InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ ForgetMeNot ❯ Do You Regret ( Chapter 4 )

Forget-Me-Not

By: Youkai Yume

Well, now that I actually read my last chapter, I realized that it WAS short. I'll try to make the next chapters longer. Thanks for all of the support! I'm so touched! (sniff) I think I'll just go at my own pace. I mean there'll always be someone out there who thinks I'm going too fast or too slow, but if they don't like it, well, no one says that they have to keep reading. . . To those who like my fic and read it no matter what, I love you! Well, what're you doing reading all this useless crap? Go on with the story!!!

Disclaimer: Yeah, I own Inuyasha, (lawyers come out with guns) When pigs fly. . . (Pig flies overhead) Well, what do ya know, Inuyasha belongs to me! ^o^ (Lawyers shoots pig down) Damn. Well, it was nice for about 3 seconds. -_-;

Chapter 4: Do You Regret?

Breakfast was finished hastily, as Rin ran off to play with Shippo and Kirara. It was the first time that she got to play with someone around her age, and it was now that she took full advantage of the opportunity. Sure, she played plenty with Jaken, but he wasn't exactly the most willing or fun playmate out there.

Sesshomaru watched as the children played in a nearby field that was close to camp. Rin of course was picking flowers, weeds, and any other kind of vegetation growing within the area.

He breathed in the brisk morning air, and his nose picked up the scent of sakura blossoms and jasmine. He slightly turned his head, and sure enough, by his side was Kagome.

"Do you mind if I join you?" He closed his eyes and didn't respond. Kagome took that as a `Yes' and sat down beside the taiyoukai. After a few minutes of watching the little girl with keen interest, she turned to look at Sesshomaru.

"Sesshomaru-sama, how did you come to have Rin?" She just had to know. `I mean, it kinda defies the laws of nature for Sesshomaru to care for a HUMAN child. It's just so illogical.'

"Why do you wish to know? It's none of your business." He snapped at her.

"Um. . . just because I'm curious?"

"Humans, someday your curiosity will be your undoing."

"I'm willing to take that risk," she insisted.

He thought over it for a while. Although Rin started out as an experiment for the Tenseiga, she slowly began to grow on him, and gave a little light to his life. She was an annoyance at times, and he found many times to be debating whether or not to just leave her at some village for the humans to care for.

But every time he tried to do so, he found that he couldn't, and instead decided to care and protect her, like a father would a daughter. It was somewhat fulfilling in a way, and although he'd never admit it, he enjoyed the child's companionship. Coming out of his thoughts, he decided to answer Kagome.

"Do you remember the battle that took place between Inuyasha and myself when he discovered the Wind-Scar?" Kagome nodded. "Well, after he struck me, I was transported to a clearing near a village where Rin lived. She found me injured, and tried to care for me by bringing food and water.

"I had noticed bruises on her body, and knew that the villagers were abusing her. I did not care much though, and left as soon as I was able. However, as soon as I departed, I smelled her blood along with the scent of hungry wolves, and decided to investigate. When I had arrived, she was already dead, slaughtered by a wolf youkai pack."

Kagome nodded, her attention fully on him. The story was interesting, and when he came to the part about the wolves, her mind wandered slightly to Koga for an instant. `Could it have been. . . ?' She shook away her thoughts when Sesshomaru continued with the story.

"I decided to test the Tenseiga and brought Rin back to life. It was only an experiment, nothing more. But she followed me, much to Jaken's annoyance, and has stayed with me ever since." When he was finished, Kagome was left with nothing but surprise. `Wow,' was all she could think about.

He recalled the memory perfectly. Rin's frightened face upon first meeting him, and her futile efforts to heal the demon lord. Sesshomaru idly compared the similarities to his fist encounter with Rin and the recent event of Kagome's saving his life. The only difference was that for some reason, he was more willing to accept Kagome's help than he was for Rin. Maybe it was because at the time, he was less trusting of humans, or maybe it's. . . something else.

After several moments of silence, Kagome decided to break it.

"Thank you, for telling me. I have only one more question to ask," She looked up at him. Sesshomaru looked slightly tired, but not annoyed with her. Although he didn't say anything, she knew that if he were, he would say `What now, wench?' She inhaled deeply and continued. "Do you regret what you did? Saving Rin, I mean."

Sesshomaru tore his gaze from Kagome to Rin, who was now chasing Jaken around the field with Shippo trailing behind, yelling,

"Jaken-sama! Come back and show Shippo-chan how many worms Jaken-sama can eat!"

He turned from the amusing scene to once again face Kagome.

"Do you regret saving me?" Kagome's eyes dropped to her lap.

"I'm not sure," she admitted. She heard him scoff in annoyance at her response. `Humans,' he thought, `always so insecure. They are truly imperfect beings.' Sesshomaru watched her from the corner of his eye as she began to fiddle with the grass before standing up from her spot. Kagome knew that he didn't want to discuss the matter any further, so there was no point pushing him. She brushed off any clinging dirt and grass from her outfit, and ran over to join the children, who were now shoving worms down the poor toad's throat.

~ ^_^ ~

Inuyasha watched Kagome in a nearby tree. His blood was boiling from the duel that he nearly had with Sesshomaru. `Why is he still here? He looks well enough to leave on his own!' What made him even more angry, was the fact that Kagome was being all friendly with him. As if they had always been friends, and always shared conversations such as this.

`No, Sesshomaru must be up to something. He's after Tetsusaiga like he always is! What angle is he playing at?' He began to brainstorm, and slowly put together pieces in his head. When he came to a plausible conclusion, he landed onto the forest floor, heading towards Kagome.

On his way, he passed Sesshomaru, and threw a dirty look over at him. Sesshomaru glared back, and watched him as he proceeded over to where Kagome was being brutally tickled by Rin and Shippo. When her breathing calmed, and her laughter died out, she opened her eyes to see Inuyasha towering over her.

"Kagome, can I talk to you?" She nodded, but didn't move from the spot. The children looked up at him expectantly. "Alone?" he added. Shippo and Rin sighed and ran off to pick some more flowers, and maybe torture Jaken some more.

Inuyasha stretched out a hand for Kagome, which she gladly took, and helped her up.

"What is it?" She asked.

"Not here," he looked over to Sesshomaru who was still continuing to watch them. Inuyasha knew that his brother could hear everything from there. He quickly picked up Kagome bridal style and took off.

Kagome was utterly confused, but stayed quiet until they landed by a small stream not far from where their camp was. He put Kagome down, and turned her to face him. She looked confusedly into his amber eyes, `Almost like Sesshomaru's eyes,' she thought dazedly.

"This must be important if you brought me all the way out here." She noticed him shift uncomfortably.

"It's about Sesshomaru," `Oh Boy, here it comes.'

"What about him?" Inuyasha looked at her sharply.

"What do you mean, `What about him?' Don't tell me you buy that whole `I agree to a truce,' thing! He's up to something, and I wanna know what!" Kagome narrowed her eyes at him.

"Inuyasha, why can't you just trust him for once?"

"EXCUSE ME?! I don't trust anyone, ESPECIALLY Sesshomaru!" He crossed his arms over his chest and turned his back on a frustrated Kagome.

"Well, you trust ME don't you?"

". . ."

"Then believe me when I say that Sesshomaru won't try anything! I've actually spent some time getting to know him, and he's not all that bad. He's still kinda cold, but still!"

"That's just IT Kagome!" He turned around to face her. He could tell she was totally confused now. "He's trying to get to us through YOU! He knows that we all trust you, and if you say that he's a friend, we'll all believe you! Then when we're all off our guard, he'll make his move, and run off with Tetsusaiga! He might not stop there, he might end up killing us! Killing you!"

Kagome processed in all of this information. Sesshomaru wouldn't do THAT, would he?

"You're wrong! You're just trying to get rid of him because of your stupid sibling rivalry!" Kagome shouted back, tears beginning to prick at her eyes.

"Damnit, Kagome! You're so caught up in his little innocent act that you've become blind to his true intentions! Can't you see that I'm only trying to protect you? I can't live with myself if anything were to happen to you!" Inuyasha quickly covered his mouth after realizing he had let out a little too much.

Kagome just stared, dumbfounded into Inuyasha's avoiding eyes.

"Inuyasha. . ." She took a step closer to him, and reached out to cup his cheek, forcing him to look at her. "I understand, but I'm asking you to please trust me. I know he's not all bad." Inuyasha placed his hand over hers, and pressed her palm closer to his cheek. He sighed and stared into her pleading eyes.

"I just don't want to lose you to Sesshomaru."

`So, it's not just about Tetsusaiga.'

"Inuyasha, are you jealous of me spending more time with Sesshomaru lately?"

"Feh." She couldn't help but giggle. `Yup, that's Inuyasha for ya.'

"Come on, let's get back to the others."

~ ^_^ ~

Sesshomaru looked up as Inuyasha came back with Kagome. It almost bothered him to see them so close. Almost. He vaguely wondered what they were talking about. The children immediately ran to show Kagome new flowers and insects that they had caught during her absence. Kagome only smiled warmly at them before resuming their play, as if the slight interruption never happened.

He noticed that she gave him glances now and then, but most of the time tried to avoid his gaze.

~ ^_^ ~

It was turning dark, fast. Everyone was beginning to settle in for the night, seeing as they were going to resume their jewel shard hunt sometime the next day. Sesshomaru was planning to leave in the morning as well with Rin and Jaken. Now, however, he decided to take a walk to clear his mind for a bit.

His legs lead him to a small lake. `A perfect spot to meditate.' He was about to do just that when he realized that he wasn't the only one there. Just a couple of yards away lay Kagome, who had her hands folded behind her head, and eyes gazing upward towards the stars. She turned slightly upon hearing Sesshomaru's nearing footsteps.

Blue met Gold in the dark night, and stayed locked onto each other for a couple of minutes before Kagome averted her eyes back to the stars.

"What're you doing here?" He asked, voice still cold as ever.

"Thinking, looking at the stars, you know," she responded lazily.

"And what are you thinking of?" He was surprised at his own question. Why should he care about what this woman-child thinks? Still, he awaited her answer.

"About what you asked me earlier." He looked at her with questioning eyes, but face still frozen in his indifferent mask. "The answer is," she took a deep breath, "is No. I don't regret saving you." Sesshomaru was surprised at what she said.

"Is that. . .so. . ."

"Yes, and Inuyasha may hate me for it, but I know that what I did was right. No one has the right to take away another life, and I didn't think yours would be any different."

Sesshomaru pondered over her words. What she said, it had meaning. He watched as she moved to stand up and stretch. She turned her heels to head back to camp, but stopped in her tracks. She turned her head slightly to look at him, and smiled.

"Besides, I don't think Rin would be very happy to know that her Sesshomaru-sama wasn't there to protect her anymore." With that she left, leaving Sesshomaru to contemplate over what she said. Although Kagome was no longer in his presence, her scent lingered, surrounding the demon lord bathed in the moon's light.

End Chapter ^_^

Well, how was that? I know there was a little fluff between Inuyasha and Kagome there, but like I said, she DID love him first. Anyways, Kagome will probably give Sesshomaru back his arm in the next chapter. So stick around! As for Naraku, I don't know, he'll most likely come around to cause some chaos, but not anytime soon I think. If you all want to send suggestions on what to do with him, please do! It's not that easy to shoot all this stuff outta our asses as it looks! Reviews are much appreciated, so REVIEW!

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