Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ The Love Arc ❯ That Particular Time ( Chapter 1 )

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Note: part 2 is up you can find it here...
http://www.mediaminer.org/fanfic/view_ch.php/148876/517736

Title: The Love Arc part 1 -That Particular Time-
Author: Vega-Lume
Disclaimer: I don't own the boys I just like to play with them (hee hee)
And I do promise to put them back when I am done. (has fingers crossed)
Pairing: 2x1 Warnings: angst, break-up, Heero's POV
Beta: Hymie *wink*

Note: a song inspires each part of this arc, though it is not a Song fic.
The song the chapter is based on will appear at the end of the chapter
and in some cases if the song is in Japanese then both the original romanized and
translated versions will be present.

Also the chapters that are from Heero's point of view will be by Vel and the ones from Duo's point of view will be by Hymie.

That Particular Time
By Vel

~ A letter ~

~Dearest Duo;
I don't really know how it started; I fell in love with you.
I fell hard and it scared me for the first time in my life I was truly scared and I loved it.

After the eve war I ran away, from you, from the others.
I even tried to run from the feelings you had brought out in me. It didn't work. It was my love for you the love I tried to deny that brought me back. Not Relena's kidnapping, like you thought. Sure I care about her and yes I rescued her but it was you, just you. My heart hurt every time I thought about you and I cursed my self for running away.

I know that my disappearing had hurt you deeply. When you opened your home to me after I was discharged from the hospital I was surprised. When you opened your heart to me weeks later I was stunned. But now, now things have changed so drastically. I don't know how I missed it.

When we separated the first time I felt it was exactly what we needed at the time, space and a chance to breathe. After four months of separation we tried again and for the first few months I was insanely happy. Then it changed again and I realized that it was you. I was patient, my heart encouraged me to wait while you tried to figure out what you wanted to do with your life.

I sat by alone while you would go to L2 to help Hilde; I smiled and congratulated you when you opened your own salvage yard here on earth. I waited each night while you worked late, some times falling asleep on the sofa but most of the time waiting up until two or three in the morning hoping. Hoping you would be home soon so we could spend some time together.

But last night, I'm sorry love. I'm so sorry that I can't be stronger. That I can't be here for you any more.
I shouldn't have tried to force you; I should know that by now. But you need some time off, you need to take a break or you are going to end up killing your self. And I love you. I love you so much so please, for me. Take some time to breathe.

You are suffocating in your work, and it hurts me to see you this way. My heart aches at the thought of what you have become. I know that last night was my fault, I don't blame you. Please believe me and please remember that I will always love you, my heart.

Heero ~

Heero sighed and placed the letter on the bedside table. This, he felt was the hardest thing he had ever done. Walking away from the only family he had ever truly had. He was not hurting for himself, but for Duo. He was Duo's only family.

It hurt him knowing that he was taking away Duo's family.

He sent a glance at the clock that rested next to the letter and sighed again, Duo could be home at any time, and Heero had not finished packing yet.

Snatching up the open duffel that rested on the bed, Heero rushed to the bathroom and began throwing his toiletries on top of the clothing. As he turned to the mirrored cabinet above the sink he choked, this was the first time he had actually looked at himself since Duo had hit him the night before.

His right eye and cheek were bruised and swollen, the entire right side of his face was puffy and discoloured in mottled pinks, greens and purples.

Hurriedly he pulled open the cabinet and removed his dental hygiene and shaving supplies, dumping them in the duffel as well. Lastly he snagged his favorite towel from the hook behind the door.

He threw the towel and duffel on the bed then turned to his closet, removing his dress shoes and a few garment bags, containing his work clothes. The running shoes he left behind, he had another pair in his locker in the gym at Head Quarters.

He lay the shoes and garment bags on the bed next to the other things that already rested there.

Heero paused and scanned the room one final time, just to make sure that he had not forgotten anything important. Satisfied that he had not left anything that could not be easily replaced, he picked up the items from the bed.

Turning from the bed he left the room and with a heavy heart he walked out of Duo's life once again.


Owari

Stay tuned for :- Evergreen -:
Part 2 of the love arc…









That Particular Time by Alanis Morrissette
album -under rug swept-

my foundation was rocked
my tried and true way to deal was to vanish
my departures were old
I stood in the room shaking in my boots

at that particular time love had challenged me to stay
at that particular moment I knew not run away again
that particular month I was ready to investigate with you
at that particular time

we thought a break would be good for four months we sat and vacillated
we thought a small time apart would clear up the doubts that were abounding
at that particular time love encouraged me to wait
at that particular moment it helped me to be patient
that particular month we needed time to marinate in what "us" meant

I've always wanted for you what you've wanted for yourself
and yet I wanted to save us high water or hell
and I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt
and in the meantime I lost myself
in the meantime I lost myself
I'm sorry I lost myself-.i am

you knew you needed more time time spent alone with no distraction
you felt you needed to fly solo and high to define what you wanted
at that particular time love encouraged me to leave
at that particular moment I knew staying with you meant deserting me
that particular month was harder than you'd believe but I still left
at that particular time