Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Can't Hide What I Feel ❯ CEWIF-Chapter 5 ( Chapter 5 )

Huza! Chapter 5! And a long one (according to my standards at least) I hope you enjoy it! I think you'll like this one…Song is to show how Ryou feels about Joey. By Jewel-Near You Always.

Please don't say I love you,
those words touch me much too deeply
and they make my core tremble
Don't think you realize the power you have over me
And please don't come so close
It just makes me want to make you near me always
Please don't kiss me so sweet
it makes me crave a thousand kisses to follow
And please don't touch me like that
makes every other embrace seem pale and shallow
Please don't look at me like that
it just makes me want to make you near me always
Please don't send me flowers
they only whisper the sweet things you'd say
Don't try to understand me
your hands already know too much anyway
It just makes me want to make you near me always
And when you look in my eyes
please know my heart is in your hands
It's nothing that I understand, but when in your arms
you have complete power over me
So be gentle if you please, 'cause
Your hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teeth
And it makes me want to make you near me always
I want to be near you always
I want to be near you always
I want to be near you always

Ryou felt torn, he wanted to be near Joey yet to maintain their relationship he had to avoid him, which was not easy. Ryou had managed to go two days without even making eye contact with Joey and he had to avoid him at every turn. He couldn't risk being to close to him. Luckily Ryou only had a few classes with him but Joey was getting more and more aggressive about wanting to talk. He knew Joey wouldn't understand if he tried to explain the situation, he would want Ryou to tell his father the truth about their relationship…but if he did that…His father would make him move with him every time he went on a dig. Ryou didn't want that kind of life. He sighed heavily as he slowly walked home; this time Joey was avoiding him…probably angry. He shook his head and ran straight into Seto nearly falling down, but Seto caught him before he fell.

"Thanks." Ryou said softly pulling away from Seto

"Don't mention it…what happened yesterday?" Seto asked

"Yesterday?" Ryou questioned

"We were supposed to do something, remember?" Seto said

"Oh! I'm so sorry I forgot! I've been really busy lately with my father and…" Ryou began.

Seto interrupted Ryou "And avoiding Joey." Seto said.

"How did you know that I was avoiding him?" Ryou asked

"Joey called me thinking that I had done something to you to make you avoid him, which I haven't so I thought I go straight to the source to find out." Seto said "Joey should have just asked you instead of blaming me." Seto said irritated.

"He probably would have if I would give him time too." Ryou said softly looking at the ground. "I cant risk us being seen together…not until my father leaves." Ryou said

"What's your father got to do with it?" Seto asked

"If he knew about me and Joey…I would probably be moving, he would never understand me being with Joey and if there was another way I would take that road…but this is the only way to keep the relationship…even if it is damaging it." Ryou said

"Have you told Joey this?" Seto asked

"No, I'll tell him once my father leaves." Ryou said

"Why not at school?" Seto asked

"That's not the type of matter I really want to broadcast…I want to discuss it privately in my home. Where we can hopefully discuss the matter calmly." Ryou said

"I don't think you'll get that chance, Joey is pretty pissed off." Seto said

"I know…but there is really nothing I can do." Ryou said

"How about you and Joey meet at my place?" Seto said almost choking

Ryou looked at him wide eyed. Did Ryou just hear him right? Even after how strongly he feels for Ryou he wants to help mend the relationship between him and Joey. Ryou smiled softly at him but shook his head no.

"I can't do that Seto." Ryou said

"Why? You need too." Seto pushed even though he didn't want to.

"I can't do that to you Seto…besides I need to fix this on my own. You know Joey would never meet at your place anyway…even if it was to meet me." Ryou said

Seto sighed knowing he was right. "Do you think we could maybe still spend some time together?" Seto asked hopefully

"Sure, but let me call you. I don't know when all this is going to be over." Ryou said

Seto knew Ryou wouldn't appreciate it but he leaned over and gently kissed Ryou on the cheek, before walking away from a stunned Ryou.

Joey stopped walking when he saw Seto kiss his Ryou. And Ryou! He just stood there and didn't even protest! Joey was furious first he sees the two of them hugging then Ryou has been avoiding him the past few days and now Seto is kissing him! Joey walked up to the unsuspecting Ryou and grabbed him harshly by the arm pulling him toward him.

"Joey!" Ryou said trying to pull from his grasp.

"No Ryou! Not this time! We are going to talk!" Joey said angrily

"I-I cant." Ryou said looking away from Joey

Joey tightened his grip on his arm "No! Not this time!" Joey said

"Joey please…your hurting me." Ryou said trying to pull away but Joey didn't loosen his grip on Ryou's arm.

"Why are you avoiding me?!" Joey asked angrily

Ryou felt tears sting the back of his eyes as he hid his face from Joey. Ryou shook his head and pulled hard away from Joey luckily breaking his grip on his arm. Ryou ran away from him. Later, Ryou told himself. I will explain all of this to you later…I promise Joey. Ryou said a she managed to escape him and run into his home without Joey ever catching up to him once. Ryou ran up to his room and collapsed on the bed and couldn't help but cry into the sheets. He felt terrible, Joey had every right to be angry and to express that anger but Ryou couldn't let him…not yet anyway. He pulled up his sleeve his arm was slightly bruised where Joey had held him. Ryou ignored it though, Joey didn't mean to hurt him…Ryou was sure of that…at least he was almost sure.

The week went by tediously slow for Ryou. Soon I can talk to Joey and explain all this to him, he will understand, Ryou told himself…he has to. Ryou waved goodbye to his father as then walked upstairs into to his room and sighed happily. Bakura walked up behind him.

"I haven't seen you so happy in days." Bakura said

"Are you happy father is gone?" Ryou asked

"Greatly, I can finally stop listening to your whining about Joey. Not to mention I can walk around the house freely too." Bakura said

"I'm glad." Ryou said trying to please Bakura.

"I'm going over to Malik's for the night, what do you plan to do?" Bakura asked

"Call Joey and speak with him." Ryou said simply.

Bakura shook his head at his Hikari.

"I'm putting up a mental block, I've heard more about Joey in the past week than I ever would care to know. I don't need to hear him bitch at you on top of that too." Bakura said grabbing his coat.

"Do you think he will be angry?" Ryou asked looking at his Yami hopefully.

"Yes…but if he truly cares for you Ryou he will let you explain and he will understand too." Bakura said "But don't ask for any pointers I'm still putting up a block." Bakura said as he walked out the door.

Ryou smiled slightly at Bakura as he left. Bakura wasn't able to hit him or anything while Ryou's father was home. But what was strange is that he didn't want to hit him either…he said something about a talk he and Malik had. Ryou shrugged it off as he dialed Joey's number.

"Hello?" Joeys father said on the other line

"H-Hi is Joey there?" Ryou asked meekly.

"No, the kid said something about going to a friends house, Ryou I think." He said and hung up the phone not waiting for a reply.

Ryou looked at the phone and hung it up. Joey is headed over here? I wonder why? Ryou asked as he paced the house waiting for his arrival. I started to get dark and Ryou put on a loose T-shirt and started to get ready for bed. Maybe Joeys dad was wrong about Joey coming over here…maybe he heard wrong. Ryou shrugged it off it would be better to discuss things with Joey tomorrow anyway they would have more time. He was about to crawl into bed when the doorbell rang. He walked away from the bed and went to answer the door to find Joey there.

"Joey." Ryou said calmly "What are you doing here so late?" Ryou asked

"Can I come in?" Joey asked his voice was low and flat

Ryou looked at him concerned "Are you okay?" Ryou asked

"I'm fine…can I come in?" He said in the same flat low voice.

"S-sure." Ryou said moving aside "Are you sure you're okay?" Ryou asked

"I was about to ask you the same question Ryou." Joey said harshly turning his back to him. "Your behavior has been awfully strange lately." He said

"I tried calling you earlier but…" Joey cut Ryou off

"You think a phone call can fix this?!" he yelled

Ryou took a step back. He had seen Joey angry before even pissed off but this was way beyond any emotion like that. He looked into Joeys eyes it was almost as if Joey…hated him. Was that what he was seeing? Hatred? Ryou shook his mind from that thought and answered Joey.

"No, I wanted to talk to you and…" Joey cut him off again.

"I don't really care what you have to say right now Ryou! I'm talking now!" He yelled, "I don't understand you! One day we are the happiest couple even than the next day you start cheating on me!" Joey screamed

Ryou's eyes went wide "C-cheating?" Ryou stammered "Joey I'm not cheating on you I wouldn't even think about…"

Suddenly Ryou was on the floor his cheek stung terribly…Joey had slapped him. Ryou fro a second wouldn't believe his senses. No Joey wouldn't hurt me, Ryou said to himself. He was picked up by the color of his T-shirt and slammed up against the wall.

"Every single word you say is like a slap in the face to me!" Joey spat "How do you like it?"

No…Ryou thought this isn't happening, Joey would never do this…Joey would never hurt me…he loves me Ryou said to himself. Joey pulled Ryou into a bruising kiss and refused to let Ryou pull away. Ryou fought with him, as the pressure on his wrists became unbearable. He couldn't stand it as he tried to call his Yami only to find their link had been blocked…Ryou had forgotten Bakura had put one up before he left and now he had no one to call too. Ryou fought back his tears as Joey pulled away and shoved Ryou to the floor and laid on top of him holding him down by the wrists.

"I love you Ryou…I will make you feel it even if I have to force it upon you." Joey said as he ran his hands over Ryou's body.

It suddenly dawned on Ryou what he was planning to do.

"No!" Ryou screamed as he tried to scramble away but Joey caught him and held him down.

"I will make you feel it!" Joey screamed

"NO!" Ryou screamed as he tried to pull away from the hands that held him firmly to the ground.

I made a cliffhanger! MWHAHAHA! How much do you hate me? I know I put a dramatic twist on Joeys personality and also I KNOW he is not that mean but this is my story my rules (when did I portray a character like he truly is? Remember Yami Yugi?) It makes the story more fun this way anyway. If you want me to write the rape part in the next chapter I will, but if you don't want me to say so in a review otherwise you'll get one. PLEASE REVIEW!