Mai-HiME Fan Fiction ❯ Mai-HiME: A Letter for You ❯ The Cruelest Thing ( Chapter 6 )

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Mai-HiME: A Letter for You

Part 6: The Cruelist Thing


Ani-ue, my heart is confused.

I tried to take your advice about Mai. When you told me that her happiness
should be my happiness, I thought I'd found a way out. I thought I could
find a way to live without her love. But I was wrong.

You probably know by now that I moved out. I couldn't take living with her
anymore, knowing that her smile wasn't mine alone. Knowing that her kiss
wasn't mine alone. Mai is the kindest person I know, but because she's so
kind makes her the cruelest person. She couldn't tell me to go away. She
couldn't tell me that she didn't love me that way.

Yuuichi was the other reason I left. He's my friend and always kind and funny.
He makes Mai smile. If Mai chose someone like him it wouldn't be so bad. I
could be happy for them. That lie kept me sane for a while. But deep in my
heart I started to hate him. I wanted to scream at him; "Don't make her smile!
Don't make her laugh! Don't make her look at you that way! Don't make her give
you her heart."

I left because I hated him. Mai was the one who taught me what real love felt
like. So, I could never hate something she loves.

Now someone new is in my life. She's fun to be around and pretty. She makes me
feel like it's all right to start living again. I want to give myself to Yukino,
to let her fill the emptiness if only for a moment. But, why is a part of me
holding back? Why can't I just let Mai go and start my life over?

Ani-ue, what should I do?