Original Poetry Fan Fiction ❯ Stranger In My Head ❯ Alone ( Chapter 2 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

I like to think of myself as an optimist,
Always looking to the positive,
“Antisocial” they call me
Inside, I yearn for belonging,
To be part of a group to call my own.
I push away, ridicule and demean is what I do.

An aching in my heart,
Never goes away, no matter what I do
Go to new places, meet new people,
Just continues to eat away, whenever I look,
The black abyss stares right back at me,
The clearest reflection I've ever known,
Better than a mirror.

I cry, I lash out, I scream for mercy
The monster knows no bounds.
Pure, inappropriate, “It's really nothing” or so
I'd like to think. Despite my best efforts
It continues to gnaw at my very being.

Alone.

What hurts the most....I feel as though
Nobody cares. I sure don't.
Just full of hate....and regret.