Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ What I didn't Know ❯ What I didn't Know ( Chapter 1 )

What I didn't Know

 

I knew my brother cared for me. That I never doubted. He's my only family. For as long as I can remember it's just been us two. I never really knew my mother or father. Or any of our other relatives, for that matter. I never minded actually. He was enough. He was all I ever really needed.

 

I knew my brother loved me. And I loved him. He didn't need to tell me. It was unspoken. We were family, we were close like that and some things never needed to be said. I knew he couldn't spend that much time with me. But that was okay too. Whenever he was working himself too hard I would let him know. Bring him his lunch if need be, hang out with him when it looked like he needed a break It was the least I could do, after all that he has done for me.

 

I knew it was all fault. It has always been my fault. I am the reason mom died after all. I am also the reason Seto never got adopted. Who knows, maybe he could have gotten adopted into a loving, caring family. A family that would love him. Cherish him. But no, He chose to stay with me until a family would adopt the both of us. For being such a genius, my big brother is quite an idiot. Imagine how different his life could have been, without me. Maybe he would have smiled more often.

 

But what I didn't know. What I never knew. What I never wanted to know was that he…would die for me. I never knew that his last words would be an apology. Him apologizing to me! Telling me how sorry he was that he hadn't been there for me as much as he should have. Sorry that now he was leaving me; going to place I couldn't follow.

 

I don't know whether or not he even heard me. I don't know whether or not he heard me say that our roles should have been reversed. I should be the one dying, not him. That bullet was meant for me, not him!

 

I will never know whether or not he heard me say how much I loved him. That he was the best big brother I could have asked for.

 

We'd been through so much together but I never knew despair. As long as I had him with me everything would be okay. But now…he's ….he's- I can't even say it.

 

I never knew…oh god I never knew. That it could hurt this much. That Seto could leave me. And that it would be all my fault.

 

-Mokuba