InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A Slowly Fading Memory ❯ A Slowly Fading Memory ( Chapter 1 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

A Slowly Fading Memory
You can't contain it,
You can't describe it,
And like a zombie I live without living,
Breathe without breathing.
I'm not really there,
Just an apparition - gliding through.
My thoughts are not my own,
My body is a puppet,
Harbouring evil - I know that.
I'm incapable of
feeling… of loving,
I know.
But that doesn't stop me thinking.
I see you.
You look different.
Innocent.
I'm glad for you.
But you shouldn't waste your love on me.
I'm not who I was, however much I wish to be.
I see her.
She's… everything I'm not,
And I know.
You know I know - and…
And that makes it all right?
I shouldn't be alive, yet I am.
Fate is nothing.
This isn't reality.
I am a ghost - nothing more,
I am dead, immobile, cold-blooded and ruthless.
Don't waste your time on me.
When I see you I enter this craze,
The state I cannot leave from half a century ago,
I love you inside and the wounds are still burning,
But no matter how hard I try, I can't get rid of this hatred.
Bury me inside of you as a distant memory,
When I enter this bloodlust I have no thoughts of you,
Just of a talon running my shoulder through.
Remember this - I loved you once,
But in this state you cannot see me,
Take this and note it as a slowly fading memory,
Love her as much as you love me,
Just as it should be.