Big O Fan Fiction ❯ Human Heart ❯ Forgive Me ( Chapter 3 )

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Human Heart

Disclaimer: I do not own The Big O. Don't bother to sue 'cause I have no
money.

Last Chapter: Dorothy is now human. She begins to do the things that she couldn't
do as a simple robot. Roger's feelings for Dorothy comes out in the
open but it didn't go as well as he thought. What will he do to earn
Dorothy's forgiveness? Find out in this chapter of 'Human Heart.'

Chapter 4: Forgive Me

I ran down the empty corridors to my room. Tears were streaming down my face
blurring my vision so I didn't see when I ran into Norman. I didn't even say sorry to him as
I continued on my journey. Finally making it to my room, I collasped on my bed allowing
more tears to fall down my already wet cheeks.

Tears? A while ago I would have said it was impossible for me to cry. For me to
experience any kind of emotion. But not now. I felt all of the human emotions raging inside
of me. Sadness, frustration, anger, fear, confusion. The list could go on. But the one I felt
now was dissappointment. I thought Roger was better than that. Apparently he wasn't.

My thoughts were interrupted when I heard a knock on my door. " Go away!," I
shouted. The persom paused for a moment before entering. I was praying that it wasn't
Roger. Relief washed over me as I reconized the form of the trusty butler, Norman. His
eyes immediatly filled with concern when he saw my tear streaked face.

" I say Dorothy, what could ever be the matter with you? You are the last person
I would expect to see crying," he said. " Roger is what's wrong. I thought he was different.
But he isn't. He's the same as most men in this pathetic world," I spat. Norman shook his
head as he neared me. He sat on the edge of the bed pausing for a moment. " Why don't
you tell me what happened so I can understand the situation better," he suggested. I
hestitated for a moment. Not sure if I wanted to tell him or not. I chose to confess. He is the
only one around I can talk to.

" He kissed me Norman," I said. He quirked an eyebrow. " And what ever could be
wrong with that?," he asked dumbfounded. " He wanted to do more than that. I don't expect
you to understand, but I can't help but think that was the only reason why he chose to 'upgrade'
me," I explained. " So that he could indulge in his sexual fantasies?," he inquired. I nodded. The
old man chuckled at my answer. I frowned. " I find nothing about this situation amusing Norman," I
retorted. He stifled his laughter to speak.

" Do not take this the wrong way Dorothy, but Master Roger could have any woman in
Paradigm City. If he didn't get you it would not faze him. Make him a bit bitter, but not faze him in
the least," he said. My frown faded as a more sadder expression rested on my features. " So, you
are saying I would be like all the rest to him?," I asked. At that comment his laughter faded
completely. " See? That is what I was worried you'd think. Little do you know Dorothy, he has been
fond of you since you first arrived here," Norman said.

My eyes widened in surprise. He took this as a sign to continue. " You are different to
him Dorothy. Every woman he meets always agrees with what he says, flirts with him, they even try
to seduce him. When you and Master Roger first met you contradicted what he said, made fun
of him, made him feel like he was worthless and could never be as good as you. Which was true
at the time. Instead of turning him away, it made him want to know more about you. Made him
want to prove his worth to you. Of course, you always shot him back down when he tried. That
is what made him fall in love with you Dorothy. He loved you before you changed and always
will. But he does have a rather bad way of showing his affections. He has never been in love before
therefore, he doesn't know how to act. Do you understand Dorothy?," he asked.

I looked into the old man's coal black eyes. I smiled a little. " You know a lot about him," I
said. He grinned a little. " I've been watching over him for quite sometime now Dorothy. I know
how he acts and how he feels about you. That will never change. Now I must be off. Dinner will be
done shortly," he said as he rose from the bed. " Norman, I will not be dining with you tonight," I
said. He nodded. " Of course," he said. He turned to leave but I called him again. " Yes?," he asked.
" Thank you," I said. He smiled at me. " You are most welcome Dorothy," he said turning on his
heel leaving the room.

I layed back on my bed staring up at the ceiling. If what Norman says is true then I have
loved Roger for a long time as well. My constant attitude towards him was the only way I could show
him how I cared. I rolled over on my side now staring out the window. 'But what do I do now? How
do I tell him? How do I apologize?,' I thought. A silent tear rolled down my cheek. This human thing
is harder than I thought.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Midnight, the usual hour in which we dine. I looked across the table. Dorothy wasn't there.
In my heart I knew she wouldn't be. I was wrong. I shouldn't have done that. I moved too fast. All of
those thoughts were swirling in my head after she ran off the balcony. The great negotiator finally
lost a battle. But will my ego and my heart heal?

Norman sat a plate in front of me but I stared at it as if it were foreign. I heard Norman
sigh deeply before he spoke. " Is something wrong sir?," he asked. I looked over at him. " Not
with the food Norman. You are one of the greatests chefs in Paradigm. Dorothy even said so
herself," I said My chest tightened as her named rolled off my tounge. " Ah, so this is about Dorothy," he
said in an amused tone. I frowned at him. " I find nothing about this situation amusing Norman," I
said. He doubled over with laughter as my frown deepened. When he finally stopped he spoke
again.

" Do you know Dorothy said those exact words?," he asked. My frown dissappeared
at the mention of her name. " You spoke to her Norman? Does she hate me?," I asked. His
face softened. " Yes," he replied. My heart sank. What would I do if she never spoke to me again?
If I could never feel her soft lips pressed against mine again? If I could never make love to her?
I shook my head. 'I'm starting to sound like 'Romeo',' I mused to myself.

" Fine! She can hate me as long as she wants to. She isn't the only woman in the world.
I can choose between them," I boasted. Norman smirked. " But you'll never love them. What
I was going to say before you cut me off was that she hated you until I explained how you act
to her," he said. " Oh? And what exactly did you say?," I inquired. " That you never were in love
before so that's why you acted so strangely. You were used to women falling at you feet and were
intrigued by her since she didn't," he said smoothly.

I grinned at my butler. " You know me pretty well," I said. He chuckled again as my
frown returned. " What now?," I asked irritated. " Dorothy said the same thing," he said.
I sighed. " Dorothy. What am I going to do about her?," I asked aloud. He looked down at the
plate that was getting cold. " It's apparent you are not going to be eating tonight," he said picking
it up to head back to the kitchen. " Hey wait Norman, you aren't going to help me?," I asked. He
shook his head 'no'.

" No Master Roger. I have made the bridge of understanding between you. It is up to
you to walk across it," he said as he dissappeared behind the kitchen doors. I sighed as I
thought about his cliche'. 'Walk the bridge huh? I'll go across only if Dorothy is waiting halfway,' I
thought. Rising from the table, I began my trek to Dorothy's room. I was walking slowly not
exactly in a rush to arrive. I need to figure out what I had to say to the woman I loved before I
messed up again.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Sitting on the floor in my room, I watched the fire embers dance in the fireplace. It was a
beautiful sight and more pleasing now that I could feel the heat on my skin. The fire reminded me
of Roger's kisses. Warm and comforting. I began feeling tingly all over as I recalled this. 'What
emotion is this? Could it be lust? Do I really want to feel Roger that badly?," I asked myself.

My thoughts were interrupted when I heard a knock at my door. " Come in," I said. The
only reason why I allowed the person to enter was because I thought it was Norman. I was very
surprised when I saw Roger clad in all black. I thought he looked handsome. That thought made me
blush lightly. " Hello Dorothy," Roger said. A frown appeared on my features. " What do you
want?," I spat bitterly. He winced a little at my harsh greeting.

He sat down next to me but I did not complain on his intrusion into my space. " I talked to
Norman. He told me that you hate me," he began. " I do," I retorted. " But he also told me that
you began to understand what was wrong with me," he continued. " So you admit you have a
problem?," I said turning to face him. He turned to face me as well. I noticed his eyes had a weird
look to them. I couldn't quite place the feeling but he continued. " Yes I do. I've been single way too
long. I feel as though I run the city and everyone has to do what I say or understand how I feel. I
was wrong," he said. I was silent because I didn't know what to say. He took my silence as a
sign to continue.

" I also understand the question you asked me on the roof. I didn't make you human just
to sleep with you Dorothy. Sure that's a perk if the opportunity presents itself, but not the only
reason. There are plenty of women who can satisfy me sexually. You satisfy other parts of me
Dorothy that no woman ever could," he said. " What about Angel?," I countered. He paused for
a moment. Tears were beginning to well in my eyes as my voice started to crack. As my tears
spilled unto my cheeks he wiped them away as beautiful smile appeared on his lips.

" Angel was nothing to me. Just another pretty face and body. She's not you. No one could
be you," he said as he kissed me. I became lost in his caress as I did the first time. He wrapped his
arms around my body drawing me closer to him. I broke off the kiss. " I...can't," I said. " Dorothy,
do you also think that becoming human gave you emotions? No. You always had them. They were
apart of you even though you didn't realize it. The change just made you feel them more. With
more depth," he said as he reclaimed my lips.

A new fire was set through my body. His kisses traveled down my neck. My mind
couldn't comprehend what he was doing. Lust and desire, two of the most dangerous of emotions,
were coursing through me now. I was becoming blinded by the two. Emotion is what makes any
human weak.

I broke away from him again set on getting my point across. " But if we do this won't
you be contradicting yourself?," I inquired. He smiled wider as a wild look of passion flared in
his eyes. " No. I've loved you for a long time Dorothy. Doing this will strenthen our love not
weaken it. But, if you wish to wait then I will. I would never pressure you into doing anything," he
said. For the first time during our conversation I smiled back him. I let my hand caress his smooth
babyface. " You're right Roger. And for the first time I understand. Emotions don't make humans
weak all though it can at times. It makes you stronger. A man who rules with his heart rules the
world," I said. " And that's Roger Smith's rule number 3," he said before kissing me deeply.

I finally succumbed to my inner passions towards this man letting him take over. All through
the night he showed me what it truly meant to be loved. His hands caressed me as his lips tasted me.
Ever since I had been activated I had known of no pleasures such as this. And after this act, I planned
to know them again, and again. This one human managed to kiss away my fears, worries, and doubts
and as I shivered, managed to show me the true meaning of love. This is what is means to be human.


*~*~*~*~*~*~*

I woke the next morning feeling a strange weight on my chest. As I looked down I saw a full
head of red hair. I grinned as I realized who it was. 'Oh boy. When she wakes up she's going to give me
and earfull,' I thought. I ran my fingers through her long crimson hair then down her thin pale arms. She
quirmed a bit but didn't wake. I let my fingers continue their journey down her bare back tracing along
her spinal column. She squeezed me as she released a soft sigh.

I smiled gazing down at her beautiful face. She looked like an angel. My angel. Never in my
life have I felt what I do with her. I just hope she knows now that my love for her is genuine. I continued
to finger her long red locks. 'Thank you Walter,' I thought. My thoughts were interrupted as Norman
knocked softly at her door. " Come in," I called softly to not disturb Dorothy.

Norman came in not the least bit fazed at the position he saw Dorothy and I in. He probably
expected it knowing him. " Good morning Master Roger. I take it you got no sleep last night?," he
mused. " None," I confirmed. " I thought so. I cancelled all of your meetings for today and told them
to come tomorrow unless it was a dire emergency," he said. " Very good Norman," I said. He nodded
turning on his heel to go. "Norman," I called. He turned to face me to let me know I had his attention.
" Thank you," I said. He grinned. " Your welcome sir," he said as he left.

I sighed a bit as I ressumed with playing with the lock of Dorothy's hair. " Does Norman
always come in when you have a lady friend over?," Dorothy asked. I looked down again to see
that she was up making circles on my chest with her finger. " No. They are usual gone before he wakes
up," I said. " Why?," she asked. " Because they got what they wanted so they left," I said. She
quirked an eyebrow. " What do you mean?," she asked. I sighed again before I explained.

" Just as you said that I used women the women used me. Never thought that I could be
a victim for once huh?," I inquired. She hid her face a little. " No," she admitted. " Well I was. But
those days are over now that you're around," I said. She smiled. " Speaking of that, I think I should
thank Walter. He's my new father now," she said. I frowned a bit. 'Walter. The case," I thought.
Dorothy noticed my sudden change in moods so she commented on it.

" What's wrong?," she asked. " I've been neglecting my duties. Walter hired me to do a
job and I will do it because I finally understand what he means," I said. I began to push the covers off
so I could leave her bed. She pulled the covers around herself covering her nude form. I don't see
why she bothers now. I've seen it all anyway. " Be careful," she said. I smirked at her. " Worried about
my safety?," I asked. She frowned. " Not really," she retorted. I chuckled a bit before leaving her room.
'Don't worry Walter, I'll fullfill my end of the deal,' I thought.

TBC......


End chapter 4. Wow, you guys really like this story huh? I thought it was going to bomb actually. Anyway, as
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