Pokemon Fan Fiction ❯ Somethings Left Unsaid ❯ Reality or Insanity ( Chapter 6 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

Disclaimer: Nope.... dont own Pokemon... hell I dont even own Spike... BUT! I do own Shadow!! YAYA I OWN SOMETHING AGAIN!
oh and one more thing.
My muse went on vacation because she said that she is overworked and underpaid. Which I find is bullshit.



(Jessica's POV)
Seeing a girl playing... with her parents.
I remember this.
It was when I was around three.
Father and mother were still together and happy.
This was also the day I first met Lance.

This was the day that Lance got his first Pokemon.
It was a Dratini...just like mine.
I remember him coming out of the Dragons Den with this...look on his face.
I cant really say what it meant.
It was just so hard to decipher.

I remember asking him what was wrong.
The only thing he told me was to be strong no matter what.
To protect the Pokemon while he was gone.
Because as long as I was here at home protecting...
Then he would have the same strength to do it on the outside world.
Then he gave me a charm,
it had every dragon on it.
He said that I had to keep it on at all times.
If I didnt then he couldnt help me when the time came.

"Jessica, its time to wake up little one."
Who is that?
I can hear them... but its not coming from this dream playing out in front of me.
Am I still sleeping?
Why am I still sleeping?
The only thing I remembr was coming to Azalea Town with Spike.
The Rockets.....
The Pokemon...
Killing....

(Normal POV)
"AHHHHH!!!!!!" Screamed Shadow as she sat straight up out of the bed where she was.
With tears falling down her face...
Remembering what she did.
How many she killed.
Killed...
'Oh my god.... I killed them..
Killed them all.'

"Sshh little one. It'll all be ok."
Looking up Shadow saw just who it was.
"Lance?" she croaked.
"What are you doing here?"
"You needed my help didnt you?"
"But how..." looking down at the charm she had worn since that day she understood.
'Wait... dragons...heir...chosen....son...'
"Lance you have some explaining to do." she said finally.
Giving her a confused look Lance sat down and looked at her.
Waiting for her to elaborate.

"Why is it that Lugia.....
Why did I kill.....
What the hell do i do now!"

"Shadow.... you did nothing wrong."
"Dont you understand! I killed all those people Lance!
Not just killed them...
I...i tortured some of them too!
I wanted them to feel the pain they are putting the Pokemon through!" Going into histerics Shadow screamed it all out.

Taking her roughly by the shoulders Lance made her look at him.
"You did absolutely nothing, and I mean NOTHING, wrong.
It is those damned Rockets' fault for causing those Pokemon the pain they did!
Understand."
Nodding, Shadow finally calmed down enough to ask him the one question he was hoping she would never ask him.
"Lance, do you kill people who are mean to Pokemon too?"
Looking him in the eyes to make sure he wouldnt lie to her Jessica waited for his answer.
"...yes." getting up out of the chair Lance opened the door before looking at Jessica one last time.
"You did nothing wrong little one.
Its just like Lugia said.
You are now like me.
A hand of justice for all Pokemon here in Johto."
with that he walked out of the room.
Closing the door to let Shadow think about what he just said.

(Jessica's POV)
I'm not the only one?
Lance too?
This isnt happening.
Sure I dont like people very much.
But does that give me the right to kill them?
An eye for an eye?
But then two wrongs dont make a right.
I'm so confused.
I dont know what to do from here.

Hearing the door open again I look up to see that its Spike.
Motioning for her to come in she does.
Taking the seat that Lance took not ten minutes ago.
We just sit in silence for a while.
I cant stand the silence.
"What did I do?"
"You killed them."
Thats all she says.
No disgust...nothing
Just...nothing
She seems as in shock as I am.
Only she doesnt see their faces the way I do.
She cant feel the anger I felt.
So therefore, its good that she doesnt know what I feel right now.
I think I will keep what Lugia said to me quiet for now.

"I'm sorry you had to see that little sister."
Finally I come out with something.
I thought I would never be able to talk again.
"It's not your fault.
I was angry too."
Finally see says the one thing I was hoping to hear from her.
"I dont hate you Shadow.
If anything I look at you in a bigger light then before.
You stepped up when no one else will.
You took care of those Rockets and made it known that you will not stand for abuse of them."
Looking at her I see that she is crying.
Feeling wetness run down my cheeks a realize that so am I.

Coming over to me, she hugs me like her life and mine depend on it.
I am grateful because that hug shows me..
She isnt afraid of me.
She still loves me.
She'll stay with me.
And I am grateful that we arent torn apart by this life and the people in it.

The biggest thing though that I am grateful for though..
Is that I can live another day with all of my sanity in tact.
Because tomorrow I might snap again.
And next time I might not come back from it.
Next time... I might lose it all.
Next time... I might be left in the nightmare that I was in yesterday.

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GD E: ummmmmmm.... sorry? oh screw it... im in a crappy mood... so this chapter isnt all that good.