Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ Love Duet ❯ Ignoring Love ( Chapter 1 )

March 26

I have always loved her like a little sister. Never anything more. And

because I only see her as that, I started to go out with Sakura. It's not like I

ignored the love Meiling had for me, it's just I never..........returned it. It's

getting late and I hear Mother coming around making sure that we are asleep.

Bye

March 28

This was a weird day. After training today, Meiling walks up to me to ask

me something I guess. Then Sakura hugs me from behind and I turn to kiss

her. Now tell me, is it wrong to kiss your girlfriend? The last time I checked,

it wasn't. Right when I kiss her, I can see Meiling running to her room. I pull

away from Sakura and ask, "What's up with her?" Sakura then says quietly,

"Syaroan, go to her room and ask her what's wrong."

"She's bound to be sleeping when I get there. I'll go by her room around 1

hour from now.

Later

So I went by her room. She's awake. I sit on the edge of her bed and ask her

what's wrong. There's nothing wrong with that right? Well anyways, she

goes and tells me, that it's nothing and to leave her room before she strips

in front of me. So I leave remembering when she did that the last time. The

last time she did that I locked myself in my room for 2 hours and prayed to

God to rid my mind of that nasty image. And so I left. Sleepless nights are

starting to get to me. Better get some sleep before Sakura asks me what's

wrong.

March 29

Something's wrong with Meiling today. She didn't eat much dinner today.

Maybe she's on one of those diets that girls are always on. Oh well.

Good night. Oh that reminds me. Tomorrow is Sakura's birthday. I plan on

giving her something she'll never forget.

April 1

Today is her birthday. I took her out to dinner, and then when we came back

to my house, I gave her my gift. Love. The physical love. If you tell me you

don't know what that is, then you aren't my diary. Oh well, all were going

well, when we both hear Meiling cry. Sakura says that she should be

getting home, Yuki was waiting for her to get home. She and Yuki moved

here together. Once Sakura left, I went to Meiling's room, which happiness to

connect to my room. I push her against wall and yell at her, " You little

Bitch! You started to cry, and Sakura lost her mood! When will it get

through your think skull that I don't love you and I'll never love you like that

again! Tell me Meiling!" She was crying the whole time. When she

reached the wall, she said, "Never. It'll never get through my heart and mind

that you don't love me because you once told me when we were younger, that

you love me and always will. Do you remember that? Tell me Xiolang. Do

you?" I got so angry at her, I shoved her on to the bed and said " I'll do this

to you once, and let it be the seal of my promise to you, I'll never love you lie

that again." Then I did it to her. It kind of was rape though. Damn that girl

can scream! Lucky for me, no one was home. I stopped when I thought my

body couldn't handle any more. It hurt though. I've heard that the victim of

rape hurt, but now I know that the rapist also got hurt in the process.

When I was leaving her room, she said, "I still will wait for you to come back

to me." I spat at her and left her room. I have no clue what came over me.

Too confused too write. Good night.

April 2

Decided to show my emotions to Sakura more openly. That definitely hurt

Meiling. But hey, I have a girlfriend and I have the right to kiss her and

stuff. But I swear, if Meiling tells Sakura what happened last night, I'll, I'll,

I better not think about that, otherwise I'll have to go to the confession.

Don't feel like continuing writing. I'm getting really stressed.

April 4

Meiling, she tried to run away from home. And to FRANCE!!!!!!!! That had

to be the dumbest thing she ever did. Oh that really had to be the highlight of

my day. Nothing else happened that day, other than me laughing my head off

in my bedroom. Good night.

April 5

Today, Meiling caught me and Sakura in the living room. Otherwise, nothing

big happened. Oh and there are rumors going around of Tomoyo coming

over tomorrow. Oh I some how managed to forget, I go to college now and

I'm studying MBA.[1] I've been going to class every day except, Thursday.

Good night.

April 6

Tomoyo got here alright. Sakura and I had gone out earlier that day, and I

had to drop her off at her house. And so when we were walking out the door,

there was Tomoyo standing there talking to Meiling. Sakura immediately got

into a conversation with Tomoyo, when Tomoyo says, "Sakura- san, I'll talk

to you later, I'm really here to talk to Meiling." Sakura got kind of flustered

up, and just said, "What, oh." looked at me and walked over to my car and

got in. I caught on to what Tomoyo was there to talk about. When I walked

past Meiling, I said, "If you tell her what happened that night, I'll kill you."

and she ignores what I say and walks into the house saying something to

Tomoyo about how the whole sleeping arrangements have changed. When I

got into the car, Sakura asked me, if I knew that Tomoyo was coming over

today. I told her I only heard rumors about it. And the rest of the ride was

silent. I dropped her off at Yuki's and got invited in for tea. So I came in and

stayed for about 1 hour. When I got home, I heard people talking in my

room. I went in to check it out, and guess what I found. Meiling and

Tomoyo in there going through my stuff. Tomoyo was just saying," Let's get

back to-" When I interrupted her, and said, "What are you two doing in

here?" Meiling was the only one who gave me a reply, "Nothing and I told

her what you did Xiolang." and walks out the room. I look around my room

and notice that the pictures that I had of Meiling were now sitting in a

different position. Nothing else happened other than I studied for my exams

that were coming up. At dinner, Sakura came over, since Yuki had a date

tonight and Sakura didn't want to eat alone. Tomoyo also joined us for

dinner, and while she and Meiling talked to each other, Sakura would look

from one to the other. Meiling then told her, "Kinomoto, this isn't a tennis

match, so you can stop looking at us like that." "Meiling was all I was able

to say. For the rest of the dinner, Tomoyo and Meiling exchanged gossip

news. Eriol has a 14-year-old girlfriend. I got to call him later. As much as I

hate him, I still never pass up a chance to laugh at him. Anyways, later that

night, when me and Meiling were home alone, something came over me and I

had to hurt her again. And so I did. Though now I feel real guilty about it.

April 8

Meiling is really weak, these past two days. Now I feel really guilty about

what I did. God, I hope she feels ok soon. After all this pain that I caused

Meiling, I've come to one solution. I will try to spend more time with her,

and try not to be to open with my public display. Just for the sake of my

conscience. But remember this, I did say that I do love her. Though only as a

little sister.

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[1] Masters in Business Administration. It's business. Masters degree I think.

Disclaimer, - I don't own anything. I wish I did, but who ever heard of a 13 year old owning a show that's showed internationally?

This story is the sequel, prequel, to Painful Love. They are one group. One is in Meiling's POV and the other in Li's POV

Bye, luv ya! fallen tears