InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Change of Plans ❯ True emotions revealed ( Chapter 8 )

Change of Plans

Disclaimer: *sigh* noooooooo must you keep pestering me? Honestly, how would I own him? Seriously, I am a broke high school student who doesn't have a life, just three AP classes and a dumb article to write for the school newspaper. Jeez. Go away.

Authors Apology: Wow I am an evil bitch who hasn't updated forever. Please don't hate me. I love all you reviewers a LOT and I feel horrible making you wait. I have no excuses, just laziness. Please forgive me. ANYWAY super long chapter up. LOVE YA!

ALSO: If Sesshoumaru seems OOC, too bad. ^_^

Chapter 8: True emotions revealed

Rin looked between Kagome and Sesshoumaru as the awkward silence loomed on. "Do you guys know each other?" she asked.

Kagome cleared her throat. "Um, yes, we do. Rin, this is Sesshoumaru, Inuyasha's brother."

Rin gasped. "Oh my god! No wonder you look so familiar! Kag, I am so sorry!"

Sesshoumaru still couldn't take his eyes off of Kagome. Kagome looked as if she had the same problem. She tore her eyes from his. "No, its, its okay. Promise. If you will excuse me, I have to, um, finish desert, then change." Kagome all but ran from the room. She couldn't believe this! She decided to distract herself by completing the perfect diner she had planned.

Unbeknownst to her, she was being intensely watched as she lost herself in final touches. Sesshoumaru leaned against the doorframe, an inner battle waging fiercely in his head. Should he talk to her? Or should he avoid her for the night and let her live her in bliss for a little while longer? If he talks to her, what should he say? And the question that plagued him the most. What are his feelings for this girl? He couldn't deny the desire, but he knew she deserved better. She deserved a guy who could love her completely. But as the thought of Kagome with another guy filled his mind, another emotion filled his heart. Jealousy. And with that, he knew. He was head over heels for this girl. He had to talk to her.

"Kagome, you know we need to talk. We can't avoid each other, and I am not going to act like I haven't finally found you." He heard Kagome sigh and stop what she was doing. After what felt like an eternity, Kagome turned around.

"I know." She said softly. Sesshoumaru quickly closed the distance between them.

"I need to know the truth, Kagome. Are you really okay?"

Kagome smiled sadly. "Yeah, I think so. I'm just…..I can't……"She looked into his eyes. "I am afraid to go back. To see them together. I just can't!" She hugged herself as tears came to her eyes. Sesshoumaru realized that she looked like a lost child. His heart tore at the sight. Without thinking, he pulled her into his arms. Kagome stiffened in surprise, but soon gave into her tears. "While I am here, I can almost forget what happened, and try to live a life without Inuyasha. I feel that once I go back and see him, all the control I have built up will crumble. I want to him how strong I am, but I know once I see him I will turn into a blubbering mess."

Sesshoumaru sighed and held her closer. "But Kagome, you are strong. You shouldn't have to prove that to anyone. And you know what? Everyone in New York knows what an idiot Inuyasha. He gave up a beautiful, smart young woman for a common whore. Kagome, you light up a room by just walking in. You-"He paused. `What am I saying?' His subconscious snorted. `The truth'

Kagome looked up at Sesshoumaru in surprise. She opened her mouth to say something, when her eyes met his. Her breath caught in her throat. She couldn't deny her feelings for the man I front of her. But she was afraid. Afraid to be betrayed again. Then something Sesshoumaru said earlier came back to her. `I am not going to act like I haven't finally found you.' Could he care about her?

Sesshoumaru felt his heart pound in his chest as he looked deep into her eyes. He couldn't hold back any longer. He hesitantly leaned in to kiss her. Kagome leaned into him and closed her eyes, and he knew she wanted this as much as he did. Their lips touched tentatively…………….

"Kagome! Do you want me to set the table while you change?" Rin shouted from the living room.

Kagome broke the contact instantly. She didn't meet his eyes as she blushed furiously. "Y-yeah so ahead." She turned to leave, but Sesshoumaru grabbed her arm. "This is not over." She blushed an even deeper red. He let go of her arm, and she stumbled out of her room.

Sesshoumaru sighed explosively.

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"How could you do that?" Sesshoumaru shouted. He starts chasing Niamha around the room.

Niamha laughs gleefully, her blue eyes sparkling. "Wasn't that absolutely evil!"

"Yes!"

Niamha runs out of the room giggling. Sesshoumaru follows her.

Kagome comes out still blushing "Well we should continue the chapter. *crash* "Sesshoumaru" Niamha shouted. "That hurt!"

"Want me to kiss it better?" Kagome rolls her eyes.

"YES!"

Kagome sighed. "Excuse me while I split them up. They did this yesterday." She pokes her head back into the room. "But I am going to get that kiss. Sesshoumaru will be MINE!" Kagome laughs evilly.

"That was freaky." Sango said from the side.

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When Sesshoumaru sat at the table ten minutes later, Kagome was no where to be found. "Where's Kagome?" he asked Rin.

Rin rolled her eyes. "She says she was getting the food, but she is probably "testing" it."

"I am not!" Kagome said as she walked into the room. "Alright there you go Rin. Now you can eat it." Kagome sat across from Sesshoumaru. She could fell him staring at her and she gave him a shy smile. The desire in his eyes sent shivers up and down her spine.

The dinner passed by silently. Rin was trying to make conversation with the others at the table, but neither spoke. Sesshoumaru couldn't take his eyes from Kagome, and Kagome found her plate extremely interesting, though she did try to sneak some glances at Sesshoumaru. Rin sighed. She knew exactly what was going on. She smirked inwardly. Sexual tension. Ooh this was going to be fun. She stopped trying to talk to the others, and contented herself in figuring out all the ways she could set up Sesshoumaru and Kagome.

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"Wow, Kag that was fantastic." Rin said.

"Thank you" Kagome said, a bright smile lighting her face. Sesshoumaru fought the urge to smile back.

"I have a brilliant idea!" Rin said excitedly. She had been planning this all night/ Sesshoumaru and Kagome looked at her curiously. She smiled to herself. "Tomorrow we get off early right? So, I will take my turn at cooking and we will have a movie night! Each of us will pick a movie tonight and Kag can pick them up tomorrow, and we will have an all-nighter! There is no work on Friday, so Sesshoumaru you can take the last extra room next to Kagome's!" Rin tried to predict the reactions. She was wrong on both.

"Yeah!" Kagome said gleefully. "That would be great!"

Sesshoumaru rolled his eyes in mock irritation. "Why do I have the feeling that I am going to be watching chick movies all night?"

Kagome took that as a yes. "No, don't worry. Rin and I exhausted all those after the break up……." She trailed off thoughtfully. Sesshoumaru braced himself for tears or something. But she surprised him. "Wait! All but one!" Kagome turned to Rin practically jumping. "How could we have forgotten my favorite movie?!" Rin looked at her curiously. Kagome's eyes lit up even more. "The Princess Bride!" she said, this time really jumping. Rin smiled ecstatically.

"I love that movie! Ooh! I have one too! A Walk to Remember! How could we have forgotten that?"

Kagome squealed. "YaY! Shane West! Good movie!" The two girls got together rapidly planning tomorrow.

Sesshoumaru almost smiled in amusement. Almost. He sighed. He knew what he was in for. He had never seen either of those movies, but he knew they were sappy. Kagome interrupted his thoughts. "Hey, what's your movie?"

Sesshoumaru thought. `Who cares?' `Let her pick, and just watch. Points for you!' He smiled. "You pick." He knew he made the wrong choice when he saw the look in Kagome's eyes. "Uh" he stuttered, thinking fast. "How about The Recruit?"

Rin and Kagome looked at each other silently. `What…' Sesshoumaru thought. "Colin Farrell" Kagome said dreamily. Rin smiled. "Gooood movie." Her words were full of meaning. Kagome smiled. Rin continued. About food. You should get some stuff. I will leave you a list. Kagome's great mood evaporated. She sunk back to the table. "Do I have to go?"

Rin smiled evilly when she caught on. Sesshoumaru remained clueless. "Why, don't you wanna see your man?" she asked innocently. Sesshoumaru growled at this, still unsure of what was going on.

Kagome glared at Rin. Rin just smiled on. "He will think I am there to see him." Rin burst into laughter. Kagome groaned and put her head down again. "What are you talking about?" Sesshoumaru asked anxiously. Who was this guy?

At Sesshoumaru's voice, Kagome raised her head slowly and turned to face him. He was taken aback by the purely evil glint in her eyes. "What?" he asked nervously.

Kagome planned fast. She smiled. "How about you come with me to the store, so you could, um, pick out your favorite movie snacks?" Rin smiled with her as the plan became clear to her. Sesshoumaru looked back and forth between the two girls. "Please explain and I will."

"Okay, there is this guy that works at the store, who thinks we are a "thing". He is wrong but doesn't get it." Kagome smiled wider. "You can help me make him get it."

Sesshoumaru sighed. He knew that this couldn't be good. But then again, he could manipulate this in his favor……. "Alright I guess. Just don't embarrass me okay?"

"Okay" Kagome said happily. This was gonna be great.

They finalized their plans for tomorrow and Sesshoumaru got ready to leave. Kagome walked him out. It was a silent trip until Sesshoumaru reached his car. "You know, we all miss you."

Kagome looked at the ground guiltily. "I know. I want to come back, to be around you guys again, but I can't go back until I am sure. Please understand."

"I do." They looked at each other, each trying to learn the other's feelings. Sesshoumaru started the conversation again. "Well, I guess I will see you tomorrow."

"Yeah" Kagome said softly. Sesshoumaru moved to get into his car, but a whisper of a word from Kagome stopped him cold. "Wait." She paused, then gave him a kiss on the cheek. "I cant wait." She hurried into the house, embarrassed. `What was I thinking?'

Sesshoumaru stared after her in shock, a million emotions warring for dominancy in his head. What was it about this girl that upset the emotions he tried so hard to hide? He let a ghost of a smile grace his features as he answered the question in his head, and drove off into the night.

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Kagome woke up in the morning still embarrassed about her action the night before. But she didn't regret it. Not at all. `After all we did almost kiss in the kitchen, did we not?' Kagome smiled to herself and got ready to go running.

As she was running a million questions went through her head. All of them were about Sesshoumaru. Most of them were about what it would be like to kiss Sesshoumaru. `Would it be soft? Or would it be passionate, like I must have you right now? What would he do with is hands? What would she do?' *(she a/n at bottom when finished with chappy) She shook her head free of those thoughts. `No Kagome.' She told herself. `Bad.' As she continued her thoughts and questions, she realized she had been running for about two hours. She quickly ran back.

When she got back in the house she noticed the time. `Shoot, I got to get ready, they should be here any time and I never got the movies.' She quickly jumped in the shower.

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Sesshoumaru pulled up into Kagome's driveway. Rin had told him to go ahead; she had to meet up with her boss for a minute. As he entered the house he searched for Kagome. He heard sounds coming from the kitchen so he went to investigate.

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Kagome got out of the shower. She listened carefully for any sounds. No one here yet. She was starving, so she decided to get something started before she got dressed. She made her way into the kitchen.

She looked at the stuff. Hmmmm. Ramen? Strangely she could actually look at the food without tearing up. Was she over him? `I hope so'. She started to make some. She was so busy trying to get it started quickly she didn't notice someone entering the house.

"Finally." She turned around at the same time Sesshoumaru walked into the kitchen. She shrieked in surprise.

Sesshoumaru couldn't believe it. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't stop his eyes from trailing down her body and back up to her eyes. When he looked at her in the face, she was a deep shade of red. "Uh sorry Kagome"

"Well, um, I am going to get dressed." She ran past him.

She slammed the door to her room. "Oh my god!!!!!!! How could I not hear him come in? I am such an idiot!" She was about to have an all-nighter with him and how was she going to face him! "Oh god" she repeated. This was going to be bad.

She quickly pulled on some clothes. She heard Rin come in and cringed. She was never gonna hear the end of this. Rin would make fun of her until the day she died. This may be soon if she didn't keep quiet.

Kagome trudged down the stairs. "Hey sweetie, are you okay? You are kind of red?"

"I am fine." She refused to meet Sesshoumaru's eyes. "I just got to get my.."

"Ramen?" Sesshoumaru offered her the bowl.

"Yeah, I am gonna eat this in the kitchen." She ran out of the room.

"What's wrong with her?" Rin asked Sesshoumaru. Sesshoumaru just shrugged. "Well I guess you two should get going so I could get started. You can leave as soon as she finishes."

`That's right the store and stuff. This should be interesting.' He decided to talk to her now, instead of letting her be nervous around him.

"Kagome? He said, entering the kitchen. Kagome jumped, and then looked intently at her plate. "Hey, come on. It wasn't that bad." She shifted. Sesshoumaru threw reputation to the wind, and showed her the sweetness that he usually kept hidden. He lifted her chin up so she could look into his eyes. He looked deep into hers. "Don't be so embarrassed. A lot worse things could have happened. Besides, I don't want you to avoid me." Sesshoumaru smiled.

Kagome smile ruefully. "At least I didn't drop the towel in shock."

"At least" Sesshoumaru said sarcastically. He dropped his hand from her chin. But instead of hiding behind his façade, he kept the sweetness. He wanted to win Kagome over, and he wanted her to know what he was really like. "Come on, we have to get to the store. Don't you have something you want to do?"

Kagome smiled wider. "Yeah, let's go. I don't really have a plan, so we will improvise ok?"

"Ok." He smiled. She may not have a plan, but he did.

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They entered the store, and went looking for the things on the list. She wasn't going to go searching for trouble. Kouga could come to her. He normally did. She walked around the store, laughing and talking with Sesshoumaru. She couldn't believe how comfortable she was around him. Maybe she had picked the wrong brother.

Soon enough, though, she was found. "Kagome, hey sweetie!" Kouga shouted. He pulled her into a tight hug. Sesshoumaru couldn't help but growl at him. Kouga pulled away. "Who is this?" he asked Kagome. "This is..." she started. "I am her boyfriend" Sesshoumaru finished smoothly, putting his arm around Kagome. He hoped she played along. He prayed she would play along, for more reasons than one.

Kagome almost pulled away at first in surprise, but soon easily relaxed into it. She couldn't believe how perfect it felt. "Yeah, Kouga, this is Sesshoumaru."

Kouga looked between the two in disbelief. "But what about us?"

Kagome sighed in frustration. "There is no us, Kouga. There never was an us and there never will be an us. It won't happen."

"How could you choose him over me?" Kouga asked incredulously.

Kagome took a deep breath and braved herself for her next action. If they were gonna play this, she was to play it well. "Easy, like this." She leaned up on her tiptoes and kissed Sesshoumaru chastely on the lips. Had Sesshoumaru not been so surprised he would have pulled her closer but she stopped the kiss before anything could happen. They were in a grocery store.

Kouga was in shock. He couldn't believe it. "Well okay then I will be going. You know, work to do." He walked off. Kagome could barely hold in her glee. Sesshoumaru was still in shock. Kagome jumping into his arms for a hug broke the mood pretty fast though. "We did it! That was great!" Kagome jumped down and grabbed his hand again. "For appearance" she winked. Sesshoumaru said nothing, just tightened his hold. Neither seemed to admit out loud to each other that this was more then appearances. The rest of the trip was uneventful. They picked up their movies and went back. They were still holding hands and acting like a couple. Neither could pinpoint the time when this ceased to be appearance and became a reality. But neither would question it. It felt too good to ruin. Before they went back into the house, Sesshoumaru pulled Kagome aside.

"Kagome, was that stuff in the store, was that really for appearance?"

Kagome didn't know what to say. Her mind screamed no over and over again but she couldn't make herself say it. She was afraid of being rejected. Sesshoumaru mentally slumped at her silence, and looked into her eyes, intensely searching for an answer. He found what he was looking for. He pulled her into him and lowered his mouth to hers. The kiss started hesitantly, but when Kagome leaned up against him, he turned his head to deepen it. It was prefect. Kagome parted her lips, opening like a flower for him. When his tongue entered her mouth, she couldn't help but feel think that it was never like this with Inuyasha. There was no mind numbing passion like this. She wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled closer, trying to bring the kiss even deeper. They drew apart for a ragged breath then joined again. Both had wanted this so badly for so long, that they couldn't make themselves stop. Kagome was afraid that she would wake up and this would all be a dream. But when Sesshoumaru thrust his tongue into her mouth again, she knew it wasn't a dream. This was real and all too prefect.

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Rin watched the couple briefly from her window. `Good' she thought. She watched them for a couple more seconds. "Ewwwww"

(Should I end it? Noooo I feel bad for leaving you hanging, ill keep going.)

Kagome and Sesshoumaru finally came back into the house after about 10 minutes. Rin was sitting on the couch with a devious smile. "Well," she said. "That took you guys awhile." She saw that the two were holding hands. "I am glad you two figured out your issues, but if you don't bring those groceries in soon, we aren't going to eat." She smiled good-naturedly. Kagome blushed, and Sesshoumaru handed Rin the bags.

"Sorry" he said sheepishly. He couldn't help but smile at Kagome. Kagome smiled back. Rin smiled at them both. "Alright I will start this shouldn't take too long."

The two sat on the couch, holding hands, just waiting. They were content enough in each others presence and didn't need to say anything.

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"Okay what movie first?" Rin asked.

"Umm A Walk to Remember!" Kagome said. "That way I can get my tears out early" (a/n I cry every time I watch that movie)

"Tears?" Sesshoumaru asked.

"Oh yeah." Rin replied. "It is a really sad movie. Kagome nodded in agreement. Sesshoumaru shrugged.

"Whatever. Just start." Sesshoumaru didn't mind it so much when Kagome cuddled up against him. He slipped his arm around her waist and held her tight.

A couple hours later

Tears put it lightly. Both girls were sobbing when the girl told the guy she was dying and got worse throughout the movie. Sesshoumaru had to fight sleep.

"Oh I love that movie." Kagome sighed and rested her head on Sesshoumaru's shoulder.

"Yeah." Rin replied. "I am going to make more popcorn, then say Princess Bride?"

"YaY!!" Kagome cheered. She turned to Sesshoumaru. "This is one of my favorite movies of all time."

"Is it better than the last one?" he asked innocently. Kagome hit his arm playfully.

"Yes." She said simply. Sesshoumaru just smiled.

The movie was slightly better than the last. When it ended he looked over at Kagome. He snorted. Her favorite movie huh? Well he had never fallen asleep through his favorite movie. He shrugged, and then smiled at the sleeping form. He carried her upstairs and laid her softly on her bed. He then went to sleep in his own, his thoughts plagued by a certain woman.

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5:00pm the next afternoon

Kagome and Sesshoumaru were returning from what started out as a quiet walk on the park to what turned out to be a spirited soccer game with the neighborhood kids. Kagome gave him a quick kiss then ran up to take a shower.

He stared out the window. He knew he should get her to come back. She was ready. She shouldn't hide. Besides, he would be there for her. He was worried about her reaction to Inuyasha. But he trusted her. When she came out of the shower, he had a plan.

"Come on" he said as he grabbed her hand. He helped her up on the roof. Kagome sat by Sesshoumaru watching the sunset. Sesshoumaru pulled Kagome into his lap and held her tightly to him. "You know, we have to go back to reality sometime."

Kagome sighed deeply. She snuggled against Sesshoumaru. "Can't we just stay here, together forever? Don't you wish that?"

Sesshoumaru gave Kagome one of his rare, beautiful smiles and snuggled back. "Every minute of every day."

"I know we have to go back." Kagome looked up at him. "Will you help me through this?"

"Of course." Sesshoumaru answered. He leaned down and kissed her passionately.

"Ummm," she said against his mouth. "Then we can go back tomorrow."

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Niamha here: Alright that was fun. Anyway for the comment a long time ago, about Kag's thoughts on Sesshoumaru's kisses: what show is that conversation from? If you can tell me the show, a cookie for you. If you can tell me the show and the episode, ummmm well we will figure out a prize. Promise. Well, the next update will be quicker.

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Chapter 9: Reunions

Kagome hesitantly walked up to the building. Sesshoumaru had called ahead, and he had discreetly figured out that Sango and Miroku were there. She took a deep breath.

Sesshoumaru watched her carefully. He was in love with this woman. But he had never said anything. She needed to know. She deserved to know.

"Kagome, could I talk to you really fast, before we go up?"