Fushigi Yuugi Fan Fiction ❯ Letting the Sun og down - Yui's thoughts ❯ Chapter 1

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Letting the Sun Go Down

With narrowed eyes I look up,

The orange globe of fire stares at me.

Hate, anger resentment and pain,

That in the globe I see.

So many worries, so much trouble,

Does anybody really understand why?

We all feel the same emotions yet its different,

I thought this, turning to the sky.

No one gets us, nobody to trust,

Alone in this world we feel sometime,

What can we do when fall into shadows?

No answer I heard but for wind chimes.

Hurts for but a moment only,

Yet remembered for ever more,

It's easy to forgive but not to forget,

I have always evened the score.

Then I hear the birds and trees whisper,

Then just my own words and mind,

Who do I hurt with all this anger?

“Just me!” is the answer I find.

Tears cried that no one can see,

Hurt that only I did feel,

Its my fault, yes that I see,

Things around seem unreal.

Its alright, as long as I smile,

Say “I'm fine” show no pain.

I need no one, I want no one,

They just drive me insane.

I shout to the trees, “I don't want to care”

Grey blocks the setting sun,

Is there no answer or help for me?

I've had it, what is done is done.

We all need someone sometime,

It's hard when everything is gone.

But I started at the flash of lightening,

I'd been alone all along.

I can listen, be cried on,

Yet I hate to do the same.

Keep most people at arms length,

Lose them again and again.

The clouds cried heavenly drops,

I see this and I smile

The past washes away, ah! A new day,

It has been a while.

I let it go, my emotions, myself,

Just felt the sweet rays and rain,

The sun went down and the wind was still,

Finally I felt happy again.