Fan Fiction ❯ Collective Sighs ❯ Lost and Found ( Chapter 5 )

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Lost and Found

By Katelyn E. Smith

Can you see all of me?

My laughter, my misery?

I hide behind this stoic mask,

Crying over my turbulent past.

When a soul seeks me out,

I skitter away, without a doubt,

In my befuddled mind,

That the person's intentions were not kind.

And though I may be wrong often,

My hardened heart refuses to soften.

I fool myself every day,

Into thinking that this is the only way,

That I won't get hurt or torn apart.

You see, my friend, my hiding is a form of art.

For when you think I've let you in,

You'll see not what I am, but what I have been:

A happy illusion of a girl long gone,

Waiting in vain for an elusive dawn.

Know this, though, that it is not my desire,

To keep out everyone while, inside, I burn on my pyre.

I truly do want to let someone see,

The lonely little girl that is the really real me.

But it is just so hard to really show,

How I feel inside, and hope that you'll know,

That I want, and I need, a knight in shining armor,

Who will save that little girl who is me, and promise not to harm her.

And I'm afraid that right now I don't have the drive,

To get off of my feet and pretend that I'm alive.

I don't have the courage to reach out for help,

And plead with someone to put out the flames of my hell.

I'm too tired to speak, to breathe, to live,

And to attempt those things would take all I can give.

So until I've reached inside my sadly mangled soul,

And rummaged around for the determination that my anguish stole,

I'll be hoping and dreaming of some help from above,

Because everyone deserves a chance to love.