InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ It's my Life ❯ Sesshomaru ( Chapter 4 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Disclaimer: Ok, now obviously I don’t own this, any original characters that pop up, yeah those are mine. But everyone else, those are all owned by Rumiko Takahashi. Which in case you didn’t know, isn’t me. I make no money off of this. While Rumiko herself has probably made millions.




One of Sesshoumaru’s rules in life was very simple Expect nothing, while after many years of life certain situations could be very easily predicted, it was never wise to assume anything would happen. But despite this long standing rule, he himself, could not help but be surprised when his hanyo half-brother tore into the clearing ahead of where he had been resting, spewing forth strings of curses that would have had even the most foul of mouths blushing. Even more surprising was the level of destruction the hanyo caused, to say nothing of the speed it was accomplished. It was somewhat impressive, and a little….arousing. The lord of the west snarled to himself, his Youki was acting up again, had been for months now. Apparently his body had decided it had gone without a mate for long enough, which was annoying, but more annoying still was that every impressive feat seemed to fascinate it, both mental and physical. Just a few moons ago a wise tactical decision by one of his general’s during a minor revolt had his Youki squealing. It had been most troublesome, the attention it had devoted on the demoness. It had been so……unworthy of his time. But now the insult it brought upon him was even greater. His Youki was positively moaning in ecstasy over the show of sheer physical might that was being shown. “This is inexcusable.” Sesshomaru thought. Although he understood the reasoning behind his Youki’s delight, a stronger mate meant stronger pups. Stronger pups meant better chances of survival and the continued existence of ones bloodline. His instincts were remarkably simple, which was usually a good thing. The fact that it was a male wasn’t a problem, it was rather common among demon’s after all. Though as a rule Sesshomaru had trained himself not to look at male demon’s as possible mates, his Youki couldn’t care less, but that it was a hanyo….and half breed, a stain upon not only his father’s name and blood, but Sesshomaru’s as well.


Still this outburst was quite out of character for Inuyasha, and as the hanyo growled out curses of “That fucking bitch.” and “She has no right. I’m no one’s pet!” He couldn’t help but be curious, It wasn’t because he wanted anything to do with the slime, no no, and it certainly had nothing to do with the hardening of his manhood as the enraged Inu-hanyo began to hurl large sections of earth in all directions, absolutely not, It was only Sesshomaru’s will, and besides the hanyo was in his lands, not to mention if he went off on a rampage it could further embarrass his family.

Yes that was it.

Very carefully he made his way downwind of Inuyasha, taking care not to be seen. It was remarkably easy, as caught up in the grip of rage as Inuyasha seemed to be, it was still surprising that the hanyo’s normally hypersensitive reactions could totally miss him. The thought of how vulnerable his little brother was strangely left a bad taste in his mouth. Although most demon’s would eagerly avoid a demon who had displayed such ferocity and power, some would capitalize on the momentary lapse of focus. Why he himself could easily rush forward and rip that smooth…white throat out. Oddly the thought of anyone performing such an act made Sesshomaru’s pulse race and temper flare. He himself would never think of doing such a thing, it would be dishonorable to attack Inuyasha from behind, No he was a foe that not only deserved to be met head on…..he NEEDED to be met in such a fashion. Missing arm notwithstanding Sesshomaru had to begrudgingly give Inuyasha’s combat prowess respect. Not only was the hanyo far stronger then most demon’s he knew, he had nearly twice as much experience. But the question still remained.

“What could have possibly angered Inuyasha so?” Sesshomaru thought. The wind blew gently upon the lord of the west’s face, taking a breath he allowed Inuyasha’s scent to flow thought him, well not exactly through…no a great deal of it seemed to settle in his now throbbing groin. Gritting his teeth Sesshomaru forced the seemingly siren’s call of his baby brothers scent from his mind.

“Ooooh but he smells soooooo good.” His Youki whispered through his mind.

Yes….yes he did smell good, oddly enough, vile little bastard. But wait….Sesshomaru took another, deeper breath. Something was different, it was not the way his brother usually smelled. It vaguely reminded him of the last time Inuyasha’s scent had changed. Only it was even different from that. “

Just what is going on?” He couldn’t help but wonder. Just then the monk from Inuyasha’s little group burst into the clearing, Sesshomaru couldn’t help but chuckle as the monk very cautiously made his way over to Inuyasha. Very carefully Sesshomaru listened in, trying to glean what he could from the conversation. Though what he could hear wasn’t very useful. Something about a bitch, and having no right. No right to what? Now Inuyasha was telling the monk to send her away. “One of the women then?” Sesshomaru thought, well if it was a bitch then it had to be, as stunted and backwards as the hanyo tended to be, he still was an Inu. Focusing in on the two Sesshomaru couldn’t help but let out a small gasp. “When did Inuyasha become larger?” He thought, although still smaller then himself one could clearly see that Inuyasha now towered over the monk. Drawing back into himself as the monk left, Sesshomaru couldn’t help but be puzzled.


“Interesting.” He though” “Very interesting.” If Inuyasha had nothing but his fathers pure blood running through his vein’s Sesshomaru would have said the boy was reaching his first level of maturity, which tended to result in a growth spurt. After all the hanyo was still very young, in fact he was at in age that most demon children would not be allow out of their parents homes, at least not without guard. Something about that thought made the ice Lord of the west feel slightly guilty, a feeling he quickly forced down. “Even still, if Inuyasha was maturing I’ve never heard of such a sudden spurt in growth.” Indeed both several inches and pounds of raw muscle seemed to have added onto the hanyo, although not bulky by any means he was clearly larger.

Was this normal in hanyo’s? Sesshomaru had to admit, he didn’t know. After all most half-breeds tended to be killed at birth, or shortly thereafter. He had never heard of one actually reaching even two hundred years of life. If this was true and Inuyasha was maturing then that meant…..

“That means he can take a mate!” His Youki suddenly screamed out. Again Sesshomaru snarled, here he was trying to sort out important matters about his baby brother and his Youki, and hormones, were jumping in. So annoyed by this that he failed to notice that indeed the hanyo was totally filling his thoughts, not to mention that the usually lowly Inuyasha was suddenly the most important thing on his mind.

“This is ridiculous.” He thought. “This Sesshomaru will get to the unravel this new hanyo related mystery.” Shoving some foliage aside Sesshomaru made his way into the clearing. “Inuyasha!” he bellowed. The half-breed whipped around to face him, fury blazing in his eyes.

“What the fuck do you want!” Inuyasha roared.

“Why do you smell so strange? What is the cause of this growth spurt of yours?” Sesshomaru asked, his icy tone broached no questions. But as always….Inuyasha never followed as he should.

“What the fuck are you babbling about? Has your brain finally turned to shit asshole?” Inuyasha snapped. This was unacceptable, not only was he not answering as he should have, he was insulting his betters once again, once he got his answers perhaps he would show Inuyasha his place.

“Do not play coy with me you filthy hanyo, you will answer this Sesshomaru’s questions and you will answer them now!” Sesshomaru demanded.

“Fuck you!” Inuyasha shot back.

And then it happened. Something impossible, Inuyasha surged forward, which speed he shouldn’t have, catching Sesshomaru against his chest, shoving him backwards and ramming him into a tree so hard the oak cracked and splintered.

“Mmmm he’s strong.” Sesshomaru’s Youki purred, No one, save his father had ever even come close to manhandling him like this! “Shut up.” He thought, snarling at his Youki.

“Who the fuck are you to demand anything from me!” Inuyasha roared, drawing his right hand back and slamming it into Sesshomaru’s ribs with such force three of them cracked as the breath was forced from his lungs.

“This isn’t right….he shouldn’t be so strong, he shouldn’t be anywhere near this strong…” Sesshomaru thought.

“You think YOU can order me around? Its bad enough that bitch thinks I’m her dog, but now YOUR ordering me around!? Its my life!” Inuyasha raged.

“I am your elder. Your lord. Your life belongs to me.” Sesshomaru spat out.

“Oh if I’m yours where the fuck were you when I needed you? When I was small and needed to be protected?! Where were you when me and my mother needed your strength!?” Inuyasha asked.

“I have no obligations to protect a pitiful stain on our families name, nor need I protect his filthy human mother.” Sesshomaru snarled, his temper flaring, how dare Inuyasha question him?! Just has he was coiling his strength to hurl Inuyasha off, Inuyasha stuck. His fist drilling into Sesshomaru’s temple with it couldn’t, shouldn’t have. Stars filled his vision as pain ripped through his skull.

“UH UH fucker that’s not how it works! You can’s claim someone without taking them under your care. Besides that you had and technically still have an obligation to me! I am also InuTaisho’s son! He was obligated to me and after his death you not only inherited his title and lands, but his debts as well!” Inuyasha screamed.

“That’s…..that’s hardly….” Sesshomaru sputtered, before Inuyasha stuck him again, this time right above his cheekbone. “Your mother was perfectly capable of caring for you.” Sesshomaru stated, voice very unstable. He couldn’t focus his thoughts, his head was swimming, and unfamiliar and unwanted feelings were welling up within him

“You’re a honor-less fuck. You are the disgrace on fathers name. Or did it make you feel big? Leaving a little child out in the cold.” Inuyasha stated. “Maybe your right, maybe my mother could have cared for me all alone, but you still ignored your obligations to me not only as my brother but also as the lord of the west. Plus you can’t say its because I’m half human either, because we both know you have a little human girl under your care right now. What is she so much better then me? Me who has fathers blood coursing though his veins while she has none!? Oh and lets not forget after my mother died you still did not lift ONE FUCKING HAND TO AID ME!” Inuyasha roared, hurling Sesshomaru away, face first into a tree before leaping off into the distance.

The impact was sickening, blood flowed from Sesshomaru’s injured nose and mouth. But beyond the physical pain, a different sort of hurt was forming.
Not only had Inuyasha manhandled him, he’d also beaten him down with pure reason. “Nonsense.” Sesshomaru muttered. Just because his father might have be obligated to the boy because he was his son, that didn’t mean his heir had to……had to…..it wasn’t as if he……just because he was lord……

Sesshomaru’s insides froze. Its one thing for someone insult his honor….but now his own sense of self was tarnished. The fucking hanyo was right, he had totally ignore the debt that had fallen upon him, like it or not. For one of his standing, such a thing was a terrible smear upon his name and clan. Slowly Sesshomaru pulled himself up, “Well then….its settled. This Sesshomaru will not allow” He spoke out loud. Physical pain now all but a memory, he would take care of his debt to the half-breed, and he would erase the taint on his own honor. Hatred or not he would not allow his honor and name to be drug down like this, not by anyone.

Not even himself.

As he began to walk in the direction Inuyasha had went, following the still fresh trail, he failed to realize that the course of action he had just sworn himself to required him to be in nearly constant contact with Inuyasha.

Which was just what his now grinning Youki wanted.



Ok another chapter down. My my Sesshomaru is hard to write, But I think I did him ok eh?

Let me take this chance to answer a few questions I have been asked.

“Why are you writing a yaoi? Arnt you a boy?” Yes, yes I am, however don’t you think as a male I might understand a bit about men? Expecally sexualy, not only girls can do that you know.

“Are you gay?” Uh no, though I’m something of a bisexual, I actually prefer women, but I’m a little annoyed with them on a personal level at the moment and beside, sometimes you see a little hot goth boy and well….you get the idea.

“How come you don’t use any Japanese words in this fic? Like Aniki and stuff?” Because I don’t know Japanese, however if someone would like to give me a list of words and their meaning, I would be more then happy to use them in my story.





SoSickOfNyQuil: Yeah I kinda like to leave things on a sorta cliffy, I just like the impact of that one final sentence. In front of Kagome eh? Hmmm….you know that kinda gives me an idea…..

gen50-inlj: I’m glad you like the story, and yes this is partly inspired by snagglelaughs [am I even spelling that right?] fiction “Uke” Only I’m taking Inuyasha in different directions. I’m not really trying to protray Kagome any way then how I see her, a self little brat. I don’t think of her as evil per say just young and selfish. Not to mention more a little stubborn and thickheaded.

ladytokyo: Out of all of them I think Miroku is the one that would come to Inuyasha’s side more then the rest. Human’s on a whole will do strange things for someone they love, but even then you gotta have a point where you’ve just got nothing left. The point really is, that Kagome never thinks of Inuyasha feelings or needs. Yes I think it’ll be a big ton of bricks when she realizes what she’s done, if she’ll accept it. As for Sesshomaru being Inuyasha’s mate? Well….anything’s possible hehehe.

Tenisha-sama: Glad you like it, though I’m not sure Kagome is from the 7th hell…..3rd or 4th maybe…but 7th is pushing it haha.