Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ L'Amoreux (My Kitsunep4) ❯ L'Amoreux ( Chapter 1 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

My Kitsune p4 : L'Amoreux chp1 (New York 11-22-02)
by: Baby Nyx


I yawned and snuggled closer to Hiei's warm back,
we've thrown off the comforter because we were too
warm and we didn't want to sleep away from each
other's embrace. He took a deep breath and stretched
out as he turned in my arms to face me. "Ohayo,
Kurama." he breathed out.

"Aishiteru koi." I said and started planting random
kisses over his eyes, his forhead, over his hidden
eye, his cheeks... a small pleased smile was on his
lips as he reached down to caress my hip, he pressed
his body closer to mine. I took that as an invitation.

I understand how Hiei dosen't want it as often as I
do, so I grab these prescious few times he invites me
with both hands and hungry kisses, even if I don't
feel too good right now. Our goal here is to keep Hiei
from getting injured and he's being very cooperative.
He's giving himself to me without asking me in return,
letting me dominate him, being docile and obedient
with the Youko...

I feel a little jealous, if that makes any sense.
Because... I want Hiei too, I want him realeasing his
passion inside me, I want him to take me and take
control of me. I miss his cruel kisses...

Yomi had me figured out...

I thought he was just using me and I kept telling
myself that even as I begged him for the atonement I
craved and the release from the mess I have made of
myself. Now I know for sure that I was lying...

I'll be lying too if I said I did not miss Yomi.

Hiei is now gentle with me, he's sheathed his teeth
and tempered his burning passion, his hands are
featherlight when he touches me, he lets me dominate
him, I like that too but...

Hmmm, humans and demons are never satisfied with what
they have are they? Shuichi you may have lied to
yourself but you can't lie to me. Look beneath you,
look at him, now tell me, do you want Yomi back?

Gods no!

Then love him without regret, take what your given,
ask when the opportunity arises but never tell me you
want to be back in that bastards arms again. I will
never forgive you if you throw Hiei away for your self
flagellations. Damn you my human self, damn you and
your burden of guilt...

"Kurama?" I looked at my beloved who raised a hand
and brushed the back of his fingers over cheeks "Your
thoughts are far away."

I caught his hand and kissed his fingertips, the same
hands that bruised my arm when he took me that night.
I lay my head under his chin and sighed.

Why must you have that Shuichi? Can't you forgive us?
Why must you keep remembering that? It's as much my
fault as yours, why can't you forgive yourself? Why do
you have to keep punishing us?

I'm being selfish.

Damn right you are!

Can I actually tell him I want him to be cruel to me
again? I want from him what I had from Yomi because he
loves me and his love for me is pure and untainted. He
can forgive me, he can give me peace beyond this
tranquility we are riding.

Don't you see you moron? We will never be at peace,
because you won't let us! We are not perfect beings,
we made a mistake so what? Everybody makes mistakes.
Don't you understand? We are in the eye of the
hurricane, if we make one more mistake we shall be
destroyed and what your doing is courting disaster.

...

He's right.

I sighed and agreed. Three to one, the silent one has
spoken and he's right. I can't be selfish, I have to
give this away to be buried somewhere in my mind.
There is a time for everything and the time for that
is over. Time enough for punishment when I burn in
hell.

"What was that you said to me? Hmmm," Hiei said as he
ran his fingers through my hair "penny for your
thoughts?"

I'm glad he couldn't see my smile because I know it
came out pained. I turned my head to kiss his chest "I
was just thinking about you, how you give yourself to
me like this. It surpassed my wildest imaginings
because I always thought that if indeed we became
lovers that I would always be bottom. I never thought
you'd want me to take you too."

I felt his lips on my head and his other hand traced
the scars on my back. "Kurama, I want you, I want all
of you, like I've never wanted anything in my entire
life. I'm being selfish by giving myself to you."

"Hn." The key to lying to Hiei, tell the truth as
close as possible and evade. "If your selfish then I'm
more selfish than you." Too close, too near to the
truth. I pushed all thoughts from my mind and began
remapping his face blindly with my lips.

But why am I lying to the one I want to be a part of
me? Why am I lying to my better half? I can't clearly
remmeber what I did but a lot of demons died,
hundreds... why can't I just tell him about it? Maybe
he'll punish me and...

Shut up! The timing isn't right for this. He has
enough on his hands right now, we will have time for
this but right now he needs you. Listen to him, give
yourself to him, live the moment.

My Hiei... I won't be selfish. Take it, take all of
it.

I really don't see how this is going to help, the
moment you see your scars your going to remember why
they're... there... again...

I took the moment for what it is and for all it's
worth. I held Hiei to me and loved him without regret,
I felt the silent one take my doubts and my guilt one
by one including the images of the hundreds I
massacred just to get rid of one band of demons.

I felt myself drift...

...

"Kurama?"

"Hm?" he looked at me strangely. He opened his mouth
to say something then pressed his lips together.

"What is it?" I asked.

"I'm not sure, I- you we're different a while ago."

"Different? How so?" I asked as I brushed his hair
back and away from his eyes.

He frowned as he thought about his words "It's him.
The Youko kisses ravenously, you kiss gently, he
kisses... cold, almost like he's tasting me, analyzing
me. I don't know. Your eyes looked cold too, it was
like kissing someone I didn't know."

Why would he make an apperance? Did I ask him to do
something for me? Are we in trouble? Where is he now?
Youko?

Hm? What? We in trouble?

He dosen't know either.

"What's going on in that head of yours my husband?"
Hiei asked as he held my head "I want to know what's
going on, because you seem at a lost yourself."

I sighed and laid my weight over his burying my face
under his chin "You still love me despite of this?
Despite my pathetic control over my own mind?"

"Baka. I jumped into this with all eyes open. I just
want to help, if that's possible." he said as he held
me close to his chest with his strong arms. "Kurama, I
need you."

I can't help but smile and the Youko smiled within
me. Right there and then we fell in love once more.

I showered Hiei with kisses while I began preparing
him, his eyes are closed feeling my touch. "I'm glad
he came out to kiss me," he said words husky with
arousal "I wish he'd come more often, maybe I can make
his kisses warmer." he opened his eyes to smile up at
me "ne? What you think Kurama?"

"That would be wonderful my love." I kissed him, and
I didn't make my kiss gentle. He responded with equal
passion, arching his hips towards mine. I prepared
myself and positioned him.

"'When a man mounts another man the throne of God
quakes.'" I said quoting the Hadith to him. He smirked
at me and raised his ankle to my shoulder while his
other leg went around my waist. His eyes searched me
deep then he said.

"'...In your eyes smoulder the fallen source of
outlived minuites, and the perfume of your soul is
vague and suffusing...'" I blinked at him, my eyes
gone watery, then I kissed him, I'm sure he got that
from me, a portion of Lowell's Aleady.

It's so sappy, Hiei quoting poetry at me, but it's
the fact that he bothered to do it that made me all
shivery with delight. He wouldn't do that under normal
circumstances and I know if I told him he did that
he'd deny it.

Ohh but he's so sweet! I took him with renewed
passion, determined to show him how pleased I was by
his words.

It was early morning when I attacked him, an hour
later we were back to sleeping. Two hours later,
sated, content, I peeled myself off him and got ready
for the day.

Last night when the Youko came they ordered popcorn,
ice cream and sweet champagne while they watched
movies in each others arms. Or rather while Hiei sat
within the Youko's embrace.

Nothing happend I assure you, I was happy and
dissapointed at the same time, I tell you he's
determined Shuichi. Hiei was true to his promise, he
never touched me in any way that would have aroused
me, though I can see and feel his desire for me, he
just sat on me and used me like a couch. His hands
were always in my tail, his fingers buried in it, he
kept petting it while we watched the movies. And I
didn't mind being naked because he is such a warm
little bundle!

You got aroused? You got a towel around you right?

Of course, must I always transform your clothes to
fit me? Can I have my own clothes? I want my own
clothes.

You think it's wise? We have to travel light and you
can't dodge my question, we're you aroused? Did he
see?

No worry wart, he didn't see, thanks for the vote of
confidence. I kept my needs down, it was pretty hard
but I just love him so.

Hard?

Take yourself out of the gutter human. I had a hard
time keeping myself from getting aroused.

What about all those beer bottles? And an entire
bottle of champagne? I get this feeling your not
telling me something.

That I got tipsy? That I had an entire tub of ice
cream? That buttered popcorn actually tasted good with
strawberry cheesecake ice cream? That Moet et Chandon
is soooo good? That Hiei only had a flute of it and I
drank the rest from the bottle? What? What didn't I
tell you?

Your defensive.

Search me.

I grunted as I turned on the water for the shower.
The Youko did something last night, but the way he's
acting now tells me I won't get an easy answer out of
him. He's not going to do anything foolish that might
compromise us. I'm sure of that, but...

There were 23 empty bottles of beer in the lounge
area and a bottle of champagne here in the bedroom.
Hiei knows his limits and he wouldn't drink more than
2 bottles of beer plus that flute of champagne.

I sighed heavily and... Youko within is missing. Yes,
he's been naughty, I'll have to ask Hiei later. He
does look worn out. I wonder what they were doing last
night? That could also be jetlag, I feel terrible too.
My eyes are gummy, my back aches, I shiver when I yawn
and I'm terribly thirsty. I could be having a
protracted hangover.

I trusted myself enough to let him have his way. He's
wiser than I am and I am sure he's not going to do
anything that would put us back into Koenma's list of
wanted criminals.

I'm really grumpy today, I wonder if it really is a
hangover from all the drinking the Youko did last
night. Doing the math, in 5 hours the Youko had 21
bottles of beer and most of a bottle of champagne.

Hangover + Jetlag. Way to go party animal.

I sighed and finished my shower and toweled off
really quick, I wore a shower cap because I don't have
enough time to blow dry my hair.

I drank a couple of Aspirin and an entire bottle of
Perrier in one long gulp. I felt vaguely normal by the
time I tried looking over the schedule I made.

Hmmmm, let's see. It's 9:30 am, we have brunch
downstairs with that lawyer, Mr. Schmidt for some
financial advice at 10 am then someone from de Beers
will be meeting us around 11 am for a sort of briefing
before meeting with Mr. Oppenheimer at de Beers at 2
pm sharp. So we have roughly an hour or two to go
shopping or we can shop later this afternoon after the
deBeers appointment. We barely had the time yesterday,
because Benny was running us everywhere.

I was able to visit the drugstore though and bought
some necessities, then we saw the Body Shop and I
bought more stuff. We had lunch in the Oak room at the
Plaza and Benny picked us up shortly afterwards. Then
it was the Metropolitan museum where we spent hours
staring at paintings and sculptures, Benny went with
us admitting that in all the years he was in New York
he never bothered to see what was in the MET. He vowed
to return there with his family after he saw the
section dedicated to African art. We could have spent
the rest of the day in there but I didn't want to miss
out on the rest.

Benny showed us the remains of the World trade center
and told us where deBeers and the diamond district
was. He gave us directions for the Staten Island Ferry
terminal and the times he could remember for the
Ferry boat. He took us to the Grand Central station,
then we had enough time to climb the Empire State
Building and admire the city as it got cloaked in
night.

Too bad we didn't have enough time to visit Greenwich
and Soho, and the museum mile was left largely
unexplored. I wanted to pass by Time Square again and
see it at night and maybe go into Madame Tussaud's.
And the bars! Benny wrote directions for The Slide,
the Cock and Excelsior.

He knew Hiei and I were lovers, because frankly, Hiei
didn't even bother hiding it. I suppose I'm guilty of
public display too but I do choose relatively private
places like behind the Jars or pillars in the Museum.
But Hiei! He would bring my hand to his lips or brush
my bangs from my face anywhere he could or pluck a
flower he's never seen and give it to me with the
excuse of asking it's name. I had to tell him we could
get in trouble with the gardeners before he stopped
that.

But I can't tell him no. I find his gestures sweet
even if I blush fit to burn, I don't want to stop him,
and he does all of this in his perfectly cool manner.
Stone cold expression, back straight, frowning at me
as he pushed my forelock behind my ear...

I sighed remembering more of Hiei's little gestures
of affection. I feel like a school girl with a major
crush...

I invited Benny to have dinner with us but he
insisted we have that time for ourselves. He took us
to a little known Italian restaurant, and there we
parted ways for the day. I tipped him the same amount
he asked for the afternoon and he refused it and his
reason for refusing the money stunned me.

"No man, you an your demon lover have your harmless
fun, I take only what you owe."

"Hn." Hiei crossed his arms and smirked. I stared at
him with my mouth hanging open.

"I see these things man, knew it first I laid eyes on
you an him. Babba wassa Juju man an I saw things when
I was little. Never thot I see your kind nemore." he
said addressing Hiei.

I looked to Hiei because frankly, I was too surprised
to say anything. Benny didn't see that I'm a demon
myself but he knew Hiei was one. My 'demon lover'
looked up at me then back to our cabbie.

"He wants you to have it. You have pleased me with
your honesty and the information you've given us is
valuable. We may ask you to take us around again so
take the money and consider it an early Cristmas
present." Hiei said as he took the bills from me added
some more and pushed it at him.

Benny gave a toothy white grin, "E's too much man!
I'd feel like I sold me soul." he pulled out some
bills from Hiei's hand "I enjoyed the tour too. You
keep that for when you need a ride round town again."
he winked at us "You call when k?" he said to me and
walked away with more than 400 dollars and a smile
that told me I can call on him anytime and he'll be
there and wouldn't mind if Hiei sprouted eyes
everywhere and I grew my tails back. I laughed at the
image it brought to mind and Hiei snorted sharing my
humor.

I understood why he took us to that restaurant the
minuite we stepped inside. It was small, cozy, and
intimate, with tables set up so you can have some
privacy, there were roses on the tables and the food
was great. But the main thing about the restaurant was
the waiters who serenaded us while we ate.

I buttoned up my pants while I grinned like a loon
hearing 'O sole Mio' all over again sung passionately
by a tenor while the violinist played at our table. I
wish to Kami I knew how to speak Italian.

We got back to the hotel via Hiei's way, leaping and
running through the crisp bright night of New York
city. It made my blood boil, it made me hungry for the
taste of his skin. We we're barely inside our rooms
when I began tearing his clothes off...

Shoot, I don't have time to sew buttons. We have to
go shopping for clothes. I have to make time for that,
Sak's and Bergdorf Goodman are just a few blocks away,
I'm sure we can squeeze it in.

Then off to Staten Island tonight, if possible. I've
already reserved us a suite at the Holiday Inn and we
don't need to bring anything just ourselves because
we're not staying long. I'm going to hold our
reservation here at the Plaza because I'm sure many
are coming over to spend a romantic Cristmas here. We
we're lucky we even got this room.

I got dressed and called room service I aked them to
clean up our room at around 11:30 am, the sheets need
to be changed again and there's popcorn everywhere,
did they try shooting each other with Youki powered
popcorn last night? There's popcorn in the bed, on the
tree, among the poinsettias, in the christmas wreath,
on the tv, on the couches, everywhere on the carpet...

I'm beggining to regret not staying behind the
Youko's thoughts. But I know how annoying it is to be
not alone in your own mind.

I sighed, not much can be done for that, and if Hiei
wants to go with me he needs to get ready too. I went
back towards the bedroom and found Hiei in the throes
of a bad dream.

"Hiei?" I asked , I realized that he's in a tight
fetal ball under the sheets his fist close to his
lips. His eyes darted rapidly under his lids and his
brows are furrowed. He kicked and groaned words I did
not understand.

"Hiei? Time to wake up love." I didn't touch him, I
wasn't next to him when he started dreaming so it
would be very wrong to get too close, "Wake up you
handsome little demon. Hiei love?" I said making light
of a potentially dangerous situation.

"Hn." he grunted and his brows smoothed over and he
began stretching out. "Go away." he rolled over to his
belly.

I chuckled it's safe now, he knows it's me. I nuzzled
his exposed neck "Hmmmm, my baby smells like love, I
need to bathe him."

"Get off." he mumbled shrugging ME off.

ME!

"Nope, can't." I chewed on his shoulder making hungry
noises "I can't get enough of you."

He frowned but he was having a hard time keeping it
up his lips were in a barely controlled smile. "What's
the rush anyway?" he mumbled.

"We have brunch with this lawyer I need financial
advice from, you can sit it out if you want, it's
downstairs at the restaurant, the Oak room."

"Hmmphh." he said glomping a pillow.

"I'll come back for you when we're done if you wish
to sleep some more, it's alright really, I just want
you to know about some of the things I have to do
today. After lunch we have to go to de Beers. Then we
can do some shopping before we go to Staten island.
What do you think?"

"Sleepy..." he sighed.

"Jet lag love, I feel the same way, it's night in
Japan right now. Or maybe I wore you out last night?"
I asked and he opened an eye to glare at me.

"Damn right you did." he muttered and he turned
around and hooked an arm around my neck "You go on
ahead, I'll come down later."

Ah-ha! The Youko was naughty!

I kissed him "Okay love, it's kinda boring anyway,
I'll be up here when we're done." I'll have to ask
Hiei what they did, Inari I hope it's nothing big.

"Tenhmmmnlph." he pulled the blankets up to his ears
and was breathing deeply and evenly in next to no
time.

I sighed, poor Hiei, the Youko exhausted him, what
have they been doing? But then I have no business
interfering with their fun, Hiei would have said
something if they did something bad, and the Youko
knows better than that. Hiei may look wasted but, he's
happy.

He can drive even me to the ends of my will and self
control, without meaning to. Right now, looking at his
sleeping form under the blankets with just his forhead
and eyes peeking out I want to ravage him.

I'd never rape Hiei. I'd never give him cause to hate
me... oh but wouldn't that be sweet if he struggled
and fought me just for fun?

I sighed, and went to the closet and got clothes
ready for Hiei. I placed his clothes on the bottom
part of the bed, I put the dirty ones into the washing
bag. Then I went into the bath and put bath pearls and
bubbles into the 2 person Jacuzzi because the ladies
drained it last night and put fresh water in.

The lovely scent of the bath made me smile as I
placed a towel on the counter where Hiei is likely to
see it. On it I placed a comb, he might want to use
that, his bottle of EDT and it's matching small bottle
of hand and body lotion. I searched in my hair and
pulled out a twig of blackrose, I made it flower
thornless, then placed it on the towel for him to
find.

Snack... I searched in the bar fridge and pulled out
a carton of chocolate milk then put it back in again
because it might ruin his appetite. I placed his boots
near the bed and on my pillow next to him, I placed
one of the red roses from the bouquet on the dining
table

It was 15 minuites before my appointment, he wasn't
in a nightmare, and the sheets have left his cheeks
exposed. I gave him a light kiss there "I'm going
love, bath is ready, clothes on the bed, if you want
something there's chocolate milk in the fridge and
cookies over it, but don't ruin your lunch k? Come
downstairs when your ready."

"Hmmnmnmlphh." he answered.

"Love you." I left him.

Somehow the idea of me leaving him like this rankled.
But a man needs his space every now and then. There is
wisdom in being alone while in a relationship, but
still, I haven't let Hiei out of my sight since...
well since he proposed to go with me. That was... 6
days ago, tomorrow will be our first week together.

Yoshira attacked us 4 days ago, she's back on her
"feet" now and will be looking for us.

Damn.