Fullmetal Alchemist Fan Fiction ❯ Tearin’ Up My Heart ❯ Tearin’ Up My Heart ( Chapter 1 )

Sequel to Solitude. I hope you enjoy, I had a hard time with this for some reason so it's not my favorite, but you'll be glad to know that this is now a trilogy! So the last installment will be up soon. Hopefully. The last was very Riza-centric and this one is more Roy-centric. Not sure how the last one will be.

 

And yes I know my last fic was based off an Evanescence song and this one is now based off of Nsync. Let's just say I listen to a wide variety of music and Nsync happens to be my guilty pleasure. Just wait till you see the next song I planned to use! lol Oh and this story spoils the movie if you haven't seen it. (Freak! It's amazing!)R, E, & R (Read, Enjoy and Review!)

 

Guide: “...” = speech,

Border Line and ALL CAPS = scene change,

Border Line and italics= happening simultaneously but to different characters or from another character's point of view,

`...' = thoughts,

(...) = author commentary to help create better comprehension of the story

italics= flashback

 

Disclaimer: Fanfiction means a story written by a fan and since I'm writing this fanfiction I am a fan not the owner of FMA. I can't believe I have to keep explaining this. lol

 

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Title: Tearin' Up My Heart

 

“What's the frown for?” Roy asked sitting on the bed staring out the window.

 

Pain was evident in Hawkeye's voice as she spoke. “The plan was perfect, you did your part, but I should have gotten there sooner to protect you.”

 

“Nothing's perfect,” Roy explained. “The world's not perfect, but it's there for us, trying the best it can. That's what makes it so damn beautiful.”

 

Finishing her job of pealing the apple in her hand, she shoved a slice toward her superior's suddenly philosophical mouth, “Shut up and eat.”

 

It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you

 

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“Leaving?” Riza asked over the table trying to keep her face as emotionless as usual as the two ate breakfast.

 

“Yes.” Roy said not meeting her searching red gaze with this one good eye. “I've reenlisted and been stationed at the Northern Border. I leave at twelve hundred hours. With a hurried glace Riza saw that the time was 8:23. Tie minus three hours, thirty- seven minutes and counting till her heart left.

 

And when we are apart I feel it too

 

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Stop. That's what the letters did after the battle with the Furher. Stop. First Maes left him, then Amanda. Those letters, which kept him sane with a hope of love in even his darkest hours, just stopped. Without them, he fell apart. Ed had disappeared beyond the Gate and his life mission had failed. He had nothing left.

 

Nothing but her.

 

She was still there; always willing to be beside him, always trying to supporting him.

 

Riza

 

And no matter what I do I feel the pain
With or without you

 

But he left her. Everyone around him died or disappeared. He couldn't let anything happen to her. So he ran, ran away from his pain, ran away from Alchemy, ran away from her.

 

But not matter how he tried, Riza was always on his mind. The gun he now kept since giving up his flame alchemy, reminded him of her. The amber of the embers he used to keep warm way up north, reminded him of her. And his dreams reminded him of her. Even back in the day, whenever he dreamed of the letter writer his mind always used her as a visual: her long flowing blonde hair, her amber gaze, her strong yet gentle nature. She was perfect in everyway. If he loved Amanda, he worshipped Riza.

 

Riza.

 

Just the sound of her name in his own mind sent shivers down his spine. The R revving up his heart like a speeding care, I launching him into bliss, Z vibrating though him like the hum of the engine and A bringing it all to a wonderful halt, leaving him wanting more.

 

Hey

Baby, I don't understand
Just why we cant be lovers
Things are getting out of hand
Tryin' to much, but baby we can win
Let it go, if you want me girl let me know
I am down, on my knees
I can't take it anymore

 

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“Then we'll need a way to fly.” The former Major Armstrong said sprinting away.

 

His departure left just two of the former Mustang Gang: Former Brigadier General Roy Mustang and First Lieutenant Riza Hawkeye. As Roy took her in for the first time in two years, he couldn't help but be almost taken aback by her beauty. The blonde hair he loved was hidden behind a helmet but her rare gentle gaze shown from under the hard hat, washing over him like a tidal wave.

 

Saluting and in a surprisingly raw voice Riza finally spoke, “We've been waiting for you Sir.”

 

It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you
And when we are apart I feel it too
And no matter what I do I feel the pain
With or without you

 

Barely containing his urge to run to her and hold her after so long of seeing her only in his dreams, the Corporal nodded his acknowledgment of her statement, fearing his voice if he tried to speak.

 

But there was more work to be done, more unknown enemy soldiers to fight, so the pair sprang back into action. Roy snapped with skill untainted by lack of use and Riza shot with new found hope in her trigger finger. The way they worked, covering each other's backs, knowing each other's movements, was flawless. Their movements were reminiscent of an intricate and well rehearsed dance of two souls intertwining seamlessly, snaps and gun shots providing the beat. Their enemies went down with gusto, never knowing that they didn't stand a chance. Riza and Roy were the perfect team.

 

Baby don't misunderstand,
(don't misunderstand)
What I'm trying to tell ya
In the corner of my mind, (corner of my mind)
Baby it feels like were running out of time
Let it go (go) if you want me girl let me know
I am down on my knees, I cant take it anymore ohhhhh..

 

It was great to be back. Roy felt almost like himself in the middle of battle with Riza at his side. It felt natural. It felt right. It felt….

 

Impossible.

 

Riza could never see Roy that way. Her strict military life would never allow her to see a superior officer as anymore than an officer. But Roy couldn't help but love being near her again. She completed a part of him, complimented his short comings. Riza was his soul mate; the one he could never have.

 

It's tearin up my heart when I'm with you
And when we are apart I feel it too
And no matter what I do I feel the pain
With or without you

 

“Sir, what are you doing!?” Riza asked shedding the last of her emotionless mask as Roy hopped into the balloon all alone.

 

“Easy now,” Strong Arm said grabbing hold of Hawkeye's waist, holding her back and away from Roy as he did his best move, a floating disappearing act.

 

“Sorry Lieutenant. Only room for one.” Roy said trying to understand why she was so upset. It couldn't be what he thought. It couldn't be because she love him.

 

Impossible.

 

Tearin up my heart and soul, when were apart I feel it too
And no matter what I do Ill feel the pain with or without you

 

“You liar! Come back!” The First Lieutenant screamed, the rawness of her voice taking Roy aback slightly as he floated away. He had to leave her. It wasn't his choice. There were laws in place against them.

 

If only Roy was close enough to the tears gathering in her eyes. Maybe then he'd understand. But for now, he had to go, had to fight, had to set things straight with the Elrics. They couldn't be together; fraternization was against the law.

 

And no matter what I do I feel the pain with or with out you

 

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Yeah I'm not happy with this one at all. But oh well, its done. And that make way for the last installment. First I need to write a Naruto piece though. Look out for that if you're a Naruto yaoi fan. The clean version will be here and the full version on… well several other sites. lol After that, I hope to spend breaking writing the next chapter of my Harry Potter fic Destiny and working on the 3rd part of this trilogy. Though to be honest, Destiny will prolly get more priority this break. SORRY!

 

Hope you enjoyed at least somewhat
---animeluvr8