am so happy for you!” Then she went quiet again and he just held her. That’s when he heard the low growl come from behind them. Koga turned turn his head to look over his shoulder and saw Inuyasha standing in the door way. His ears were slightly drooped and there was an emptiness in his golden eyes. Before Koga could say anything Inuyasha walked away and headed for the roof entrance.
“Come on let’s get you home.” Kagome nodded against his chest and let him help her up. As they left the room Naraku stepped out of the shadows. ‘She will be mine, along with this company.’ he thought to himself with an evil smirk before disappearing all together.
“So Kagome, are you going home for Christmas?” Koga asked as they walked toward her front door. She just shook her head and stared at their feet as they walked. “And why not?” His blue eyes watching her intently. “I couldn’t fake being happy around my family and I didn’t want to ruin their holiday.” Blue eyes met grey as they stopped in front of the door. She swiftly got on the tips of her toes and kissed him on the cheek. “thank you for being there for me.” she said with a weak smile. Koga nodded before grabbing her by the shoulders and hugging her. “Don’t worry Kagome, you will end up happy.” He released her and tucked a few stray strands of hair behind her ear before walking back towards the elevator.
Inside the apartment Sango and Miroku were in her room talking heatedly. They sat there discussing what Miroku learned when they heard the front door open and close. “It’s Kagome, she’s home.” Sango said quietly and sat there listening to what her roommate was going to do. Before they knew it there was a soft knock on her bedroom door. “Sango I’m back, I’m just going to head to bed though, have a good night ok?” Sango stood and walked toward the door. “Is everything alright Kagome?” her voice full of concern. Kagome cleared her throat before answering. “yeah, just a little tired that’s all. I’ll see you in the morning.” Sango sighed, she couldn’t stand how sad her friend was.
“Miroku we have got to do something, I can’t stand to see either of them like this.” Miroku nodded and hugged his girlfriend. “We’ll get it fixed somehow, I promise.” he held her tighter before leaning down and kissing her softly. “I love you Sango”. She smiled at him and gave him a brief kiss in return. “I love you too Miroku” That night they laid in Sango’s bed and just held each other. Miroku couldn’t help but think about what he had discovered that afternoon.
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Inuyasha in the mean time was still standing on the roof. He had long ago ignored the numb feeling in his ears and face. The only feeling he felt right now was the pain in his heart. He didn’t know how he was going to prove it to Kagome that he didn’t have sex with Kikyo but now he wasn’t sure it mattered if he did. Seeing her in Koga’s arms again tore his heart into pieces. She felt content at that moment, he knows, he felt it through their marks, but to know that it was another man almost killed him. He didn’t turn when he heard the roof door open and close. He knew it was Koga and he really didn’t want to look at the bastard.
“Inuyasha…I can tell you are upset, but you need to know that it’s not what it seemed down there.” Koga said as he walked toward the hanyou. “I don’t give a fuck!” Inuyasha growled out and clenched his fists. Koga rolled his eyes and stepped in front of him. “Tell me the truth, did you have sex with Kikyo that day Kagome found you?” Inuyasha’s golden orbs burned into Koga’s baby blue ones. “No I didn’t have sex with Kikyo, I marked Kagome and that means I only want to be with Kagome!” he practically yelled. Koga leaned in a little and sniffed at him. He did this for a few minutes before his eyes went wide and stepped back. “You’re telling the truth!” Inuyasha sighed and looked down at a falling snowflake. “glad someone believes me.” he said quietly.
Koga realized he should have been glad to see the hanyou in so much pain, especially after stealing Kagome away from him but he just couldn’t. Inuyasha looked lost and he knew that if something like this happened between him and his mate that he would be just as bad and for once Koga felt like being kind to him. “I’ll help you get her back” Koga said quietly. Inuyasha just stared for a moment before rolling his eyes. “Yeah right, because what I saw down there was you helping!” Koga growled before pushing Inuyasha. “Look here you piece of shit, I tried to tell you earlier that it’s not what it looked like, she was crying her eyes out man, over you…”
Inuyasha pushed him back. “I know I fucking hurt her you ass-hole! I feel it every damn minute of every damn day through our marks!” Koga started to yell back until he really noticed the black circles under his roommates eyes. “Is that why you haven’t been sleeping? Because you can feel her?” Inuyasha sighed and slumped down against the ledge of the roof. The cold snow soaking his clothes even more. “Yes…that and because every time I close my eyes I see that day replay from the moment I realized Kikyo was on top of me to the moment I smelled Kagome’s tears.” Koga gave a little nod of understanding and joined the hanyou on the ground.
“I don’t know what I can do to ever make her trust me again…”Inuyasha said trailing off. “We’ll come up with a plan, don’t worry, you’ll get your mate back.” Koga glanced at Inuyasha to see his reaction to his words. “Why are you trying to help me? You don’t even fucking like me.” he said while fisting the snow. “ Look Kagome is my friend, and even though I still feel like you stole her away from me, I know that she loves you just as much as you love her and that she is happy with you.” Inuyasha could only scoff. “She was happy with me…I’ll probably never get my mate back.” he said with a slightly whimper. Koga punched his arm causing Inuyasha to fall over in the snow. “Stop talking like that dumb-ass or you won’t ever get her back, now get your ass up and lets go outside it fucking freezing. Inuyasha just growled and followed Koga back into the building.
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Back in Kagome’s room, she laid in bed staring at the ceiling. Koga’s words kept replaying in her mind over and over again. “Will I really be happy again?” she asked herself out loud before rolling over and staring at the mural. “Oh Inuyasha, I wish we could go back in time and never repeat that day.” she said softly before drifting off to sleep. Sango wiped a tear away as she stood by her best friends door. ‘Oh Kagome, I promise that we will fix this.’ she thought to herself as she gently touched her roommates door and walked away.
She rejoined Miroku on the couch and hugged him. “Oh Miroku, she’s in so much pain…” Sango said as she one again wiped a tear from her eyes. “I over heard her wishing that, that day had never happened.” Miroku gently squeezed her arm and looked down at her. “Well wouldn’t you want to wish that it never happened, it’s understandable Sango.” She just shook her head. “No I think she meant all of it Miroku, she’s giving up. We need to hurry up and get the truth out of that bitch so that way our friends will be happy together again!” Mirkou nodded in agreement and continued to hold his girlfriend.
Neither of them noticed Kagome standing in the hallway listening. ‘What do they mean “get that bitch to tell the truth”?’ She thought to herself before making her way quietly back to her room. Kagome quietly shut the door behind her before snatching her cell phone off the night stand. “someone is going to explain what is going on…” she half growled out as she punched in a number on her phone. “pick up pick up pick up…” she chanted over and over until she heard Koga’s voice.
“Uh hey, what’s up?” He answered nervously. “Do you know what the hell is going on? Cause I can’t take anymore sneaking behind my back!” she yelled into the phone. “whoa calm down, look now’s not a good time.” Kagome huffed and bit her lip to keep from screaming. “Fine call me back when it is a good time!!!” she growled into the phone and hung up. “jackass” she mumbled quietly before sitting on her bed.
Koga closed his phone and gave Inuyasha a nervous smile. Inuyasha’s eyes narrowed as he stared at Koga. “Look I know that you know that it was Kagome on the phone. She just wants to know what is going on. Maybe I should go up there and tell her that you are telling that truth, maybe that way she’ll actually let you explain what happened.” Inuyasha shoulder sagged and he closed his eyes. “But I don’t even really understand what happened. I mean, I worked out, took a break and fell asleep on the couch, next thing I know Kikyo is on top of me acting…” His eyes went wide as the realization hit him. “That BITCH!!” he yelled. Koga just stared in amazement. “She set me up, she was acting like she was having sex with me! She must of known Kagome was coming up! DAMN IT!!” he yelled before pacing back and forth. “how could I have been so stupid!’ he mumbled to himself.
Koga just sat there watching the hanyou continue to pace and mumble to himself. “Ok now that we figured out what happened maybe I should go and talk to Kagome.” Inuyasha stopped and looked at him. With a nod from Inuyasha, Koga got up and left the apartment. Inuyasha could just stand and stare at the door. ‘Please Kagome, please believe me’ he silently begged before making his way to his room. Before he made to his door his cell rang. “Hey man, you better think of something very romantic if you want to make this mistake up to her, just giving you a fair warning.” Koga voice sounded out the small device. “Thanks man…” Inuyasha said before hanging up the phone. “something romantic” he mumbled to himself and scratched at his ear as he walked into the room.
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Miroku sighed as Sango continued to pound on Kikyo’s door. “Open up whore, I know you’re in there!” Sango shouted. With that the door flew open. “Who the hell are you calling a whore?!” Kikyo screamed back. Sango started to make a move like she was going to punch her before Miroku held her back. “Let me go, I want to teach her a lesson for messing with other peoples boyfriends!” Sango growled out and tried to lung at Kikyo. She just smirked and checked out her nails. “Settle down Sango so we can get this over with.” Miroku said softly before releasing his girlfriend. “Now Kikyo explain to us why you were basically dry humping Inuyasha that day?” He said with a raised eyebrow and watched as her face paled. Sango couldn’t help but smirk and cross her arms over her chest feeling satisfied.
“I…uh I don’t know what you are talking about!” Kikyo stammered and tried to go back into her apartment. “I don’t think so!” Sango said grabbing her arm and the couple followed her inside. “We are going anyway until we get the truth out of you and that’s by any means necessary” Miroku stated and watched as Sango cracked her knuckles. Kikyo plastered on a fake smile and quickly tried to think of a lie. ’If I tell the truth Naraku will kill me!’ she thought to herself before turning back to her angry classmates.
Sango continued to fume as Kikyo sat there looking dumb, that was until she felt a hand rubbing her ass. “You Pervert!” she screamed and smacked Miroku upside the head. “Sango my love I just wanted to get you to relax a little bit before you have to beat the truth out her.” he said with a sweet smile. Sango thought for a minute about what he said and a small smile began to form on her lips. “Well thank you baby” she said before giving him a brief kiss. Kikyo stared in disbelief at the couple in front of her. “I don’t believe this, you’re actually going to let her kick my ass? Miroku we were friends until this little bitch came along.” At that moment a look crossed over Miroku’s face that none have ever seen before. “Don’t you dare call my girlfriend a bitch!” he purple eyes blazed in anger as he stared at Kikyo. “And for your information, I only put up with you because Inuyasha THOUGHT he was in love with you, until he found his true mate!” he practically yelled at her.
Sango couldn’t help but look on with pride that it was her boyfriend that was putting that bitch in her place. Kikyo stood up and folded her arms across her chest. “I am not telling you anything, now get out of my apartment before I really get pissed, and believe me I have connections! If you ever want to dance in this city again you better leave fast.” Her cold eyes clashed with Sango’s warm brown but reliantly the couple left. Kikyo locked the door and let out a sigh as she heard their retreating footsteps. “Naraku…you owe me big!”
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Koga knocked on apartment door. A gentle “come in” was heard from inside so he decided to enter. “Kagome?” Just as he said her name, Kagome came walking out of the kitchen with a cup of hot chocolate. “Hi Koga, I thought you were suppose to call me back not come over.” She said as she sat down on the soft couch. She patted the seat beside her the Koga quickly took. “Kagome look, I need to talk to you about something really important and I really need you to hear me out before you say anything.” Kagome gave him a slow nod and stared at him as he slightly fidgeted on the couch.
Kagome’s eye slowly began to widen. “Koga…look you and Ayame are mated and I know I asked what happened between us but that’s only because I was curious I can’t and won’t come between you two…” She started to babble before Koga’s deep laugh interrupted her. “No Kagome that’s not what I need to talk to you about….it’s about Inuyasha.” At the mention of his name a deep sadness filled Kagome’s eyes. “I don’t want to talk about him…unless he’s hurt, is he hurt?” Concern immediately replaced the sadness in her grey eyes as she waited for Koga to answer.
With a sigh Koga gently took her hands in his own. “Inuyasha is alright, he missed you a lot but he is fine. I need to tell you something about him though and I really need you to listen and believe me.” Kagome once again nodded and waited for Koga to begin. “Ok now what I am about to say is going to sound a bit crazy because of the way me and Inuyasha fight but I know how miserable you are without him as he is without you so I came by to tell you that Inuyasha is telling you the truth about Kikyo, he didn’t have sex with her when you walked in on them, in fact he was asleep moments before you saw them.” After all was said and done Koga stared at Kagome waiting for a reaction.
Kagome gave a little laugh. “Yeah right, he wasn’t sleeping Koga, I saw them and for you to lie for him makes things worse.” the tears started to well up in her eyes. “Kagome, us demons, we can smell when someone is lying and Kagome, Inuyasha wasn’t lying about that. He would never purposely hurt you, he loves you. You’re his mate.” Koga said and gave her hands a little squeeze. “So what you’re telling me is that Kikyo planned all of this to split me and Inuyasha up?” She asked, her eyebrows scrunched together in concentration. Koga gave a little nod. “Look you would know if Inuyasha truly cheated on you, that mark you now bare on your shoulder from the night you spent together, it means ’love’ and it’s there forever. It means that you two were meant for each other. With that mark you two are bonded, he feels your pain, and if what happened was real the pain would be about ten times worse.”
Kagome felt the tears slide down her cheek as the realization hit her. Her grey eyes shined brightly as the tears continued to flow. It felt like a giant weight had been lifted off her heart. “Are you sure? I mean really sure?” Koga gave her a small smile. “Yes Kagome, you know I don’t like the stinking mutt so what I am telling you has to be the true right?” Kagome left out a little laugh before throwing her arms around his neck and hugging him. “Thank you…for telling me.” After she let go she sat back with a frown. “What’s the matter, you were just happy?” he touched her shoulder to get her attention. “Why didn’t Inuyasha tell me this.” Koga sighed once again. “Kagome…you wouldn’t let him near you remember?” Her hand immediately cover her face. “Oh God…”
Meanwhile Inuyasha was still pacing back and forth in his bedroom. As he passed his night stand he quietly grabbed his cell phone and stared at it for a few minutes. “This is so stupid. I don’t know how to make this up to her by being romantic…” he mumbled to himself. With a growl he punched in a number on the tiny phone and waited for an answer. “This better be good…” came a deep voice on the other end of the line. “Sesshomaru…I need your help…how do you be romantic?” he asked with a little whimper. There was only silence on the other end of the line. “Sesshomaru?” Just then he heard a deep laugh. “asshole” he mumbled before his brother began to talk.
*Sorry it took so long to update, I hope this enough to satisfy for now, I promise to start working on the next chapter right a way. Hope you enjoy!!! Please review and thank you for all of your patience!!
InuYashaJunkie.
I just want to tell you all how sorry I am that it took this long to get this out. Along with moving, finding a place to live and taking care of my family, writer’s block decided to attack. But I am back and hopefully after this I’ll be able to crank them out a lot faster.
Heartache
For the next couple of days Kagome cried herself to sleep. Her beautiful grey eyes were swollen and red as she sat on the couch with a blanket. She had already called her mother and informed her that she wouldn’t be coming home for Christmas, it would be just too hard to act happy around her family when she felt her world was falling apart. As she sat there she threw another balled up tissue on the table, adding it to the sea of white around her as she continued to watch “The Notebook”. Her eyes once again began to water as she watched Noah see Allie meeting Lorn at the restaurant. Her mind flashed to seeing Inuyasha with Kikyo and she started to sob.
Just then the apartment door opened and Sango saw her best friend curled up on the couch breaking all over again. She quickly ran over to the TV and turned on the movie. Sango looked down at her friend with a broken heart and sat down hugging her. Kagome clung to her friend and cried on her shoulder. ‘I knew I should of hid that movie before I left’ Sango thought to herself as she continued to comfort her friend. Since everything happened Sango and Miroku have meeting for a brief lunch every day to try to come up with a solution to this problem between their friends. That day they finally decided to go and talk to Kikyo and make her tell the truth, by any means necessary. Sango had smiled at that and started thinking of many different ways she’d make that skank talk.
Miroku on the other hand was starting to worry about his hanyou friend. Inuyasha has yet to sleep since that first night, and Miroku was slowly starting to see the effects it was having on his best friend. A slow shadowing was forming around his golden orbs and he was constantly seen drinking coffee. Miroku asked him one day why he wasn’t sleeping, he quickly learned that was a big mistake. His question was answered by a low growl and the cracking of knuckles.
He decided he wasn’t about to find out how far Inuyasha was willing to go in his current state of mind and bolted from the apartment. He came to the conclusion that he wasn’t going to press his luck with his roommate until the problem was solved. Yet after his lunch today with Sango he decided that it’s time him and Inuyasha get all the details straightened out, no more avoiding the situation. Miroku silently entered the apartment still afraid of the hanyou and closed the door. With a deep sigh he started to relax until he noticed the pair of silver ears peaking over the top of the couch.
As he walked over, he made sure he stayed a save distance away just incase he was in a pissy mood once again. But when he was finally in view of the couch he was amazed. There was Inuyasha finally passed out with his head resting on the cushion. “Inuyasha?” he slightly whispered to see if his friend would jump to life but there was nothing, just the twitch of his ears. “Inuyasha?” he said again a little more loudly and again just the twitch of his ears. As a test Miroku walked over and lifted Inuyasha’s arm, he saw his clawed hand grip at his forearm but there was still no sign he was awake.
Miroku raised a dark eyebrow and stared intensely at his best friend as he set his arm back in place. Grabbing one of the couch pillows he gently set it on Inuyasha’s lap and watched in amazement. After that he walked quickly to his room and started dialing Sango’s cell phone. He continued to call, pacing back and forth in his room but each time he got her voicemail. “OH come on girl!” he yelled at the tiny phone and walked out the door.
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Meanwhile a red cell phone sat vibrating on the couch where Sango and Kagome once sat. Now the girls were in Kagome’s room sitting on her bed talking. Sango had finally talked Kagome into taking a nice warm shower and getting into some clean clothes. ‘Sango was right about the shower making me feel better’ Kagome thought to herself. She felt refreshed wearing black dance leggings an a pink tank top. Her long raven hair was thrown up into a messy bun on top of her head. “I think I am going to go to the studio for a while.” She said quietly while staring at the mural on her wall. Her eyes never leaving the empty place on the tree. Sango’s eyes went wide as she stared at her friend. “Are you sure?” Her concerned voice broke through her thoughts and she looked a Sango. She just gave a small nod with a weak smile and climbed off the bed.
‘I need to be strong’ she thought to herself as she made her to the dance studio. When the elevator doors opened Kagome quickly made her way down the hall afraid to let her gaze wonder to the break room. As she stepped into the studio a look of amazement replaced the look of sadness. She walked closer to the window and watched as the snow fell outside. ‘I didn’t even realize it was snowing’ she thought to herself before breaking away and inserting a CD in the stereo. Not bothering to turn on the lights, Kagome stated to dance as the music flowed. The words of the song brought tears to her eyes.
If you're not the one Then why does my soul feel glad today?If you're not the one Then why does my hand fit yours this way?If you are not mine Then why does your heart return my callIf you are not mine Would I have the strength to stand at all
As she danced flashes of the night her and Inuyasha made love flew through her mind and the tears started to flow down her cheeks.
I never know what the future brings But I know you are here with me nowWe'll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life withI don't want to run away But I can't take it, I don't understandIf I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
She glided across the floor on the tips of her toes as even more images passed behind her eyes. The way he made her laugh, the way he made her smile. How he would pout if he didn’t get his way. She felt like her heart was breaking all over again.
If I don't need you Then why am I crying on my bed?If I don't need you Then why does your name resound in my head?If you're not for me Then why does this distance maim my life?If you're not for me Then why do I dream of you as my wife?I don't know why you're so far away But I know that this much is trueWe'll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life withAnd I wish that you could be the one I die withAnd I pray in you're the one I build my home withI hope I love you all my life
As Kagome danced, she wished the words to the song were true. She wished her and Inuyasha could be together and be happy. She gracefully arched her arms above her head and did a slow spin before sweeping her arms out in front of her body. She immediately went into a arabesque, extending her left leg behind her and her arms extended gracefully at her sides. She then arched her back before hugging herself and going into a slow spin once again.
I don't want to run away but I can't take itI don't understandIf I'm not made for youThen why does my heart tell me that I amIs there any way that I can stay in your arms?
She quickly wiped the rears off her cheeks and once again stood on the tips of her toes. She never noticed the person watching her from the shadows of the studio. She tired to stop the images of Kikyo and Inuyasha together from playing her mind. Closing her eyes tighter for a moment she went into another spin and concentrated on the falling snow outside.
Cause I miss you, body and soul so strongThat it takes my breath awayAnd I breathe you into my heartAnd pray for the strength to stand todayCause I love you, whether it's wrong or rightAnd though I can't be with you tonightAnd know my heart is by your side
Miroku was still frantically trying to get a hold of his girlfriend. After the sixth time of getting her voicemail, he threw his cell phone down and let out a cry of frustration. As he threw open his door he was startled to see a wide eyes Inuyasha standing there. “What the hell is your problem?!” Inuyasha half yelled. Miroku gave a nervous laugh and quickly tried to by pass his friend. Inuyasha just raised his eyebrow and watched as his friend bolted for the front door. ‘That was weird’ he thought to himself before heading to the door. His mind immediately going back to Kagome and the pain he knew she was in.
I don't want to run away but I can't take itI don't understandIf I'm not made for youThen why does my heart tell me that I amIs there any way that I could stay in your arms
As Kagome continued to dance she felt two strong arms lightly wrap themselves around her waist and move with her. For just a moment she froze. “Don’t it’s just me.” a deep voice rumbled. Kagome turned around quickly and looked at the person before her. The tears started to flow even more as the song came to an end and from being held by the person before her. She threw her arms around his neck and sobbed into his chest. Koga held Kagome tightly as she continued to cry. He could smell the sadness and distress as soon as he stepped off the elevator. He had heard what happened between her and the mutt but he wasn’t aware of how bad it was until he saw the mark of love on her shoulder.
Koga quickly dropped to the ground as Kagome crumpled, still sobbing. After a few more minutes her crying finally stopped and she looked up at Koga. “Why didn’t we work out Koga?” she asked softly. “Because…I wasn’t him.” He answered her before looking down. Her beautiful grey eyes shone brightly with unshed tears. “I am so sorry Koga!” He gave her a little shrug and a smile. “It’s alright, I have my mate now.” Kagome’s looked at him surprised. “Who?” Koga couldn’t help but laugh. “Ayame” Kagome smiled and gave him a big hug. “I am so happy for you!” Then she went quiet again and he just held her. That’s when he heard the low growl come from behind them. Koga turned turn his head to look over his shoulder and saw Inuyasha standing in the door way. His ears were slightly drooped and there was an emptiness in his golden eyes. Before Koga could say anything Inuyasha walked away and headed for the roof entrance.
“Come on let’s get you home.” Kagome nodded against his chest and let him help her up. As they left the room Naraku stepped out of the shadows. ‘She will be mine, along with this company.’ he thought to himself with an evil smirk before disappearing all together.
“So Kagome, are you going home for Christmas?” Koga asked as they walked toward her front door. She just shook her head and stared at their feet as they walked. “And why not?” His blue eyes watching her intently. “I couldn’t fake being happy around my family and I didn’t want to ruin their holiday.” Blue eyes met grey as they stopped in front of the door. She swiftly got on the tips of her toes and kissed him on the cheek. “thank you for being there for me.” she said with a weak smile. Koga nodded before grabbing her by the shoulders and hugging her. “Don’t worry Kagome, you will end up happy.” He released her and tucked a few stray strands of hair behind her ear before walking back towards the elevator.
Inside the apartment Sango and Miroku were in her room talking heatedly. They sat there discussing what Miroku learned when they heard the front door open and close. “It’s Kagome, she’s home.” Sango said quietly and sat there listening to what her roommate was going to do. Before they knew it there was a soft knock on her bedroom door. “Sango I’m back, I’m just going to head to bed though, have a good night ok?” Sango stood and walked toward the door. “Is everything alright Kagome?” her voice full of concern. Kagome cleared her throat before answering. “yeah, just a little tired that’s all. I’ll see you in the morning.” Sango sighed, she couldn’t stand how sad her friend was.
“Miroku we have got to do something, I can’t stand to see either of them like this.” Miroku nodded and hugged his girlfriend. “We’ll get it fixed somehow, I promise.” he held her tighter before leaning down and kissing her softly. “I love you Sango”. She smiled at him and gave him a brief kiss in return. “I love you too Miroku” That night they laid in Sango’s bed and just held each other. Miroku couldn’t help but think about what he had discovered that afternoon.
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Inuyasha in the mean time was still standing on the roof. He had long ago ignored the numb feeling in his ears and face. The only feeling he felt right now was the pain in his heart. He didn’t know how he was going to prove it to Kagome that he didn’t have sex with Kikyo but now he wasn’t sure it mattered if he did. Seeing her in Koga’s arms again tore his heart into pieces. She felt content at that moment, he knows, he felt it through their marks, but to know that it was another man almost killed him. He didn’t turn when he heard the roof door open and close. He knew it was Koga and he really didn’t want to look at the bastard.
“Inuyasha…I can tell you are upset, but you need to know that it’s not what it seemed down there.” Koga said as he walked toward the hanyou. “I don’t give a fuck!” Inuyasha growled out and clenched his fists. Koga rolled his eyes and stepped in front of him. “Tell me the truth, did you have sex with Kikyo that day Kagome found you?” Inuyasha’s golden orbs burned into Koga’s baby blue ones. “No I didn’t have sex with Kikyo, I marked Kagome and that means I only want to be with Kagome!” he practically yelled. Koga leaned in a little and sniffed at him. He did this for a few minutes before his eyes went wide and stepped back. “You’re telling the truth!” Inuyasha sighed and looked down at a falling snowflake. “glad someone believes me.” he said quietly.
Koga realized he should have been glad to see the hanyou in so much pain, especially after stealing Kagome away from him but he just couldn’t. Inuyasha looked lost and he knew that if something like this happened between him and his mate that he would be just as bad and for once Koga felt like being kind to him. “I’ll help you get her back” Koga said quietly. Inuyasha just stared for a moment before rolling his eyes. “Yeah right, because what I saw down there was you helping!” Koga growled before pushing Inuyasha. “Look here you piece of shit, I tried to tell you earlier that it’s not what it looked like, she was crying her eyes out man, over you…”
Inuyasha pushed him back. “I know I fucking hurt her you ass-hole! I feel it every damn minute of every damn day through our marks!” Koga started to yell back until he really noticed the black circles under his roommates eyes. “Is that why you haven’t been sleeping? Because you can feel her?” Inuyasha sighed and slumped down against the ledge of the roof. The cold snow soaking his clothes even more. “Yes…that and because every time I close my eyes I see that day replay from the moment I realized Kikyo was on top of me to the moment I smelled Kagome’s tears.” Koga gave a little nod of understanding and joined the hanyou on the ground.
“I don’t know what I can do to ever make her trust me again…”Inuyasha said trailing off. “We’ll come up with a plan, don’t worry, you’ll get your mate back.” Koga glanced at Inuyasha to see his reaction to his words. “Why are you trying to help me? You don’t even fucking like me.” he said while fisting the snow. “ Look Kagome is my friend, and even though I still feel like you stole her away from me, I know that she loves you just as much as you love her and that she is happy with you.” Inuyasha could only scoff. “She was happy with me…I’ll probably never get my mate back.” he said with a slightly whimper. Koga punched his arm causing Inuyasha to fall over in the snow. “Stop talking like that dumb-ass or you won’t ever get her back, now get your ass up and lets go outside it fucking freezing. Inuyasha just growled and followed Koga back into the building.
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Back in Kagome’s room, she laid in bed staring at the ceiling. Koga’s words kept replaying in her mind over and over again. “Will I really be happy again?” she asked herself out loud before rolling over and staring at the mural. “Oh Inuyasha, I wish we could go back in time and never repeat that day.” she said softly before drifting off to sleep. Sango wiped a tear away as she stood by her best friends door. ‘Oh Kagome, I promise that we will fix this.’ she thought to herself as she gently touched her roommates door and walked away.
She rejoined Miroku on the couch and hugged him. “Oh Miroku, she’s in so much pain…” Sango said as she one again wiped a tear from her eyes. “I over heard her wishing that, that day had never happened.” Miroku gently squeezed her arm and looked down at her. “Well wouldn’t you want to wish that it never happened, it’s understandable Sango.” She just shook her head. “No I think she meant all of it Miroku, she’s giving up. We need to hurry up and get the truth out of that bitch so that way our friends will be happy together again!” Mirkou nodded in agreement and continued to hold his girlfriend.
Neither of them noticed Kagome standing in the hallway listening. ‘What do they mean “get that bitch to tell the truth”?’ She thought to herself before making her way quietly back to her room. Kagome quietly shut the door behind her before snatching her cell phone off the night stand. “someone is going to explain what is going on…” she half growled out as she punched in a number on her phone. “pick up pick up pick up…” she chanted over and over until she heard Koga’s voice.
“Uh hey, what’s up?” He answered nervously. “Do you know what the hell is going on? Cause I can’t take anymore sneaking behind my back!” she yelled into the phone. “whoa calm down, look now’s not a good time.” Kagome huffed and bit her lip to keep from screaming. “Fine call me back when it is a good time!!!” she growled into the phone and hung up. “jackass” she mumbled quietly before sitting on her bed.
Koga closed his phone and gave Inuyasha a nervous smile. Inuyasha’s eyes narrowed as he stared at Koga. “Look I know that you know that it was Kagome on the phone. She just wants to know what is going on. Maybe I should go up there and tell her that you are telling that truth, maybe that way she’ll actually let you explain what happened.” Inuyasha shoulder sagged and he closed his eyes. “But I don’t even really understand what happened. I mean, I worked out, took a break and fell asleep on the couch, next thing I know Kikyo is on top of me acting…” His eyes went wide as the realization hit him. “That BITCH!!” he yelled. Koga just stared in amazement. “She set me up, she was acting like she was having sex with me! She must of known Kagome was coming up! DAMN IT!!” he yelled before pacing back and forth. “how could I have been so stupid!’ he mumbled to himself.
Koga just sat there watching the hanyou continue to pace and mumble to himself. “Ok now that we figured out what happened maybe I should go and talk to Kagome.” Inuyasha stopped and looked at him. With a nod from Inuyasha, Koga got up and left the apartment. Inuyasha could just stand and stare at the door. ‘Please Kagome, please believe me’ he silently begged before making his way to his room. Before he made to his door his cell rang. “Hey man, you better think of something very romantic if you want to make this mistake up to her, just giving you a fair warning.” Koga voice sounded out the small device. “Thanks man…” Inuyasha said before hanging up the phone. “something romantic” he mumbled to himself and scratched at his ear as he walked into the room.
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Miroku sighed as Sango continued to pound on Kikyo’s door. “Open up whore, I know you’re in there!” Sango shouted. With that the door flew open. “Who the hell are you calling a whore?!” Kikyo screamed back. Sango started to make a move like she was going to punch her before Miroku held her back. “Let me go, I want to teach her a lesson for messing with other peoples boyfriends!” Sango growled out and tried to lung at Kikyo. She just smirked and checked out her nails. “Settle down Sango so we can get this over with.” Miroku said softly before releasing his girlfriend. “Now Kikyo explain to us why you were basically dry humping Inuyasha that day?” He said with a raised eyebrow and watched as her face paled. Sango couldn’t help but smirk and cross her arms over her chest feeling satisfied.
“I…uh I don’t know what you are talking about!” Kikyo stammered and tried to go back into her apartment. “I don’t think so!” Sango said grabbing her arm and the couple followed her inside. “We are going anyway until we get the truth out of you and that’s by any means necessary” Miroku stated and watched as Sango cracked her knuckles. Kikyo plastered on a fake smile and quickly tried to think of a lie. ’If I tell the truth Naraku will kill me!’ she thought to herself before turning back to her angry classmates.
Sango continued to fume as Kikyo sat there looking dumb, that was until she felt a hand rubbing her ass. “You Pervert!” she screamed and smacked Miroku upside the head. “Sango my love I just wanted to get you to relax a little bit before you have to beat the truth out her.” he said with a sweet smile. Sango thought for a minute about what he said and a small smile began to form on her lips. “Well thank you baby” she said before giving him a brief kiss. Kikyo stared in disbelief at the couple in front of her. “I don’t believe this, you’re actually going to let her kick my ass? Miroku we were friends until this little bitch came along.” At that moment a look crossed over Miroku’s face that none have ever seen before. “Don’t you dare call my girlfriend a bitch!” he purple eyes blazed in anger as he stared at Kikyo. “And for your information, I only put up with you because Inuyasha THOUGHT he was in love with you, until he found his true mate!” he practically yelled at her.
Sango couldn’t help but look on with pride that it was her boyfriend that was putting that bitch in her place. Kikyo stood up and folded her arms across her chest. “I am not telling you anything, now get out of my apartment before I really get pissed, and believe me I have connections! If you ever want to dance in this city again you better leave fast.” Her cold eyes clashed with Sango’s warm brown but reliantly the couple left. Kikyo locked the door and let out a sigh as she heard their retreating footsteps. “Naraku…you owe me big!”
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Koga knocked on apartment door. A gentle “come in” was heard from inside so he decided to enter. “Kagome?” Just as he said her name, Kagome came walking out of the kitchen with a cup of hot chocolate. “Hi Koga, I thought you were suppose to call me back not come over.” She said as she sat down on the soft couch. She patted the seat beside her the Koga quickly took. “Kagome look, I need to talk to you about something really important and I really need you to hear me out before you say anything.” Kagome gave him a slow nod and stared at him as he slightly fidgeted on the couch.
Kagome’s eye slowly began to widen. “Koga…look you and Ayame are mated and I know I asked what happened between us but that’s only because I was curious I can’t and won’t come between you two…” She started to babble before Koga’s deep laugh interrupted her. “No Kagome that’s not what I need to talk to you about….it’s about Inuyasha.” At the mention of his name a deep sadness filled Kagome’s eyes. “I don’t want to talk about him…unless he’s hurt, is he hurt?” Concern immediately replaced the sadness in her grey eyes as she waited for Koga to answer.
With a sigh Koga gently took her hands in his own. “Inuyasha is alright, he missed you a lot but he is fine. I need to tell you something about him though and I really need you to listen and believe me.” Kagome once again nodded and waited for Koga to begin. “Ok now what I am about to say is going to sound a bit crazy because of the way me and Inuyasha fight but I know how miserable you are without him as he is without you so I came by to tell you that Inuyasha is telling you the truth about Kikyo, he didn’t have sex with her when you walked in on them, in fact he was asleep moments before you saw them.” After all was said and done Koga stared at Kagome waiting for a reaction.
Kagome gave a little laugh. “Yeah right, he wasn’t sleeping Koga, I saw them and for you to lie for him makes things worse.” the tears started to well up in her eyes. “Kagome, us demons, we can smell when someone is lying and Kagome, Inuyasha wasn’t lying about that. He would never purposely hurt you, he loves you. You’re his mate.” Koga said and gave her hands a little squeeze. “So what you’re telling me is that Kikyo planned all of this to split me and Inuyasha up?” She asked, her eyebrows scrunched together in concentration. Koga gave a little nod. “Look you would know if Inuyasha truly cheated on you, that mark you now bare on your shoulder from the night you spent together, it means ’love’ and it’s there forever. It means that you two were meant for each other. With that mark you two are bonded, he feels your pain, and if what happened was real the pain would be about ten times worse.”
Kagome felt the tears slide down her cheek as the realization hit her. Her grey eyes shined brightly as the tears continued to flow. It felt like a giant weight had been lifted off her heart. “Are you sure? I mean really sure?” Koga gave her a small smile. “Yes Kagome, you know I don’t like the stinking mutt so what I am telling you has to be the true right?” Kagome left out a little laugh before throwing her arms around his neck and hugging him. “Thank you…for telling me.” After she let go she sat back with a frown. “What’s the matter, you were just happy?” he touched her shoulder to get her attention. “Why didn’t Inuyasha tell me this.” Koga sighed once again. “Kagome…you wouldn’t let him near you remember?” Her hand immediately cover her face. “Oh God…”
Meanwhile Inuyasha was still pacing back and forth in his bedroom. As he passed his night stand he quietly grabbed his cell phone and stared at it for a few minutes. “This is so stupid. I don’t know how to make this up to her by being romantic…” he mumbled to himself. With a growl he punched in a number on the tiny phone and waited for an answer. “This better be good…” came a deep voice on the other end of the line. “Sesshomaru…I need your help…how do you be romantic?” he asked with a little whimper. There was only silence on the other end of the line. “Sesshomaru?” Just then he heard a deep laugh. “asshole” he mumbled before his brother began to talk.
*Sorry it took so long to update, I hope this enough to satisfy for now, I promise to start working on the next chapter right a way. Hope you enjoy!!! Please review and thank you for all of your patience!!
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