InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A winter of sorrow ❯ A way around reality ( Chapter 4 )
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By: winter silhouette 
inuyasha talks to kagome
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Fantasy | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 04.11.2007 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.2K | Visits: 186 | Status: Completed
inuyasha talks to kagome
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Fantasy | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 04.11.2007 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.2K | Visits: 186 | Status: Completed
WOW well i hope that you enjoyed that chapter to. "PUNK ROCK GRL" thanks for the advice. ^_^.
WEll im gonna stop all this ummmmmm nothingness and get to the story guys.
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I RAN AS FAST AS MY LEGS COULD CARRY ME. INUYASHA WAS THE MONSTER HE HAD BEEN BEFORE
STANDING OVER THAT MAN. THE MAN I HAD SEEN IN THE FOREST. INUYASHA HAD KILLED THE MAN.
I DIDENT CARE HOW INUYASHA HAD RETURNED .
IT DIDENT MATTER I JUST WANTED TO RUN AWAY FROM THAT PAST. THE PAST WE HAD SHARED. BOTH OF THEM
ONE TRAGIC AND THE OTHER I LONGED TO LIVE AGAIN. I NOLONGER HEARD INUYASHA'S VOICE AND I BEGAN TO CALM. I TRIED TO CONVIENCE MYSELF THAT IT WAS JUST A ILLUSION OF THE SNOW.
DEEP INSIDE THOUGH I KNEW IT WAS HAPPENING. I COLLAPSED IN A SHIVERING HEAP. THE SNOW CARESSED MY BODY. THE ONCE CLEAR BECAME BLURRY AND I FELL INTO A SLEEP. I DREAMED THE NIGHT OVER AGAIN. DESPITE THE COLD I SWEATED.
I REMEMBER BEING LIFTED CAREFULLY INTO COLD, ARMS. LACKING WARMTH. LACKING LIFE. MY EYES JOLTED OPEN
AND I LOOKED UP AT INUYASHA'S PALE FACE. MOONLIGHT GLOWING ON HIS FACE. HIS SNOW COLD ARMS HELD ME TIGHT AND HE SPOKE FOUR WORDS SOFTLY INTO MY EAR.
"ITS NOT LIKE BEFORE"
THOSE WORDS ECHOED THROUGH-OUT THE BACKS OF MY MIND. WHAT DID THIS MEAN. INUYASHA, COULD HE HAVE CHANGED. WHAT WOULD EXPLAIN THE GRIN ON HIS FACE STANDING OVER THE DEAD MAN TURNING THE SNOW A DEEP RED. THIS LIFE WAS JUST ANOTHER LIE. INUYASHA WAS NO DIFFERENT.
"INUYASHA, GO AWAY!"
MY VOICE WAS MORE HARSH THAN I HAD INTENDED. I LOOKED UP AT INUYASHA'S FACE EXSPECTING TO SEE REGRET AND HURT REFLECT APON HIS AMBER EYE'S. HIS EXPRESSION DIDENT SHIFT THE SLIGHTEST BIT.
INUYASHA WAS DIFFERENT.
"STOP"
I ASKED. IT WAS MORE OF A QUESTION. INUYASHA WILL YOU STOP. INUYASHA LOOKED DOWN AT ME. I COULD TELL THAT SOMETHING HAD CHANGED. INUYASHA DID NOT SHOW ANY MONSTER. JUST THE HANYOU I HAD LOVED.
INUYASHA KNEELED DOWN IN THE SNOW AND DROPPED ME CAREFULLY. I SAW THAT WE HAD REACHED THE EDGE OF THE VILLAGE.
"INUYASHA, ARE YOU STILL.....A DEMON?" I ASKED
"NO KAGOME. I RETURNED FOR YOU. THIS MAN....."
" YOU KILLED HIM INUYASHA YOU ARE NOT THE SAME!" I SURPRIZED MYSELF.
"HE WOKE ME KAGOME AND ASKED ME TO SERVE ME. HE WAS A DEMON" INUYASHA'S VOICE WAS SERIOUS. YET HOLLOW. IT SOUNDED STRANGE AND LACKED ANY EMOTION BUT I KNEW THAT HE WASENT LIEING.
"INUYASHA, ARE YOU DEAD."
HE NODDED. INUYASHA WAS A GHOST. A GHOST. I HAD NOT BELIVED IT BUT IT WAS TRUE.
"WHAT DOES THIS MEAN" I ASKED. INUYASHA TURNED AWAY. I GOT UP ON WOBBLY LEGS AND STARTED AFTER HIM. INUYASHA TURNED TO FACE ME. ANGER LINGERED IN HIS EYES. AT LEAST THEY WERE NOT HOLLOW.
"KAGOME, I LOVED YOU SO MANY YEARS AGO, I KNOW I DID BECAUSE I COULD FEEL IT. NOT ANYMORE THOUGH, I DONT FEEL ANYTHING. NO WARMTH. MY HEART IS GONE I BELIVE BECAUSE I CANT EVEN FEEL IT BEATING. IM A GHOST. A ILLUSION AND A CLOUD NOT REALLY HERE BUT I CAN BE SEEN AND FELT. I CANT FEEL IN RETURN THOUGH KAGOME WE WILL NEVER HAVE A LIFE NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY TO CONVINCE MYSELF I KNOW IT CANT BE THE SAME. I KNOW THAT ITS WRONG."
I WAS HURT. INUYASHA WAS SO SAD. HIS EYES FILLED WITH FAKE SORROW. OR MAYBE REAL. INUYASHA WAS RIGHT THOUGH HOW COULD A MORTAL AND A GHOST HAVE A RELATIONSHIP. NO WAY. IF THERE WAS ONE I WOULD FIND IT THOUGH. ALL THOSE DREAMS HAD GONE AWAY.
A CHILD AND A HOME. A LIFE TOGATHER. THEY WERE LIKE GHOSTS TO. THE CHANCE FOR THEM WOULD NEVER COME BACK. EVER AGAIN. INUYASHA STILL KNEELED IN THE SNOW AND ME BESIDE HIM. IT WAS A SAD SCENE.
FAREWELL WAS HARD TO SAY. INUYASHA WANTED LIFE AND HE COULDENT HAVE IT. WHEN INUYASHA WANTED DEATH TO FORGET IT WAS GRANTED SO EASILY. WHY CANT LIFE BE THE SAME.
INUYASHA LOOKED UP AT ME. "I CANT EVEN CRY, ITS LIKE I'VE BEEN DRAINED OF HUMANITY". HE SAID IN A WHISPER. THIN SLIVER WHISPS OF HIS HAIR DANCED IN THE FRIGID WIND. THE SUN WAS SLEEPING IN THE MOUNTIANS AND I WAS SITTING UNDER THE CRYING MOON WITH THIS GHOST.
"PROMISE ME.....". HUH. MY ATTENTION TURNED BACK TO INUYASHA. "NOT TO FORGET, TO STAY WITH ME AT LEAST FOR A WHILE" I NODDED. INUYASHA SEEMED TO BE RELIVED. "INUYASHA, WE NEED TO TRY TO MAKE THIS WORK." INUYASHA LOOKED SHOCKED "IT CANT" INUYASHA SAID. "YOU SHOULD GO HOME NOW, GET SOME REST AND I WILL COME BACK TO YOU, HERE ON THIS HILL" I NODDED INUYASHA WOULD ALWAYS BE WITH ME. "KAGOME WE WILL TRY PROMISE. I KNOW THAT WE CAN GET THROUGH THIS. I WILL FIND LIFE SOMEWHERE AND THEN WE CAN BE TOGATHER ALWAYS AND SETTLE DOWN KAGOME. I KNOW ITS ALOT TO ASK. ITS ALOT TO ASK FOR YOU TO COME HERE TOMMOROW. IM DENYING YOU A LIFE OF YOUR OWN AND ITS UNFAIR BECAUSE MINE IS ALL OVER BUT AT LEAST GIVE ME A CHANCE I DONT WANT TO FAIL YOU AGAIN.".
INUYASHA KNEW THAT I UNDERSTOOD BECAUSE HE TURNED AWAY. INUYASHA YOU HAVE NEVER FAILED ME. INUYASHA LOOKED BACK ONE LAST TIME. I WATCHED MY BREATH FORM IN CLOUDS BECAUSE OF THE COOL AIR MAKING IT VISIBLE. I THINK THAT INUYASHA WASENT BREATHING THOUGH. AT LEAST I COULDENT SEE HIM BREATHING , BUT I WASENT SURE. INUYASHA WAS SO ALONE BUT AT LEAST HE KNEW WHAT HE WAS. INUYASHA WHAT WILL I DO. I KNEW DEEP IN MY HEART IT COULDENT WORK BUT I THOUGHT THAT IF I DIDENT ADMIT IT, IT WOULDENT HAPPEN.
I WOULD MEET INUYASHA THE NEXT NIGHT ON THIS SAME MOONLIT HILL. INUYASHA WAS NOW OUT OF MY SIGHT AND IT BROUGHT SEVERE DISSAPOINTMENT. POOR INUYASHA. POOR ME. I CLOSED MY EYES AND CROUCHED IN THE SNOW. I TRIED TO CALM DOWN BUT I COULDENT. THE SHOCK WAS BEGGINING TO TAKE EFFECT.
WEll im gonna stop all this ummmmmm nothingness and get to the story guys.
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I RAN AS FAST AS MY LEGS COULD CARRY ME. INUYASHA WAS THE MONSTER HE HAD BEEN BEFORE
STANDING OVER THAT MAN. THE MAN I HAD SEEN IN THE FOREST. INUYASHA HAD KILLED THE MAN.
I DIDENT CARE HOW INUYASHA HAD RETURNED .
IT DIDENT MATTER I JUST WANTED TO RUN AWAY FROM THAT PAST. THE PAST WE HAD SHARED. BOTH OF THEM
ONE TRAGIC AND THE OTHER I LONGED TO LIVE AGAIN. I NOLONGER HEARD INUYASHA'S VOICE AND I BEGAN TO CALM. I TRIED TO CONVIENCE MYSELF THAT IT WAS JUST A ILLUSION OF THE SNOW.
DEEP INSIDE THOUGH I KNEW IT WAS HAPPENING. I COLLAPSED IN A SHIVERING HEAP. THE SNOW CARESSED MY BODY. THE ONCE CLEAR BECAME BLURRY AND I FELL INTO A SLEEP. I DREAMED THE NIGHT OVER AGAIN. DESPITE THE COLD I SWEATED.
I REMEMBER BEING LIFTED CAREFULLY INTO COLD, ARMS. LACKING WARMTH. LACKING LIFE. MY EYES JOLTED OPEN
AND I LOOKED UP AT INUYASHA'S PALE FACE. MOONLIGHT GLOWING ON HIS FACE. HIS SNOW COLD ARMS HELD ME TIGHT AND HE SPOKE FOUR WORDS SOFTLY INTO MY EAR.
"ITS NOT LIKE BEFORE"
THOSE WORDS ECHOED THROUGH-OUT THE BACKS OF MY MIND. WHAT DID THIS MEAN. INUYASHA, COULD HE HAVE CHANGED. WHAT WOULD EXPLAIN THE GRIN ON HIS FACE STANDING OVER THE DEAD MAN TURNING THE SNOW A DEEP RED. THIS LIFE WAS JUST ANOTHER LIE. INUYASHA WAS NO DIFFERENT.
"INUYASHA, GO AWAY!"
MY VOICE WAS MORE HARSH THAN I HAD INTENDED. I LOOKED UP AT INUYASHA'S FACE EXSPECTING TO SEE REGRET AND HURT REFLECT APON HIS AMBER EYE'S. HIS EXPRESSION DIDENT SHIFT THE SLIGHTEST BIT.
INUYASHA WAS DIFFERENT.
"STOP"
I ASKED. IT WAS MORE OF A QUESTION. INUYASHA WILL YOU STOP. INUYASHA LOOKED DOWN AT ME. I COULD TELL THAT SOMETHING HAD CHANGED. INUYASHA DID NOT SHOW ANY MONSTER. JUST THE HANYOU I HAD LOVED.
INUYASHA KNEELED DOWN IN THE SNOW AND DROPPED ME CAREFULLY. I SAW THAT WE HAD REACHED THE EDGE OF THE VILLAGE.
"INUYASHA, ARE YOU STILL.....A DEMON?" I ASKED
"NO KAGOME. I RETURNED FOR YOU. THIS MAN....."
" YOU KILLED HIM INUYASHA YOU ARE NOT THE SAME!" I SURPRIZED MYSELF.
"HE WOKE ME KAGOME AND ASKED ME TO SERVE ME. HE WAS A DEMON" INUYASHA'S VOICE WAS SERIOUS. YET HOLLOW. IT SOUNDED STRANGE AND LACKED ANY EMOTION BUT I KNEW THAT HE WASENT LIEING.
"INUYASHA, ARE YOU DEAD."
HE NODDED. INUYASHA WAS A GHOST. A GHOST. I HAD NOT BELIVED IT BUT IT WAS TRUE.
"WHAT DOES THIS MEAN" I ASKED. INUYASHA TURNED AWAY. I GOT UP ON WOBBLY LEGS AND STARTED AFTER HIM. INUYASHA TURNED TO FACE ME. ANGER LINGERED IN HIS EYES. AT LEAST THEY WERE NOT HOLLOW.
"KAGOME, I LOVED YOU SO MANY YEARS AGO, I KNOW I DID BECAUSE I COULD FEEL IT. NOT ANYMORE THOUGH, I DONT FEEL ANYTHING. NO WARMTH. MY HEART IS GONE I BELIVE BECAUSE I CANT EVEN FEEL IT BEATING. IM A GHOST. A ILLUSION AND A CLOUD NOT REALLY HERE BUT I CAN BE SEEN AND FELT. I CANT FEEL IN RETURN THOUGH KAGOME WE WILL NEVER HAVE A LIFE NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY TO CONVINCE MYSELF I KNOW IT CANT BE THE SAME. I KNOW THAT ITS WRONG."
I WAS HURT. INUYASHA WAS SO SAD. HIS EYES FILLED WITH FAKE SORROW. OR MAYBE REAL. INUYASHA WAS RIGHT THOUGH HOW COULD A MORTAL AND A GHOST HAVE A RELATIONSHIP. NO WAY. IF THERE WAS ONE I WOULD FIND IT THOUGH. ALL THOSE DREAMS HAD GONE AWAY.
A CHILD AND A HOME. A LIFE TOGATHER. THEY WERE LIKE GHOSTS TO. THE CHANCE FOR THEM WOULD NEVER COME BACK. EVER AGAIN. INUYASHA STILL KNEELED IN THE SNOW AND ME BESIDE HIM. IT WAS A SAD SCENE.
FAREWELL WAS HARD TO SAY. INUYASHA WANTED LIFE AND HE COULDENT HAVE IT. WHEN INUYASHA WANTED DEATH TO FORGET IT WAS GRANTED SO EASILY. WHY CANT LIFE BE THE SAME.
INUYASHA LOOKED UP AT ME. "I CANT EVEN CRY, ITS LIKE I'VE BEEN DRAINED OF HUMANITY". HE SAID IN A WHISPER. THIN SLIVER WHISPS OF HIS HAIR DANCED IN THE FRIGID WIND. THE SUN WAS SLEEPING IN THE MOUNTIANS AND I WAS SITTING UNDER THE CRYING MOON WITH THIS GHOST.
"PROMISE ME.....". HUH. MY ATTENTION TURNED BACK TO INUYASHA. "NOT TO FORGET, TO STAY WITH ME AT LEAST FOR A WHILE" I NODDED. INUYASHA SEEMED TO BE RELIVED. "INUYASHA, WE NEED TO TRY TO MAKE THIS WORK." INUYASHA LOOKED SHOCKED "IT CANT" INUYASHA SAID. "YOU SHOULD GO HOME NOW, GET SOME REST AND I WILL COME BACK TO YOU, HERE ON THIS HILL" I NODDED INUYASHA WOULD ALWAYS BE WITH ME. "KAGOME WE WILL TRY PROMISE. I KNOW THAT WE CAN GET THROUGH THIS. I WILL FIND LIFE SOMEWHERE AND THEN WE CAN BE TOGATHER ALWAYS AND SETTLE DOWN KAGOME. I KNOW ITS ALOT TO ASK. ITS ALOT TO ASK FOR YOU TO COME HERE TOMMOROW. IM DENYING YOU A LIFE OF YOUR OWN AND ITS UNFAIR BECAUSE MINE IS ALL OVER BUT AT LEAST GIVE ME A CHANCE I DONT WANT TO FAIL YOU AGAIN.".
INUYASHA KNEW THAT I UNDERSTOOD BECAUSE HE TURNED AWAY. INUYASHA YOU HAVE NEVER FAILED ME. INUYASHA LOOKED BACK ONE LAST TIME. I WATCHED MY BREATH FORM IN CLOUDS BECAUSE OF THE COOL AIR MAKING IT VISIBLE. I THINK THAT INUYASHA WASENT BREATHING THOUGH. AT LEAST I COULDENT SEE HIM BREATHING , BUT I WASENT SURE. INUYASHA WAS SO ALONE BUT AT LEAST HE KNEW WHAT HE WAS. INUYASHA WHAT WILL I DO. I KNEW DEEP IN MY HEART IT COULDENT WORK BUT I THOUGHT THAT IF I DIDENT ADMIT IT, IT WOULDENT HAPPEN.
I WOULD MEET INUYASHA THE NEXT NIGHT ON THIS SAME MOONLIT HILL. INUYASHA WAS NOW OUT OF MY SIGHT AND IT BROUGHT SEVERE DISSAPOINTMENT. POOR INUYASHA. POOR ME. I CLOSED MY EYES AND CROUCHED IN THE SNOW. I TRIED TO CALM DOWN BUT I COULDENT. THE SHOCK WAS BEGGINING TO TAKE EFFECT.