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Mina's Wish

I have longed for this day. The day that I might have friends. I've been so lonely these past days. I have not wanted much, been given too many things most people don't have to be selfish like that. Yet I feel so empty. Void of love and compassion, I walk alone. That is my path. The others came, took my title so easily, like the thought it was theirs already. I didn't complain, for I had friends. But now I regret my silence. I should have shunned them, I should have made them be alone. But I helped them, and now I feel lost.

I have too much extra. It's dragging me down. I never thought I'd hate my gifts, like I kinda do now. I can't take it, I wished they'd just go away. But I'll just smile and do what they say. I need time alone, I had so much time alone before. But there's always someone next to me, so I can't say what I feel. I feel like I'm being watched. I'm never alone. I'm not myself any more, just a girl in the group. I don't have my own feelings or emotions anymore. I gave them up, so we can act as one. I want myself back.

It hurts when my thoughts are overruled, because someone didn't agree. They make me someone I'm not. I can't take it anymore. I want out. But there's no going back. It's too late for me. But why? I can quit anytime, I have the choice, I thought. No I don't, nothing's mine, anymore. My soul is there's now, and they can hear my thoughts. What happens if I think something they don't like? What would they do to me?

I can't take it, it's killing me from the inside. Anger, pain, regret. It's all tearing me apart. I can't breath. I need out. I want my soul back. I want my feelings and emotions back. I'm not myself anymore.