Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ The Black Queen ❯ Come Tumbling After ( Chapter 10 )

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LSE // 12-24-02
(The Black Queen - Chapter Ten: Come Tumbling After)
rated: PG13 - violence, language, content
shounen-ai/yaoi

Come Tumbling After





I'm so dizzy I can no longer stand. Natasha walks on in front of me,
a shadow disappearing in further shadow. I slump against the wall and
collapse to the floor, staring at the cracks in the cement. How long
has it been since we left the hospital?

It hurts, it hurts so much. Everything all over hurts, hurt so much
so bad oh it hurts pain pain pain pain why hurt pain agony.

"Duo. Duo, get up. Please, Duo, we have to keep going," Natasha
whispers as she kneels beside me.

I can't, I can't.

"Duo?"

I can't. Hurts. Can't you see? Pain. Can't you?

"Duo. Duo, please!"

She gently rolls me closer to the wall and sits beside me,
cross-legged and elegant as if the damp and dark street was her snug
and warm bedroom. She brushes the hair from my forehead and leaves
her hand there. Feeling for fever? I feel on fire, but I'm so cold.

"S...sorry," I shudder out, wanting to curl up for warmth but unable
because of the burning, burning pain in my side. The pain, the pain.

"Just stay awake, okay? Duo, stay awake."

"Cold," I mutter, rolling my head away and then nuzzling it back
against her hand.

I lay there for what seems forever as Natasha sings softly. I can't
understand the words, but I'm not suppose to listen, just hear and
stay awake, but Natasha said so. Can't sleep I have to stay awake and
hear Natasha sing and try to fight the fire and cold and hurt.

Should have just stayed at the hospital. No, I would have died there,
too. Or they would have boxed me up and shipped me off someplace.
But, then, I could have died with Heero near. If I was lucky. I don't
want to die on the side of the street.

Natasha's talking, now. She's no longer singing. I can't hear what
she's saying either, but I managed to reply with incoherent noises
whenever her voice raises in a question. I can't help think I sound
like Heero.

"Duo, are you awake?"

"Hn," I make an effort to mimic Heero.

"We can't stay here any longer."

"Hn."

"Duo, you have to get up."

Oh, no. No way. Nuh-huh. Just leave me here and I'll die in peace.
Feel free to run and save yourself, but I'm just perfectly content to
surrender to the pain. It's trying to destroy me, anyway... Might as
well let it.

Natasha gently lifts me upright enough so that I'm leaning against
the wall, the rough brick pressing through the think fabric of my
shirt. She firmly grips my head in her hands and makes me look at her.
Pale blue eyes stare at me until I raise my head enough to stare back.

"Duo. I can take you back if you want. Or I can just drag you to the
police station and let them deal with you, but you can't just stay
here. I can get you somewhere safe, and then I can make the pain go
away, but only if you help me."

"Oh. K."

Natasha nods as she rises to her feet, taking my hand.

"It isn't much further," Natasha says as she helps me to my feet.

She holds me upright against the wall as I quell nausea and command
the world to stop spinning. One arm around my waist and the other
ready incase I fall, Natasha helps me stumble forward. I guess we
must look like two drunks going home from the bar, or else the police
would have caught up to us by now.

"Where...?" I breathe out in question. Anything to keep my mind off
the pain, that horrible pain.

"Somewhere safe. I'm so sorry, Duo. You can rest when we get there.
I can get you something for the fever and the pain."

I shiver violently, almost right out from her grip, "S-s'ok."

Holding me up against the wall, Natasha fumbles with a lock I can't
see for a moment before guiding me through the door and into our
destination. I take no more than a few stumbling steps before
collapsing, Natasha helping to lower me to the floor.

I hear her footsteps vanish as I lie there, counting the carpet
fibers and doing anything to forget how much it hurts. I tremble with
the fever and shiver from the cold and shake from the pain. Natasha
returns and covers me with a thick blanket or scratchy wool.

"Duo?" she whispers, and I realize my eyes are closed.

I make an incoherent sound I assume I meant to be her name and force
at least one eye open. Her crystal blue eyes stare down at me, and I
see within them she knows. I'm not sure what she knows, but it is
about me, and it isn't good. Of course. She must have accessed all my
files and read my charts and. And she knows why I'm so hurt.

Which blurred image of Natasha is really here? It must be the middle
one, but I'm not sure. I let my heavy eyelids falls because it's no
longer worth the effort of keeping them open, despite Natasha's
protests. She's pleading with me, ordering me to stay awake.

"Heero..." I murmur, and she falls silent. I hear her stand, and then
footsteps fade.

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Heero tossed fretfully in his bed, unconsciously laying a hand over
the empty place that should have held Duo's sleeping body. He was
never aware of the time in the night when he would reach out to Duo
just to feel the other man's presence. Duo represented home, and even
though the bed might have been a guest bed, it was their bed so long
as they shared it.

There was no Duo, though, to meet his touch.

Heero's head rolled against the pillow as he tried to escape the
nightmare clutching him. Normally, when visions of terror haunted
through his dreams, he could rely on Duo to wake him.

There was no Duo, though, to wake him.

In the dream, there was Duo. Heero ran after his love, calling his
name, as Duo kept walking away. No matter how fast he ran, Duo was
always ahead of him. "Duo!" he shouted, trying to run faster when the
footprints he was following were made from blood.

"Heero?"

"Duo!"

The slim black shadow turned, amethyst eyes bright as he stared off
into nothing, not looking to Heero even when he screamed Duo's name.

He shuddered awake, clutching at the bed sheets and staring at the
empty place beside him where Duo belonged. The room was silence but
for his frantic pants as, slowly, reality separated from the
dreamscape and he was left staring at an empty side of the bed.

Ring.

Heero stumbled out from the bed, partially tripping over the sheets
which tangled about his legs. He reached the phone just as the second
ring began, quickly picking the receiver up before anyone else could
hear the ringing. He paused, ear to the phone, trying to listen for
the other extensions being picked up.

"...hello?" the person on the other end whispered.

"Hello," Heero said in return, still trying to listen for Relena or
one of the detectives. He knew he was suppose to inform the police,
stationed down the hall, if someone contacted him.

"Who is this?" the person asked, politely but demandingly.

"Heero. Who are you?"

"Heero? Good, good. Is it just Heero? No one else, yes?"

"Yes. Who is this?" he was disappointed it wasn't Duo, but then he
didn't think his love so stupid as to actually call. The police
thought they were just dealing with Duo Maxwell, but Heero knew they
messing with Shinigami.

"If you are the only one, than perhaps you can guess? You told him I
was not real. I disagree with that statement, for I feel quite real."

Heero stopped breathing, kneeling down behind the table and looking
hurriedly around. He whispered into the phone, "Is he with you?"

He recognized the voice now, but just barely. He had only seen her a
few brief minutes and wasn't really paying attention she they spoke,
but who else could it be but the infamous Natasha? He respected Duo's
high opinion of the girl, but he remained suspicious of her. She was,
after all, crazier than...

"He is with me. You must make him stay awake. Yes, you will do this?
Just keep him awake."

A slight shuffle and then he heard a quiet breathing, but no words.
Straining his hearing, he could barely catch the soft background
sounds of footsteps. A door opened, then shut. He tried to shake free
of lingering sleep and figure out what was going on.

Natasha called him, and wanted him to keep...

"Duo?" he whispered, moving even further under the table.

"Heero?" came the faint reply.

"Where are you? Are you okay?" Please, please let him be okay, Heero
thought frantically. Damn, damn, he should have thought to hook the
phone up to a tracker, but he had never thought... Duo never would
have called! Of course, Duo didn't, the girl did.

"Tell me where you are, and I can come get you, okay? We can go away
again. You can bring Natasha. Duo? Duo, please say something."

"Dunno where. Natasha left. Heero?"

"I'm here. I won't leave you. I'll stay here. Duo, the police are
wanting me to help hunt you down. I told them I would, but only if
they took the death penalty off the table. I won't, though. Duo, I
won't let them get you, okay? Duo?"

"Yeah."

Heero ran a hand through the tangled chocolate snarl of his and tried
to calm his racing thoughts. Soldier wouldn't help, he needed to keep
talking to Duo, since the other man was obvious hurt somehow. He
needed to know what was wrong and Duo's location.

"What happened, Duo?"

"Escape. Natasha said... so," there was a slight moan and the sound
of Duo's quiet breathing before he started talking again, "Mad?"

"I'm not mad," Heero lied. Mostly he was scared, but anger was
definitely up on the list of emotions he denied having. "Duo, the
doctors never took the bullet out. I swear to you I won't let them
take you away, but you... you can't die, Duo."

"Okay. I won't."

Heero laughed softly, squashing the back of his hand against his cheek
to keep the tears from falling. He caught the soft sound of footsteps,
but it wasn't from over the phone. "Shit. Duo, I've got company. You
have to stay awake, okay? Promise me! Promise me you won't go to
sleep. Natasha will be back with help, okay? Duo!"

"Gotcha. No sleep. Heero..."

"Heero?" came a soft call from the closed door. Heero turned to stare
at it in numb surprise as the voice called again, "Heero, it's Relena,
please open up?"

Heero gripped the phone closer and slowly moved out from under the
table, edging away from the door. "What?" he called, faking a sleepy
tone, "Relena? What time is it? What do you want?"

"Heero?" the phone whispered, Duo whispered.

"I'm still here. Relena's at the door," he whispered back.

"Heero, I heard you shouting. Was it a bad dream?" Relena called back,
her feet causing a shadow over the line of light spilling under the
door from the hallway.

"I'm fine," Heero said in the most casual tone he could. Monotone. He
turned from the door and cupped a hand around the phone, whispering,
"I have to go, Duo. You have to stay awake, for me. Okay?"

"K. Heero. Heero, wait. Heero, I love you."

Heero swallowed and started to nod, but then realized there was no
way Duo could see his agreeing that way.

"I love you," he whispered back as the door swung open. Before Relena
could switch on the lights he all but threw the phone back on the
table and stepped away from it.

Relena gave a slight shriek when the lights did go on, however,
because Heero was standing there in only a pair of thin, white cotton
boxers that left little to the imagination. While she threw her hands
over her eyes and squealed, "I'm not looking!" he used the time to get
even further from the phone and put on the nearest piece of clothing.

Which turned out to be Duo's bathrobe. He pressed his cheek against
the black silk and turned away from Relena, not being able to conceal
the emotions he was sure lurked in his eyes, and not wanting her to
see them.

...I love you.

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There's a click, and the phone goes dead. I've got to be hallucinating
at this point, but I don't really care. Heero told me he loved me,
and I heard it. He wants me to stay awake, so I focus on the
operator's voice telling me to please hang up and try my call again.

I don't know where Natasha went.

Heck, I don't even know where I am.

Please hang up and try your call again.

Heero, Heero, Heero.

I could hit redial. No, Heero said he had company. They must be
tapping his phones or something. Relena, he said Relena was at the
door. I can imagine that little scene. Hello, may I speak to Heero
please? Oh, this is Duo. Oh hi Relena! Yes, I just love being
agonizing pain, you? Wonderful!

Please hang up and try your call again.

Scoff, scoff. I've been in worst pain than this, haven't I? Suck it
up, Maxwell, you pansy. You freak. You psycho. Crazy, crazy. My eyes
are closed. Whoops. Open, eyes, open! OPEN! Stay awake! Heero said
so, said to stay awake. He even said please. Love you. Please. Awake,
stay, fever, pain. Love you.

How long? How long since I left the hospital, since I was whole, since
I could breathe, since I could sleep without fear, live without fear,
since I was me again and not hiding, always hiding. Gotta stay awake,
Heero said so. Heero, love you. Heero.

Please hang up and...



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Author's Notes: As you can see from the date, I got behind in posting
the new chapters. I went and bought myself a GameCube with Animal
Crossing for Christmas (since I didn't get gifts, just money) and I've
been playing it ever since. Animal Crossing is crack. Plus I have a
stash of Vanilla Coke in the mini-fridge so...uhm, yeah. ^_^()
Good news is, the Parental Units have confirmed that if I clean up my
room and keep it clean, they will assist in moving the computer. Which
is good, because I can stay in my room and alternate 'fic writing and
Animal Crossing. Please feed the muses lots of happy reviews!!
Oh, does anyone get where the chapter title came from!
Hint: it's a nursery rhyme
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