Rurouni Kenshin Fan Fiction ❯ Emotionless ❯ Emotionless ( Chapter 1 )

Disclaimer: I don't own Rurouni Kenshin and I never will…

Author's Note: This is a songfic. I was bored so I decided to do something different. It's about Kenji and his feelings toward his dad. Oh, and I do not own Good Charlotte either…

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Emotionless

Kenji walked to his room, opening and closing the thin, rice paper door. He walked to his futon and collapsed onto the soft cloth. He held his breath. He wouldn't cry. Despite his effort to contain himself, tears streamed from his eyes and onto his yukata.

Hey, Dad…

I'm writing to you…

Not to tell you that I still hate you

Just to ask you how you feel

And how we fell apart. How this fell apart.

Are you happy out there in this great, wide world?

Do you think about your sons?

Do you miss your little girl?

When you lay your head down, how do you sleep at night?

Do you even wonder if we're alright?

We're alright… We're alright….

Kenji clutched his knees, crying into his yukata, not caring whether it turned wet. More tears fell. He was never coming back. He never will. He left them there. He had hurt his mom and him… He didn't care. That's why he left. That's why…

It's been a long, hard road without you by my side

Why weren't there all the nights that we cried?

You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life

It's not okay… but we're alright

I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes

But those are just a long, lost memory of mine

I spent so many years learning how to survive now I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive…

Kaoru walked down the hallway, her feet padding softly on the wood. She walked by her room. Kenshin's room. Their room. She sighed sadly as she passed it toward Kenji's room.

"Dad…"

Kaoru stopped. She turned her head towards the sound. Crying… She heard… crying?

The days I spent so cold, so hungry were full of hate

I was so angry

The scars run deep inside this tattooed body

There's things I'll take to my grave

But I'm okay… I'm okay…

It's been a long, hard road without you by my side

Why weren't there all the nights that we cried?

You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life

It's not okay… but we're alright

I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes

But those are just a long, lost memory of mine

I spent so many years learning how to survive now I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive…

Kaoru leaned close to the door, her ear pressed on the thin paper. He was crying. But why?

She slid it open. Kenji heard her. He lifted his head slowly, his face wet with tears. Kaoru gasped. He stopped and wiped his eyes with his sleeve. Kaoru shuffled over and held him.

"Kenji, what's wrong?" she asked softly. Kenji shook his head. She stopped him and wiped the remaining tears that were streaming from his eyes. His eyes matched her own, a clear ocean-blue.

"He's not coming back is he?" he breathed. Kaoru understood. Kenji missed his father. He always seemed to show that he hated him but… this is how he feels. She held him close, letting him cry freely onto her kimono.

Sometimes… I forgive…

Yeah, and this time… I'll admit…

That I miss you, said I miss you…

It's been a long, hard road without you by my side

Why weren't there all the nights that we cried?

You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life

It's not okay… but we're alright

I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes

But those are just a long, lost memory of mine

I spent so many years learning how to survive now I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive…

"He's coming back… I promise," she soothed. Kenji nodded while his face was in her kimono. "He promised."

Kenji breathed easier now. He was coming back. He promised.

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The next morning, Kenji awoke and dressed slowly into his training clothes. His bokken laid next to his futon. He picked it up and walked out into the courtyard of the dojo. The sun's rays shone his face. Kenji welcomed the warmth on his cheeks, dry tears still there. He was coming back… He would… He promised…

And sometimes, I forgive

Yeah, and this time, I'll admit

That I miss you… I miss you…

Hey, Dad…