Hana Kimi Fan Fiction ❯ All Knotted Up ❯ Sleepless and Sleeping Too Much ( Chapter 13 )

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However, if you want to blame anyone for taking this incredibly pure and sweet manga and making it hentai, that'd be me. Please don't sue. I don't own anything to make suing me worthwhile anyway.



ALL KNOTTED UP INSIDE - A Hana Zakari No Kime Tachi E fanfiction

 

CHAPTER 13

 

Sano lay on his bed, staring up at the ceiling. He'd stayed in the same room he'd been in with Ashiya, but now it was converted into a single - no top bunk. He hadn't been sleeping well of late. He kept waking up, like his body was expecting Mizuki to climb in with him, and with her not there… `Whatever. Sleep is overrated anyway.'

 

He was still having nightmares. Like the one where Mizuki was walking down the sidewalk on UCLA's campus and she was attacked, and raped - because he wasn't there with her to protect her.

 

Or the one where a drunk driver (that looked a lot like himself, if he'd paid any attention to that aspect of the dream) mowed her down, and she died alone crying his name.

 

Or the one where he got a letter from her explaining how Gilbert told her that he loved her and that she realized now that Sano was just a rebound for her - that she'd always loved Gilbert - and that she was sorry, but that he should get on with his life without her - that she knew someone as wonderful as him would find the perfect person for him. That dream always ended with him waking in a cold sweat, shaking and gasping for breath as if he'd been screaming. He seemed to be having this particular dream a lot.

 

Every time he'd wake up from a nightmare about her, he'd go over to his desk and write her a letter.

 

Ashiya,

 

I woke up thinking of you again, so I thought I'd write to you.

 

School's going okay. I think Kagurazaka really should be afraid of me now. We've got a meet in about three weeks, and I plan to beat him. Soundly.

 

Shin's doing great, too. The Sano brothers are really making the high-jump scene. That crazy reporter woman has taken to hounding him for information about the both of us. It's really funny. He just gets mad and shouts at her and pushes her away. She's taken to wearing padding now - just in case he gets too mad. The first time, she landed on her rump, and I really had a hard time not laughing at her.

 

Nakatsu's doing very well. Seems he's been listed in the top 20 high school athletes in Japan, and he may actually get a chance to be a professional soccer player like he's dreamed. I think he misses Kayashima, though. Nakatsu never did like being alone very much. He always makes sure that we wait for Kayashima before going to any meal.

 

What's more interesting is how focused he's become. His grades are improving to the point where he's actually in the top 10% of the class in grades. He even gets better grades than me in history now. It's like he's all about sports and grades. He says that he's going to become Super Nakatsu RE in honor of your memory at Ohsaka Gakuen.

 

Sekime and Noe said I should tell you to take it easy, and that you should come back as soon as you can to visit us. Nakao still misses you too. A lot. I don't know how you managed to charm him, but whenever anyone talks about you in his presence they have to be pretty careful what they say. You're like his twin sister or something. I think I'd be jealous of his reaction if it was anyone other than Nakao.

 

I hope you are doing well there. Please write to me when you can.

 

I really miss you.

 

Izumi

 

After writing her a letter, he'd feel a little better, and then he could go on with his day. It was like he was reaching out to her and part of her was with him again. But eventually the feeling would come back to him. The feeling that he was losing her. That he was running out of time.

 

But that was ridiculous. They'd be married in less than a year.

 

Right?

 

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She was finding it more difficult to eat every day. All she wanted to do was sleep. But still, her mom had been right. Writing letters, and writing in the journal helped her to feel better. Every day, she'd write to Sano. But only in the journal.

 

Dear Sano,

Today I got sick again as soon as I woke up. I really want to stop eating, but everyone tells me that it's better to keep some nutrients coming in. I take the vitamins later in the day, because my stomach's better at keeping them down then.

 

The doctor says I'm progressing normally. I'm about two months along now, so I only have another month before I should be feeling better. Then I'll be in the second trimester, and the doctor says that's when the sickness usually stops.

 

Part of me really wishes you were here with me. I miss you so much. I knew I loved you, but I didn't know how much until I had to give you up. I can do this though. I can be strong enough to raise our child alone. Because it's not fair to you to take you from your life. Not just for me.

 

I'll do whatever it takes so that you can reach your goals. Even if it means I can never see you again. And our baby will know that you were the best person ever on the planet.

 

I have our baby growing inside of me. OUR baby. I love you so much. I love you so much. I miss you.

 

A tear stained the page.

 

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When mail showed up for Umeda at the school, it had always been crap before. But now that Mizuki was back in America, there was always the chance that there'd be a letter from her.

 

Today, almost three months from the day she left, was a day when there was.

 

Dear Sensei,

 

I hope you are well and will write back to me soon. I get letters from Sano fairly regularly. And from Nakatsu. Io, too. But you haven't written me much. No one found out you were helping me while I was there, I hope.

 

Well, I do have to say that since you made me say that I would write you that you really should write me back more than just once. I was really happy when I got that letter. Please tell Akiha-san that the photo made me laugh.

 

Everything seems to be going along pretty well. My friends and family are being very supportive. And it seems that since Japanese schools are so much more difficult than American ones, I don't even have to take any more classes to graduate. All I have to do is find out what school to go to.

 

It seems that in America, like in Japan, there aren't any colleges for people to study dog training. There's only vocational schools. But there are schools where you can study animal behavior. And of course most of those are veterinary schools. So my dad is really hoping that I'll study at UCLA's vet school. I don't know that I want to become a vet, but I could study there so that I'd not only be better able to understand animal behavior, but so that I could recognize health issues. That would really help me take better care of the animals.

 

But it's a longer time in school than if I just go to a vocational school to become a certified animal trainer. Still, I'm considering it. I think it might be for the best.

 

Please let me know what you think. You know I've always valued your opinion so much. I miss you almost as much as Sano.

 

I hope the 3rd years are taking it easy on you.

 

With very much love,

Mizuki.

 

He didn't write her very often. But he thought he probably did miss her as much as she missed him. Otherwise, why would he look forward to the mail so much?

 

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Io, on the other hand, did write her regularly. For which she was very grateful.

 

Dear Ashiya,

 

I have to tell you that I am very worried, dear.

 

While I am very pleased that you were able to eventually find your Prince Charming - and that he finally woke up his sleeping princess - it does not seem right that you should leave him behind.

 

My fear is that you are doing him a great disservice. While I understand your desire to protect him, shouldn't you also allow him the opportunity to protect you as well? Men really do have the need to protect their women, and it's only right that they should. Ah, Mizuki. You two love each other. You should be together.

 

Trust in your love for each other. Believe me, you will not regret it.

 

But I won't preach to you any more tonight. How exciting it is to have a life growing inside you! I bet you're scared half to death. Ha! I was, too. And you're even younger than I was. Your whole life is changing, you know it, and yet all you can do is struggle to not to be sick.

 

Don't fret though! It will get better. And if you need me, please do not hesitate to call. I'm so excited about your baby!

 

You are going to be a wonderful mother. You naturally try to take care of everyone - that's one of your most endearing qualities. So don't worry about it.

 

I do hope you'll change your mind and tell Sano, though. Don't worry. I won't say anything to anyone. But do consider what I've written.

 

Hugs to you, darling!

 

Io

 

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When she got a letter from anyone from Japan, she always read it and then immediately wrote back. Still, with the distance, it often left quite a delay in the response time. She wrote everyone back religiously. Except for Sano. She never wrote to Sano. Because she was writing to him every day in her journal.

 

After she got a letter from Nakatsu, she wrote back the following:

 

Nakatsu,

 

Thank you so much for writing and telling me everything that's going on. I miss you all so much, it's crazy. Hopefully after you guys graduate, I'll be able to see you again. But right now, I just can't get away.

 

I did pass the SAT though, so I should be able to go to college starting next January.

 

Tell Kayashima that I understood what he said at the end of your letter. And I appreciate the thought behind it. But even though he thinks that I'd do better to follow my heart instead of my head, I think it's time for me to try to behave like a grown up. I have to be responsible for my own decisions now. And I will be taking care of things soon. He'll understand what I mean, I think.

 

I know that you're worried about me, and about Sano, but please don't tell Sano that I wrote you. I want to make sure that he's able to stay focused on school and jumping. He won't be able to do that if he's thinking about me. If I'm hurting Sano, please believe that it's not my goal. I just need to protect him, and I really think this is the best way. I don't have to like it. I just have to make sure that he's able to reach his dreams - whatever it takes.

 

Sano wrote me that you're doing better in your studies. I'm really happy to hear that. And that you may have the option of choosing to go to college on scholarship for soccer or going directly to the majors. I really want you to reach your dream. Either way, I know you'll make it. I'm really proud of you.

 

Keep working hard.

 

Love,

 

Ashiya.

 

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Dear Izumi,

Everyone keeps telling me that I should tell you. They say that I'm not being fair to you. That you deserve to know, that you have the right to know.

 

I don't know what to do.

 

Nakatsu says I'm hurting you more by not writing to you. Am I wrong to keep this a secret from you? Julia says that she thinks the hormones are making me nutty. She says that I don't need to suffer like this because you'd rather have me than high jump any day. She says that if I don't believe that then I don't believe you really love me.

 

Gilbert says that I need to believe how important I am to you. That I've got a self-esteem issue if I think that anything could possibly be more important to you.

 

Shizuki is just worried about me. That doctor I'm seeing says that I'm not gaining enough weight. They're forcing me to eat all the time. But it just… Sano, maybe I'm not strong enough.

 

I have to keep telling myself that I'm doing it for you and for our baby. Our baby. I have a little piece of you growing inside me.

 

Izumi, why is it that there are some days when that just isn't enough? Why do I feel like something's been cut out of me? The memories I shared with you are the most precious thing to me. I didn't know how much it would hurt to leave you.

 

I don't know if I even want to go to school. My dad helped me fill out the application for UCLA, but it seems that I'll be too far along to go in the fall. We're filling out the application for me to start in the Winter. In the meantime, I just go to his office and play with the animals that have to stay overnight.

 

I worry so much that you're going to come visit. If you visit now, you'll find out. And you keep writing me saying that you want to see me - that you want to come. I'm starting to think that all I can do is to make you hate me.

 

It's funny. I started all this because I didn't want you to hate me. But what else can I do?

 

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