Gundam Wing Fan Fiction / Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Yotogi ❯ Prologue

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I own neither Sailor Moon nor Gundam Wing. The title means The Watcher for anyone
that is curious.
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Yotogi
Do you believe in angels? If so you think of them as being pure sweet spotless
souls with flowing white robes and brightly glowing auras, ne? If so then you'd
be wrong. I am an angel and in love with the one I protect.
My name? I'm Hiiro Yui and I am the personal guardian of the sacrificial lamb
of this world; Usagi Tsukino. If you've heard of me before you're no doubt shocked
to hear that I've fallen for someone the complete opposite of me, however I
have my reasons for loving her.
I've been with her all of her life. I watch over her as she sits alone in her
room and softly weeps for something she's forbidden to have. Her life ended
at fourteen now she lives only for those around her. Her future is already set
and she's sacrificing all happiness for herself in order to please those around
her.
Some may think of her as a klutzy, baka, immature, crybaby and they'd be moderately
right. Of course if you said any of those things around me I'd shoot you. Most
of her faults are because of her age. She was fourteen when she started to fight
and she didn't have any exposure to any battles except on televison and even
those pale in comparison to what she does. Her tendacy to cry, her immaturity
and her klutziness are only because of her age. Those she will outgrow and has
already lost most of in these last two years.
Her strengths far outweight her faults and as I've mentioned before she's the
one that must sacrifice everything for her world. You would think that the other
Senshi share her burden, but that's not true. They'll have far more normal lives
then she. They're free to fall in love and one day marry, but my Usa's fate
is to be with her first and only boyfriend; Mamoru Chiba.
Many believe she's in love with him, but I do not. How could she know love?
He's the only boyfriend she's had in this life and her last. She doesn't truly
know what love is and she'll never get a chance to experience it because of
her so called destiny.
Me, Jealous? Hai, if you knew her like I did you would be too. You can never
hear her soft mental pleas after tough battles wishing for nothing more then
to have died in the battle. She wants to be free to live her own life and yet
she puts on an act for all those around her. If I could I'd grant her wish,
but I'd end up in hell, literally.
All of us pilots are angels each looking after one of the inner Senshi. I was
paired with her because she has and would die to save her world as I have done
for my own world.
Why am I a Shugotenshi? When we died it wasn't sure where we should be, heaven
or hell so I was given the task to protect and help Usa through her life and
make the right choices. If I succeed I go to heaven, and if I fail, hell. All
of the others are in similair contracts even Quatre and Duo. If anyone should
make it to heaven it should have been Quatre but he's in the same fix as the
rest of us.
I watch her as she goes through a relatively normal day. The fighting has ended
barely a week ago and already Mamoru has left her and went to America. She's
inwardly self-destructing without him around and she cries often and not the
wails you'd expect from her but soul-shattering sobs, and yet I'm forced to
watch, forbidden to help, or even appear to her. If I had my gun I'd take a
trip to America and...
When did I fall in love with this girl? The first time she died. She gave everything
including her life to save her world in a fight she was scared to death of.
I wished she could have stayed dead but instead that damned Ginzuishou revived
her and rendered her memories. She forgot everything that had happened since
she first henshined. She had a normal life for two days and then she once again
had to fight. Ever since then she's had to go through battle after battle and
when she learned of Chibiusa her future daughter that was the moment her fate
was sealed. She'll marry Mamoru in two years and I'll once again be forced to
watch.
What will I do about my feelings? There's nothing I can do. Ironic in my former
life I was a soldier without feelings or emotions and now that I'm a Shugotenshi
I'm flooded with them and all for this one girl that's forbidden.
If I knew that my granting her wish would really let her be happy I'd do it
but the other forces involved can be cruel and would rip the chance away so
I'm forced to be the one that watches. She once attempted to run away but mid-way
through her plan I was ordered to make her feel guilt.
I wish she could be selfish and leave this place; escape from this golden cage
she's imprisoned within and yet I know if she tried again I'd have to once more
use the power I have to stop her. In order for my mission to succeed I must
keep her here. I must make sure she follows the path fated for her. So for my
own well-being and happiness I must be the one that leads the one I love to
her destiny. If I had one wish it would be to see her happy netherless to what
caused it. I know that me ever being with her is an impossibility so I won't
even think about such matters.
Usagi, if only you could hear me. I can't even confess that I love you. The
closest I can come to it is by whispering it as you sleep and then in the cruelty
that fate has destined me to I twist your dreams to make you think the words
came from him. I watch you now as you briefly take a nap in class and against
my better judgement let you have dreams of cake and candy and brief flashes
of my world and time. The barest brief flashes of me knowing you'll never remember
them.
That is as close as I can get to her without being found out. Since I am her
personal Shogutenshi I know the consequences of all her actions. I know if she
doesn't marry Mamoru and fufill the other force's cruel wishes she'll be killed
in a freak accident and there would be nothing I could do. Demo, if she was
dead she'd at least have a chance in her next life though I doubt the forces
of fate and destiny would be pleased if she escaped in such a manner and they'd
merely replay everything in her new life...
So I'm forced to watch everything never revealing my self or my feelings. I
don't know how I'll do it but I swear now to one day be by my Usa's side. This
is my new mission and I'll do anything to fufill it; including risking my soul.