Crossover With Non-anime Series Fan Fiction / Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction / Fruits Basket Fan Fiction ❯ Sometimes you just... ❯ Lost Love ( Chapter 30 )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

A/N: Wow, I haven't written a poem in a while… This one's actually from quite some time ago when a certain someone I used to love totally betrayed me and ripped my heart out. I just found it and remembered that I hadn't typed it up. It's really long, forgive me.
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Lost Love
A pleasant surprise your arrival had been.
Great happiness had started to grow from within.
You stood there with an unfading smile.
I asked if you could stay a while.
You gladly accepted as you walked inside,
But your sadness was something you could not hide.
I went to ask if you were okay,
But you just turned your head away.
“This is something I should have said long ago.
It's hard to describe it; I just don't know.
There's something about you being with me
That makes me feel so differently.
Maybe we should separate.
It's not my choice; it's just our fate.”
Your words hit me so hard I could have died,
But I would not show it; I hadn't even cried.
You gave me one last smile and walked out the door.
I just stood there and watched, then fell to the floor.
I felt so empty. Where was my heart?
It must have went with you on your depart.
You took my soul away. You stole it from me.
Now a blackened void is all I can see.
Apathetic, soulless, a person with no care,
That is the “me” that you see standing there.
You're right there beside me. Feels like miles apart.
You won't even continue conversations I start.
Have I really lost you? Did you really let go?
That's the one thing that I'll never know.
You stood there with an unfading smile.
They asked if you could stay a while.
You gladly accepted as you walked inside,
But your happiness was something you could not hide.
Our eyes locked for one second that day
Before you quickly turned your head away.
That one second allowed me to see
Just what person you have come to be.
You're better than ever, no happiness you lack.
Was I the thing that was holding you back?
Was it me that kept you away
From the happiness you feel today?
Guilt and pain, instead of emptiness, I feel.
I know this is no dream; it's actually real.
I've lost you forever; you just won't return,
But I'll continue my wait for your non-existent concern.
I'll wait until time stops; I'll wait for forever,
But while I wait for when we'll be together,
I'll stand there empty, yet filled with pain,
Forever jaded, never to be the same.
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So… Enlighten me on how I'm doing please.