InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Broken Hearts and Crushed Dreams ❯ Hot Tears ( Chapter 6 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

~Chapter Six~
.:Hot Tears:.
 
Kagome was asleep by his side in Kaede's hut. She hadn't been able to sleep without him since Miroku, Sango and Shippo had died. It made him wonder how he was going to meet Kikyo later that night.
Kikyo and Inuyasha had been in love when the bandit, Onigumo, called upon the demons and Naraku was born. Shortly thereafter, Naraku tricked both Kikyo and Inuyasha into betraying one another. As a result, Inuyasha was pinned to a tree, for what would have been eternity, and Kikyo chose to follow him in death.
Fifty years later, Kagome fell through the well and came into the Warring States Era and met Inuyasha. That was so long ago…
Some time after Kagome came into his life he had fallen in love with her. Over the past three years and few and far between run- ins with the resurrected Kikyo, Inuyasha had fallen out of love with Kikyo. It was more of a quiet understanding. It had been a long time since he had loved Kikyo. If only he could tell Kagome that.
He had never been good with words. He always had a hard time with expressing his emotions. Especially when it came to Kikyo and Kagome. He never meant to hurt Kagome but he always managed to do so, whether it involved Kikyo or not.
Inuyasha untangled his body from Kagome's and turned to leave. He took one last look at Kagome's sleeping form. He watched the rise and fall of her breathing, and the movement of her eyes beneath her eyelids.
Inuyasha walked out into the night, the stars were brightly glowing with the crescent moon above the dark forest. Inuyasha sprinted in the direction of Goshinboku, the sacred tree. He wanted to get this over with before Kagome awoke and realized he wasn't there.
“Inuyasha…” came a voice from under the rustling leaves on the branches of Goshinboku.
“Ki- Kikyo.”
“I've been waiting for you.”
“…I know.”
 
She blinked wearily as sleep loosened its hold on her mind. She opened her eyes to find moonlight flowing through the windows and onto the floor boards. She sat up and yawned sleepily.
Where's Inuyasha? A voice in the back of her mind said in the darkness.
She looked around, turning her head from side to side searching the empty room for the hanyou.
Where could he have gone? It must be well after midnight.
Memories flooded her mind of Kikyo and Inuyasha. She had found them under Goshinboku, where Inuyasha vowed to protect Kikyo. He had chosen Kikyo over her. But after much thought and hot tears, Kagome had asked Inuyasha if she could still stay with him. She knew she could never make him forget Kikyo, nor could she ever take her place. That had been when she had wished Kikyo had never come to be.
At the thought of Inuyasha and Kikyo being together, tears came to her eyes. She quickly blinked them back.
Kikyo left. Kikyo's not here. She assured herself.
Not thinking of what she was doing, Kagome got up and wandered out of the hut. For the second time that day, she walked down the path to Goshinboku. She was terrified of what she would find.
Maybe he's not there.
But every time he needs time to think he goes to Goshinboku.
An image of Kikyo and Inuyasha locked in a kiss eluded her mind. I don't know if I can take it if I lose Inuyasha too…
Goshinboku was in sight. The leaves shifting in the breeze, the crescent moon hovering over the horizon. Her fears were realized once more as she caught a glimpse of Inuyasha and Kikyo. They were deep in conversation. Inuyasha's brow was furrowed and Kikyo with a sad look on her face. She couldn't hear what they were talking about but she didn't care.
He snuck out to see Kikyo. How could he…?
She didn't want to risk Inuyasha catching the scent of her tears; she hurriedly walked back towards Kaede's hut. She started jogging after the first five steps, then started to sprint as fast as she could. Her heart beat loudly in her ears. She could feel her blood rushing through her veins and her cheeks flush at the exercise. She could no longer breathe and cry at the same time; no matter, she had formed a plan in the instant it took her to arrive back in the hut.
She started stuffing her belongings as quickly as humanly possible into her already gargantuan bag.
I have to get out of here. Now.
 
“Inuyasha, I'm going to die.”
“But… you're already dead.” He replied with a confused look on his face.
“I will cease to exist. I am done. I have finished my work in this world.”
“…I don't understand.”
“Naraku is dead. The jewel is purified and within Kagome.”
Inuyasha stared at her for a moment, and then realizing she was done, “Kikyo…”
“Kagome only can go through the well once more to her own time. As soon as she goes back through, she can never come back. You could go with her but only if you are somehow touching. Make sure she knows this.”
Inuyasha nodded.
“For if she goes through, there is no returning. It is impossible to reopen the time slip in the well.”
“Alright, I'll tell her.” This arose some emotion in him. The thought of losing Kagome was unbearable. He'd die.
“I have always loved you, Inuyasha; even after you had moved on.”
He stared at her for a moment, and then realizing what she was saying, he raised his dark eyebrows; they disappeared beneath his thick, silver bangs and nodded for her to elaborate.
“It's in every breath, every beat and every movement you make. It is obvious that you are in love with Kagome. The way you look at her… you never looked at me that way.”
At this, Inuyasha looked around for a way out. He was already uncomfortable; he didn't want her to continue. It didn't feel right for her to be laying her heart in his hands only to have it crushed.
Kikyo continued, “I understand. Nothing could change the way I feel about you. Even though you have moved on, I haven't. I just wanted to tell you how much I love you before I left this world.”
“Kikyo… I don't know what to say…” Inuyasha replied, a bit short of breath.
“You don't have to say anything.” Without missing a beat, she wrapped her arms around him.
He felt like he was going to have a heart attack. This was all too much to take in one sitting. He wanted her off of him. He wanted to go back and lay down with Kagome. He didn't know how much more he could take.
As Kikyo lessened her hold around his waist, she looked into his eyes. At first, he thought he had a kiss coming his way and was preparing himself to push her away. Instead she smiled, “Goodbye, Inuyasha… take care of Kagome, she's good for you…”
He was caught off guard and stuttered, “Uh… erm… yeah… bye.”
She turned away leaving him in shock and terror. How could she know so much? She could see all that? And here I thought I was being discreet… After staring at the trunk of the ancient tree for several moments he turned back towards Kaede's hut.
Here or there? Here or there?
Kagome's world or mine?
………Telling her this would mean… revealing my feelings for her…
Yeah…no problem, he told himself as he prepared himself for the most difficult conversation he would ever have.