InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Black Rose ❯ Pain and Love ( Chapter 2 )

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Hey it me again. How you doin? Anyways I was just thinking that if I wrote some more I would get more reviews. Ahsayuni's problems is just going to get worse as her journey continues on. She kinda goes through an emo state as the memeories come back to her. Now that she can think clearly she becomes like really depressed.


"Ahsayuni come on we have to go!" Inuyasha yelled. She has been with them for about two months now and the memories just kept flooding her mind. She had become really depressed and sad. Everynight she woke up with horrid nightmares of her mother's face as she died. She sometimes took her sword and cut her legs and arms. The pain seemed to take her mind off of the pain in her mind. "Yeah I'm comming you guys go on ahead." She said. She kept her hair down and in her face all the time and it was tied at the very bottom like Sango's but she let a bunch of it fall out. She even made herself a new kimono. It was white with lavender trim and had a gold belt. It had a skin tight black under suit under the robe that came down to her waist. The black shorts came up to her upper thigh and stopped. A white shirt came up to her lower chest and the black went on up to her lower neck. Her shoes were purple boots like Sesshomaru's but they came up to her knees. She took some ink from a villager and made herself a tattoo. It was a small black rose and she had put it on her upper inner thigh. She didn't know why she did it but she did. "Look Ahsyauni is there something wrong?" Kagome asked. "No I'm fine." She answered standing up. "But you've been acting really weird lately and we're worried about you." "I said I'm just fuckin fine! Damn it!" Ahsayuni yelled walking past her. "Inuyasha shes been getting more violent toward us. I think we should drop her." Miroku said. "Yeah I think you might be right. How do we do it though?" Inuyasha asked. "You know what I think I'm going to get out of here." Ahsyauni said. "Seeing as staying around here only causes me problems. I mean look at me. I'm depressed all the time and angry all the time. See ya later." She said running off. "Ahsayuni wait! Don't go just yet! We can help you!" Kagome called. Ahsayuni came back and pinned her to the ground. "No Kagome you can't! Nobody can! I'm hurting on the inside! Can't you see that? I need to find someone who can stop the pain. Make it leave. Forever." Ahsayuni said with tears in her eyes. She got up and ran off as fast as she could. "Well that solved our little problem." Inuyasha said helping Kagome up. "Inuyasha shes hurting. Hurting badly. I hope she finds someone to stop her hurting." Kagome said. Ahsayuni stopped when the night fell. She had done nothing but run and cry. She grabbed her chest and currled up in a ball. It hurt so much. Every time her heart beat it sent pain through her. "Why is this happening to me?" She asked herself. "Why am I hurting so much?" She finally fell asleep and a nightmare over took her. "Ahsayuni." She heard that voice again. She never had found out who was saying it but it scared her. "Ahsayuni. You have failed me." It was a womans voice. It was her own. She turned to see her. The way she looked when she first met Inuyasha. Battered and bruised. "You have failed me once again. You said you would never leave him. You said you trusted him." She said. "I do! I trust him!" She yelled to herself. The girl she once knew walked to her and put a hand on her cheek. "No. You don't even trust me anymore. You trust no one. Why have you lost all trust for anybody?" "I don't know! Help me." She begged. "I can't. I never could. You must help yourself now. You are no longer the girl you were. You have turned into something much darker. Much more hurtful." The girl said. She started to chage into the hurting girl to the girl she was two minths ago. Clean, healed, and loved. "This is who you really are. Remeber that and you will make it. That I can promise." The girl said forming into the girl she is now. "Stop this!" She screamed as the girl laughed at her. "You will fail yourself again!" She awoke screaming and looked around. She currled up and cried again. "I am nothing but a failure. I'll never be anything but a failure. I failed mother and now myself." She said quietly. The next day she set out for anywhere. She walked slowly looking at the sky and whatever else caught her attention. She spotted a cave with a bunch of wolves around it. She sat and watched as they circled around a fox and pounced on it. She ran out and scattered them. She couldn't take it. She grabbed the fox and looked it over. She was too late. It was gone and she felt like a part of her had just died. The wolves growled and she looked at them. "Your nothing but memories. Slowly eating away at my heart. I'm dieing slowly. Thats it your just a bunch of memories!" She yelled dropping the dead fox. She slashed at the wolves and they all fell to the ground dead. "Hey! Why are you killing my wolves?!" A male voise asked. She turned to see a man with a black pony tail and wolf skins. he had blue eyes and a brown tail. She only growled and stared at him. "You going to answer me?" He asked. "Why should I answer to you?!" She yelled launging at him. He jumped up and dodged her. "So its a fight you want. Well its a fight you'll get!" He said bringing down a fist on her back. She didn't get back up instead she lay there. The pain numbed her mind and she was grateful for it. "Your failed me again." Her eyes shot open and she got up. "No! I haven't failed you! You have failed me! Its your fault not mine!" She yelled. "What are you talking about?" The man asked. "Please forgive me for killing your wolves. Its just that I've....." She didn't finish her sentence. "Your wasteing my time." he said turning to leave. "Time. Thats all we have is time. Is there nothing else?" She asked. "What are you talking about?" He asked looking at her. "Your speaking none sense." She looked at him and smiled. "None sense. I just thought that maybe if I had something other than time I wouldn't cut myself and long for pain." She said. "Maybe you should try love or something. Get a life!" he suggested and ran. "Love?" She questioned herself. That night she went to sleep expecting a night mare. "Maybe you should try love." She looked around and seen that man standing behind her. "Love?" She asked. "Yes love. Have you ever really loved anybody?" He asked. "No. Why are you telling me this?" She asked. Then her person was standing beside him. "Try it." She said higging the man. She watched as the girl kissed the boy softly. She awoke in the morning rested. "Love." She whispered. "I think I just might try it." She got up and went to the river. She looked at the tattoo and took her sword out. She put the leg in the water and slowly began to let the ink drip out of it. It was very painful but worth it. She undid her hair and pulled it up like she used to. She smiled and got to her feet. She really liked her look not only because it was comfortable but it was really easy to fight in. She would keep her old kimono hiden and use it only for certain occasions. She nodded at herself and ran off to find that wolf boy she had met last night. She followed his scent all day and thought about her dream. How she had felt his lips on hers. She ran faster and finally came to a huge cave in the side of a cliff with a bunch of other wolf demons surrounding the entrence. She saw him and smiled again. She watched as he walked into the woods on the opposite side of her. She carefully crossed the gap between her and the woods. She caught up with him and smiled at him. "Hey remember me?" She said. "Yeah your that girl that didn't know what emotions were. Oh and you killed my wolves." He said. "Yeah well thats not me anymore. You see I thought about what you said and decided to give it a try. Thanks for the advice." She said turning to walk away. "You seen it too didn't you?" He asked. "See what?" She asked. "The dream. You seen us kiss didn't you?" He asked. "Why you ask?" "I seen you on the other side as the our other persons kissed each other. I know you did because I seen the same thing. They were talking to you." He said takeing a step toward you. "Well what if I did?" She asked. "You liked it too." He said. "Maybe." She said blushing. He was right in front of her now. "I know I did." He said. "I did too." She said grinning up at him. He leaned forward and kissed her softly. She wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him closer. "I think I like this love thing." She said. "I do too." He said smiling at her.





Note: Hey how yall durin? Well I hope you like chapter two. I really enjoyed writeing it for you guys. I know my spelling is bad but I get confused when the E is there so. Anyway review for me. I really want to know what yall think of Ahsayuni. I hope you like her.