Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Impressions: Convergence ❯ Part 3: Falling ( Chapter 3 )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

Title: Impressions: Convergence 3/?
Author: Kagemihari
Warnings: abstractness, yaoi (no, ya think?), angst
Disclaimer: GW and characters not mine, writing not for profit, don't sue me please; I can't afford it. ^^;
Pairing: 1+2+1, eventual 1x2
Summary: An abstract version of an arc, sort of. I don't know what else to call it...
Notes: Abstract in the extreme. Also strange. Like the Impressionist style of painting, it gives more the impression of events, rather than describing it clearly. POVs and other fixed points change at random, and it's meant to be slightly confusing and unclear. Sort of...blurry. ^^;
Apologies for the lateness of this chapter....it was all my fault, entirely. -_- Thanks to Amanda, Mic, Hiryuu, and Violet-eyed Shinigami for reviewing! ^^ Big thank you to Hiryuu for knocking me upside the head and telling me to rewrite the first time I tried to post this (you were quite right! ^^;), and also to Amanda for comments on coherence, length, and dictionary definitions. ^_~ Domo arigatou gozaimasu, both of you!
Stuff in italics is thoughts, speech, or emotions, and just to further confuse you, you probably won't always be able to tell which is which, or who it belongs to. Sometimes, it could be either, or both. ^^
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Part 3: Falling
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Falling
feels like falling, waiting
this can't be real
steady gaze
eyes of cautious hope
desire
smile, slight and fleeting
falls, fading into doubt
head tilts, awkward glance
questioning
hunger visible, but wary
"I--saw you looking...why?"
frustration, anger flickers
refuge of familiar, safe reaction
god, why do you think?
arms cross, defensive
look away
the moment shimmers, shatters
broke
falling, shards of time
await damnation
or redemption
maybe...
sigh, giving in
you just want to hear it...damn you
regret, hope, fear
falling, weightless, breath held
waiting
please!
just need to hear it...
believe the unbelievable
impossible faith
reaching out, almost touching Death
courage
met halfway
fingertips, then hands
met as if by their own reflection
falling again
lost the ground, lost the sky again
drowning in eyes of blue
I believe....
"you...I want..."
can't find words
how to say 'need you!'--
and not 'needy'...
shock , blue eyes widen
what...are you saying?
falling...gravity lost
suspended
law of the heart
breaking nature's foundation
anchorless, in a sea of blind hope
and aching fear
"what?"
soft, careful patient word
holding so much danger
I want...
speaking truth in...what?
love and fear at war
heart falling
look down, look away
hands drop, a reflection
marred by doubt
jaw set grimly, brushed by warmth
tenderly, turning
look at me?
one step closer
heat, pain
glare, flashing blue
anger, longing, need, frustration
had enough of this!
resigned, trapped, desperate
freefall
so close, and yet not touching
damn it hurts
you could break my heart
exhilarating, leap of faith
if I'm wrong...no, can't be wrong
"you, always you is all!"
glare of Death
dare to take offense
happy now?
disbelieving joy...wonder
careful breath at last
thought so, but, god...really?
only you
how do you say 'me, too'--
and not sound insincere?
falling endlessly
eyes so blue
look right through soul to heart
breathless, sudden sharp
knife of hope renewed
just...can't...believe it...
awe--truth, finally, revealed
so close
blue flame ignites
desire, heat
strong hand draws closer still
leaning
what are you...oh--gods...
fall, descending, lips just touching
brush of faith and promise
burning
set like a seal
offering absolution, peace
benediction
gentle, fierce and warm
feather light, with fire behind it
breathe...feels like I'm--
... falling
lips part, just enough
heat melting into heat
sweet fire
relief so sharp it hurts
god...you taste so good
gasp, coming up for air
leaning, resting head to head
hearts racing
dizzy, learn to breathe again
so near
shared breath a sigh
a gaze, blue into blue
fathomless as ocean or space
feels like
falling

-tbc-