Yami No Matsuei Fan Fiction ❯ Dying Memories ❯ Tsuzuki ( Chapter 1 )
[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]
By: Authoress K. C. 
Anime/Manga: Yami No Matsuei Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Drama / Psychological / Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 03.23.2003 | Pages: 1 | Words: 425 | Visits: 259 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Yami No Matsuei Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Drama / Psychological / Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 03.23.2003 | Pages: 1 | Words: 425 | Visits: 259 | Status: Completed
Dying Memories
By: Karie
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God I'm weird tonight. Enjoy Minna!
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I can't seem to forget... Forgeting is probably a bad thing, but, why can I still remember...
I remember, Hisoka showed me something... Someone had made it and it wasn't to be used. But, I asked him to make me something. Not for everyone else, just me.
Heaven Doesn't Want Me. Hell Is Afraid I'll Take Over! Thats Why I'm Still HERE!!!!
That seemed appropriate, to add that last sentace. Its a poster, on the wall of my room.
Looking out the window, at the blossoms on the sakura trees, seeing them in the dying light of the day. They go from gentle pink to hateful, mocking red. Mocking me. Mocking the thin barriers I make, to protect me.
Why can't I just forget everything. Forget the blood on my hands. Forget the thing that holds me to the world of the living. Forget... Everything. Just forget, be me again, and just forget it all.
But I can't. In my head, I can still see it, still hear and see it.
-Don't touch me.-
Please...
-Go away.-
No, I didn't...
-Your filthy. Don't touch me! Get away!-
It wasn't my fault. It wasn't. There was nothing I did. But I didn't make it right. That was my fault. That made it all because of me.
Please, don't turn me away. Accept me. See, I'm sorry.
-Akuma! Get out!-
No... I'm not like that, please don't keep pushing me back. I'm so cold, please, just take me in again.
No! No! Please! I'm not... I didn't mean to... It hurts...
I'm not like that now. Please, don't turn me back. I don't want you to hate me. Don't. Its so cold, so dark now. Why is it dark here, always dark.
-You can't bother me anymore. Akuma. Now you'll stay away.-
Its so red, that dying... The dying light, it reminds me. It makes it hurt all over again. But, there is relife. There is a place when nothing can hurt me, nothing can tell me to go away.
Hisoka. He holds me, tells me that I'm stronger than that. And I can believe him. He believes in me. He said it once. I'm not like that now. Please, just hold me, and for a little while, I can be me again. I don't remember, just hold me.
"Go to sleep now."
Okay. As long as you're holding me, I'm fine. I don't remember and it doesn't hurt. Just hold me.
~OWARI~
Ummmm? Huh?
KARIE *muah!*
By: Karie
~~~
God I'm weird tonight. Enjoy Minna!
~~~
I can't seem to forget... Forgeting is probably a bad thing, but, why can I still remember...
I remember, Hisoka showed me something... Someone had made it and it wasn't to be used. But, I asked him to make me something. Not for everyone else, just me.
Heaven Doesn't Want Me. Hell Is Afraid I'll Take Over! Thats Why I'm Still HERE!!!!
That seemed appropriate, to add that last sentace. Its a poster, on the wall of my room.
Looking out the window, at the blossoms on the sakura trees, seeing them in the dying light of the day. They go from gentle pink to hateful, mocking red. Mocking me. Mocking the thin barriers I make, to protect me.
Why can't I just forget everything. Forget the blood on my hands. Forget the thing that holds me to the world of the living. Forget... Everything. Just forget, be me again, and just forget it all.
But I can't. In my head, I can still see it, still hear and see it.
-Don't touch me.-
Please...
-Go away.-
No, I didn't...
-Your filthy. Don't touch me! Get away!-
It wasn't my fault. It wasn't. There was nothing I did. But I didn't make it right. That was my fault. That made it all because of me.
Please, don't turn me away. Accept me. See, I'm sorry.
-Akuma! Get out!-
No... I'm not like that, please don't keep pushing me back. I'm so cold, please, just take me in again.
No! No! Please! I'm not... I didn't mean to... It hurts...
I'm not like that now. Please, don't turn me back. I don't want you to hate me. Don't. Its so cold, so dark now. Why is it dark here, always dark.
-You can't bother me anymore. Akuma. Now you'll stay away.-
Its so red, that dying... The dying light, it reminds me. It makes it hurt all over again. But, there is relife. There is a place when nothing can hurt me, nothing can tell me to go away.
Hisoka. He holds me, tells me that I'm stronger than that. And I can believe him. He believes in me. He said it once. I'm not like that now. Please, just hold me, and for a little while, I can be me again. I don't remember, just hold me.
"Go to sleep now."
Okay. As long as you're holding me, I'm fine. I don't remember and it doesn't hurt. Just hold me.
~OWARI~
Ummmm? Huh?
KARIE *muah!*