Original Poetry Fan Fiction ❯ Company's Lil Sin ❯ Company's Lil Sin ( Chapter 1 )
[ P - Pre-Teen ]
Company's Lil Sin
A journey of life
Trails taken by all
Prints in the sand
Imprinting past calls
Alone my travels start
The prints only mine
The farther I walk
Old prints left behind
Sad journey…
Bitter truths…
Life's hard…
Only you…
The future is barren
A large sandy plain
Turn look behind
Past prints explain
And so I take this trail
Afraid to look ahead
Plain, terrifying dunes
Keep the past in my head
The farther I get
Prints change with my steps
Life still as hard
Now often depressed
I stumble along
Down this trail unknown
Something comes along…
Eases my lones…
It stays by my side
A visible glee
Something now and forward
Constant company
Soon however
My steps begin to slow
Seeking just ease
That glee soon owns
Trapped by its powers
And headed for death
But as odd as it sounds…
I wanted nothing less…
Drowned with self-loathing
Only wanting release
Yet still steps kept going
Without any of peace…
Darkness drags at my heart
Company's lil sin…
Bound to its callings
Yet no wanting to win…
Harshness and cruelty…
I begin to seek truth
What kind of purpose?
What's the whole ruse?
Finally my steps falter
Over death or life…
Held at the brink
At the point of a knife…
Shadows of gloom
Heavy heavy soul…
I cry out to God…?
As if suddenly bold
`Lord of my father…
Lord of my youth…
The future is desolate…
What can I do?'
`Shadows and hardships…
I've gone this life alone…
Show me great Father!
For where have I to go?'
Angry and bitter
But now at a God…
Company's lil sin…
Is all that I got…
Death is even denied
As I turn, back on Him,
Reaching out fingers
But the angles ascend
Steps in the sand
A long trail I've made
Imprints from before
The past and today…
Slowly steps
Begin again
Making more imprints…
Making more sins…
Old future now present
Present now past
It all keeps on going
And each time I hold back
Finally though in loss
I search and I plead…
When down from the heavens
That love came to me
Rays of warm light
Fall upon my soul
As God sent an angle
To lead me from the cold…
Though now with a purpose
And life seeming more full
Though closer to God…
I end up feeling fooled…
Company's lil sin…
Still as constant as before
Making hell for the angels
By showing my core
No longer caring
I fall back in despair
Shunning those that would love me
And the ones I held dear…
Love not meant for me
And heaven, I'm not sure
But company's lil sin…
Will always be my cure…
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