InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Between The Lines ❯ Chapter 25

Between The Lines

By: Maggz

Disclaimer: InuYasha and Co. © Rumiko Takahashi.

Author Note: Wow, it took me some time to finish this chapter. School is driving me insane, as well for my job and also my family… Sigh, anyway here's the new chapter, finally what all of you have been waiting for… though I can't tell you exactly how this particular chapter makes me feel. Yeah, lots of mixed emotions. Well, I won't spoil your fun any longer so I'll let you read. I hope you enjoy it enough to leave a review he he.

Till the next update (Will it be the last one?)

Huggles,

Maggz

 

Chapter 25

 

Kagome's emotions had run the gamut from despair to anger then from anger to fear and every thing in between once she'd gotten into her car and driven away from the cottage. She'd kept the tears at bay but her heart had literally ached in her chest, making it hard for her to swallow or breathe. She was hurting and not just for herself.

 

Pulling up at the first gas station she came to once she hit town, she got out to pump gas. Once finished, she went inside to pay and grabbed herself a Sprite and a pack of gum before leaving. As she pushed her way out the door of the shop, she looked up and caught her breath.

 

“What are YOU doing here?”, she asked. Sango stood in front of her all smiles and happiness.

 

“Same thing YOU are, I guess. Buying gas?”, Sango laughed.

 

“But InuYasha?”, Kagome said, her eyes gazing past Sango's shoulder.

 

“What about InuYasha?”, she asked, confusion evident in her face.

 

“I thought-”, she started and then their phone conversation earlier played itself back swiftly in her head.

 

“You thought…?”, Sango prompted.

 

“Nothing, I- I need to get home.”, she said and hugged Sango quickly before running to her car.

 

Driving into the car park of the house, she didn't even stop. His car wasn't there, he'd gone alone. 

 

InuYasha sat on the beach, sunglasses on, eyes on the ocean. He'd made a mistake in letting Kagome go with Kouga, in not insisting she come with him but what choice had he been given? He didn't own her, he never had…

 

Calling her had been wrong and he knew it. He'd known it as he pushed in the numbers to her mobile but he couldn't stop himself. All his mind's eye could invision was Kagome with Kouga. Kagome kissing Kouga, Kouga touching Kagome. HIS KAGOME. She'd been upset when she'd ended the call. He couldn't say he blamed her at all, it had been dead wrong…

 

He sighed, picked up a beer and drank from it, laying his head back against the lounger. He'd lost her, something he never thought would've happened in a hundred years. In his mind and in his heart, Kagome had always been there and always would.

 

Until now…

 

He'd cried, cried so many times he couldn't count. He was tired, physically and emotionally. He was lonely and he missed Kagome.

 

The sun was setting and he knew he needed to get inside, needed to sleep, but he felt as if he just couldn't move. What did it matter anyway? He seemed to be the only occupant in the hotel, the same hotel he and Kagome had stayed at every year they went to the coast with his parents on Holiday. The beach had been deserted all day. If he slept where he now sat, just who would care?

 

“InuYasha?”

 

He closed his eyes… Was it so bad, he was hearing her voice now? Was he wanting her that badly?

 

Hands on his bare shoulders, a kiss to the top his head…

 

“InuYasha, are you not talking to me?”, Kagome asked softly.

 

He reached for her hand and pulled her in front of him, fearing for his own sanity now…

 

“InuYasha, what's wrong? Are you drunk? Out here all alone?”, she asked as he made a noise somewhere between a sob and a laugh.

 

“Why are you here, Kagome?”, he asked as his eyes filled with tears.

 

“I… had to see you.”, she said, stumbling over the words. Her heart had taken a beating, her heart was taking another beating as she stood and looked down at him.

 

“See me?” he asked, wiping the back of his hand over his eyes.

 

“Yeah, can we walk, InuYasha? Down the beach?”, she asked.

 

“Yeah.”, he said and moved himself up from his seat. She reached for his hand and side by side, they walked toward the rough pounding of the surf. She turned to gaze at him, he stared straight ahead. She turned and looked back toward the water and he looked down at her.

 

What was going on? She looked different, like she was on the verge of tears but like she needed to talk with him as well. Why WAS she here? Where was Kouga?

 

“Remember when we came here the summer they were building the hotel you're in now?”, she asked and he laughed. He remembered. She'd gotten mad at him for teasing her about a boy she'd fancied on the beach and had stomped off, hiding from him, wanting to be alone. It had gotten late and he'd gone hunting for her worried. His father's warning still ringing in his ears, he'd spotted the construction site and with sigh walked toward it. She'd been there, asleep in a corner and he'd sat down, careful not to wake her, just looking at her. That was the Kagome he thought he might've fallen in love, now that he thought about it.

 

“You came for me. Even after I blew up at you and said horrible things. You came for me.”, she said and stopped, turning to look up at him. She took his other hand, holding it in hers and smiled.

 

“I don't know what's going on inside of me anymore, InuYasha. I'm confused and I'm afraid. I don't want to lose you.”, she said, choking back a sob.

 

“You'd never lose me, Kagome.”, he assured her.

 

“What's happening?”, she asked, a tear falling from the corner of her eye.

 

“We grew up? Finally?”, he said and laughed a little.

 

“Did we? Cause I don't feel so grown up any more. I feel afraid. I'm mixed up and I'm losing things and people that are important to me. InuYasha, what's wrong with me?”, she cried.

 

“Aww, Kagome!”, he said and pulled her into his arms. Stroking over her hair, he kissed the top of her head and closed his eyes. Had he done this to her? Had he made her feel so horrible that she'd left her weekend with Kouga to try to figure out where she stood in his life?

 

“Please tell me what I've done and maybe I can make some sense of this.”, she sobbed harder.

 

“I'm taking you back to the hotel. Come on.”, he said as he bent and picked her up. She put up no resistance, wrapping her arms around his neck and burrowing her head into his chest as he walked with her back the way they had come. By the time they got to the room, his arms were aching but he would've died on the spot before he'd have ever put her down.

 

He took her inside the room, kicking the door shut behind him and walked with her to the bed. Sitting down on the bed, he pulled her against him and slid his hand up and down her arm.

 

“I'm so sorry, InuYasha.”, she said softly, her hand on his chest.

 

“No sorry is needed from you. Now hush it and listen to me.”, he said. “Look at me, Kagome.”

 

She looked up at him, nose red and eyes swollen from her tears. He eased himself back onto the bed and took her with him, placing her so that they faced each other in the darkening room.

 

Touching her face, tracing her swollen lips, he finally managed a smile and when she returned a small one, he began to speak.

 

“I DO love you, Kagome. I've wanted to tell you that since the day you walked into the house. I realized THEN that I'd loved you for a very long time but had never known that was what it was. You were meant to be mine, I truly believe that and all I'm asking is for the chance to allow you to SEE it as well as I see it. If it doesn't work, if it all goes to hell and back, I'll understand if you never want to see me again. But I'm willing to risk our friendship and the love we're both sure of on it. Will you trust me?”, he asked her.

 

“Why would I NOT ever trust you, InuYasha? It's myself I don't trust. I don't trust myself not to hurt you. What if it doesn't work and I LOSE you? It'll be my fault and I just don't think-”, she felt his finger press against her lips and she closed her eyes, tears spurting from the corners.

 

“It won't be your fault. It won't be anyone's fault. Just answer me, Kagome. Do you feel something for me other than what's always been there?”, he asked. “Did you feel something happen between us when we kissed the other day in the kitchen? Be honest with me…”, he said as he smoothed the tears from her face with his thumb.

 

She took a deep shuddering breath and nodded.

 

“Look at me, please…”, he urged.

 

She opened her eyes and bit her lower lip.

 

“You felt it too? It wasn't just me then?”, he asked.

 

“Oh God, InuYasha. Yes, I did and I fought it, what AM I? What did I DO to Kouga and what am I DOING to you? I'm mad and so are you if you want to be with me!”, she sobbed.

 

“No, that's not true, Kagome. Do you think you're the only person to EVER get into this kind of situation? Do you? It's nobody's fault. You think I'm gonna sit here and look you in the eye, telling you that it's impossible to love two people? I'm not. I'm not trying to push you. I just want my chance before it's too late, that's all. I love you so much.”, he said as he leaned over her. “If that makes me MAD, then goddamnit… I'm mad!”, he said. “I LOVE you, Kagome Higurashi.”, he said, inclining his head toward her.

 

He fastened his eyes to hers, not daring to look away and his lips pressed to her cheeks to kiss away the tracks of her tears.

 

“If you hurt, I hurt.”, he whispered as he kissed down each side of her face before hovering over her mouth. He felt her breathing underneath him, the press of her breasts against his bare chest. Once more, no turning back now… he made the decision and pressed his mouth to hers.

 

He felt the resistance, backed away, pressed back. Her hands slid up his chest, a soft sigh escaped her mouth and he captured it. He reached for her hands with one of his own and held them between their bodies as he kissed the corners of her mouth.

 

She wasn't kissing him back but she wasn't fighting him off either. He moved his hand from hers and sliding himself to her side, reached for her thigh, pulling it up over his hip and stroking up and down it as he continued to press his kisses onto her soft mouth.

 

Slowly, at a snail's pace it seemed, he felt her first response and he held his breath.

 

Her hands moved, sliding from his chest up to his shoulders. He released her mouth, looking down at her. It was nearly full dark in the room and he wanted to be able to see her. Remember this time.

 

Taking her with him, he rolled to his other side and clicked on the lamp by the bed. She was sprawled atop him, her hands on his shoulders and her face inches from his. He reached up to tuck her hair behind her ears and she shivered. He watched her as her eyes slid closed and reaching for her, pulled his hand to her neck and her lips toward his once again.

 

Kissing her, he rolled with her, pushing her to her back and heard her laugh underneath him. Smiling but surprised by her reaction, he kissed her nose as he watched her face.

 

“We're rolling all over this bed!”, she giggled, nearly stopping herself.

 

“Kagome, I want to make love to you.”, he said then and her eyes grew serious very quickly. “I want to show you how much I love you and how much I've thought of you every single night I've lain awake in my bed. I want to touch you, kiss you, make you smile… will you let me?”, he asked as bent forward to kiss the soft skin of her neck.

 

“I- oh, InuYasha. I don't want to hurt you and I jus-”, she said but he pressed his mouth to hers, silencing the words that spilled from her mouth.

 

“Just say yes or no, baby.”, he murmured, his eyes feasting on her delectable little mouth.

 

“InuYasha… yes…”, she said and he felt his heart burst with joy. Slowly, very slowly, he backed off her and sank to his knees by the bed. He reached for her hand and pulled her into a sitting position, her legs dangling over the sides. He reached for her shirt but she stopped him, taking her hand in his.

 

“I owe you one. Please, let me.”, she said. Puzzled, he sat back and waited.

 

She got to her knees and slid her hands to the hem of her shirt. Pulling it over her head, she tossed it to the floor and then reached for the button of her jeans. His eyes followed her hands movement for movement, his body steadily thrumming like a finely tuned wire.

 

Slipping off the jeans, she sat back on her bottom, bringing her knees up and wrapping her arms around them.

 

“You're gonna think I'm crazy, InuYasha but I'm not. It's just- this is so hard. I feel so… shy.”, she said and blushed pink from her shoulder blades to the roots of her hair.

 

He smiled, reached out for her and with a hand to her shoulders, pushed her back. His palm smoothed over the plane of her belly, down to her panties and between her legs. She hissed out a breath, drawing her knees up, watching him press a kiss to each knee before gently urging them down. Leaning between her spread knees, her bent forward and placed a kiss directly over her mound. She arched up off the bed, a little cry escaping her mouth.

 

“Oh God, Kagome.”, he breathed, his body on fire.

 

He slid a hand to the bulging crotch of his shorts and closed his eyes, his need was so strong, it was overwhelming him.

 

He felt her hands on his, felt her touch him through the fabric of the shorts and moaned.

 

“Kagome, I need you… need to be IN you… want to make love… please…”, he breathed.

 

“Open YOUR eyes, InuYasha.”, she said firmly and he opened them, staring into hers. Her hands slid to his shorts, pulling them down, grabbing his boxers and sliding them down as well. She felt the hot length of him along her calf as she used her feet to help pull off the restraining garments. He was so hard, so hot.

 

“Oh, InuYasha. I… you're so- oh, InuYasha!”, she moaned as he moved himself between her legs, grasping her hips and pulling her to the center as he came to his knees in front of her.

 

“I want to see you naked, Kagome. Everywhere.”, he whispered as his fingers stroked over the soft curls between her legs. She cried out, grabbing his hand, bringing it to her mouth to kiss the palm.

 

Removing his hand from her lips, he stroked over the soft satiny cup of her bra, grunting softly when a nipple rose to his touch. The straps moved down her arms and he saw her reach to the front of the bra, unclasping the front closure. He took over, pulling it from her body then running a finger over each nipple before bending to her to kiss them.

 

Her fingers dug into his hair, pulling him down further and further onto her. He sucked a peaked nipple into his mouth and felt her legs close around his back.

 

“So sweet.”, he mumbled around the sensitive flesh, nipping at it with his teeth until she pulled his mouth off her breasts and back to her mouth. He felt the soft sweep of her tongue over his lower lip and sucked it into his mouth, pulling on it as his hands slid between her legs once more.

 

“Do you want me, Kagome? Can I touch?”, he asked softly, dipping two fingers between the soft folds of moist flesh before she could answer.

 

“Oh, Kagome…”, he sighed as his fingers slid over her until they were coated with her heated wetness. His index finger searched for her little button and finding it, he slid the flat pad of his finger over it until she cried his name.

 

Her legs spread to him. He eased off her wanting to SEE every lovely inch of her naked body. Her eyes pleaded with him and he reached for her thighs, sliding big hands up to the backs of her knees, pushed them forward and with one smooth upward stroke he entered her.

 

“Mmm.”, he moaned, too afraid to say anything, afraid of waking up to find it had only been a dream.

 

“Inu- InuYasha… don't, please.”, she was moaning and scared, he stopped moving within her, afraid he'd hurt her.

 

“What Kagome? What?”, he asked. “Did I hurt you?”, he wanted to know, his big eyes soft with concern.

 

“No, no hurt… just… tight. Please, slow…”, she whispered as her hands caught his wrists and held to them.

 

“I won't hurt you. I'll go easy.” he said as he slid himself slowly out then slowly back in. It was killing him, making him crazy, the exquisite feeling of her wetness enveloping his hard cock.

 

“Easy.”, she breathed as his pushed her legs up a bit more and pushed in a bit further.

 

“Good.”, she whimpered, her eyes bright on his.

 

“Yes, baby… good…”, he groaned. “So fucking good… so sweet… hot…”, he panted, sweat dripping off his chest onto hers.

 

“I- oh, InuYasha… now… go…”, she whimpered. Her face was flushed, her eyes bright but heavy with desire.

 

He picked up the pace, his hips moving easily as they took him in and out of her body.

 

“Kagome… baby…”, he moaned, it wouldn't be long.

 

“It's ok, InuYasha. I've got you… I've- oh, InuYasha!”, she cried as her fingers grasped his wrists even harder, biting into the flesh.

 

He felt her contract around him, squeezing him tight, sending him into orbit, making him want to scream at the top of his lungs.

 

Coming inside of her was the sweetest thing he'd ever known. Filling her with his seed, knowing she'd come as well. He couldn't have asked for more.

 

And yet he could've… He just wouldn't.