InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Screaming For The End ❯ Screaming For The End ( Chapter 1 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

Screaming For The End
Shut down and ignore,
There is no pain that I feel,
I close my eyes once again,
To search for something real.
My goal has been shattered,
My heart has been broken,
My confidence in tatters,
Words left unspoken.
Where do I choose it to end?
In blood and tears?
The end of an age?
Do I leave it alone and just ignore…
Just sleep and pretend that it never happened…
Driven to the edge… relationships forced…
My friends wouldn't survive such a thing.
Friends… me? Friends?
I belong here - with them, with
her.
Nothing can end - yet here I am,
Screaming.
How can there be an end?
When everything ends with death?
When all I want is to belong and fit in somewhere,
To be accepted for what I am.
I don't want to lose her… I don't want to be lost to myself…
Screaming. I'm screaming for the end,
Some don't want it to end,
I do.
I want there to be a new beginning.
I want the sun to rise on
me - on my time,
I want to be approved of for once.
A new life… just for me,
Perfect as it should have been,
All those years I've been mistreated and misjudged,
But no more. Not with
her.
And I've decided already.
Who do I belong to?
My head can't decide but my eyes can…
Look. There.
This isn't the end - this is my beginning.
What do I decide? Do I stay the way I am?
I look away. Yes. For
her.
Then there will
be no end. Not for us. Not for me.
My time hasn't finished.
So I'll scream. I'll scream for the end until the end is here,
Until the beginning washes over me and I loop for eternity…
Until the water cascades down my memories…
Until I am someone new.
Scream. Let it go. Ignore.
Hold on to one thing besides hope…
I look up again.
Dark hair. Chocolate eyes…
Perfection.
The green makes the excitement in her eyes
gleam
Hold onto one thing.
Never let it go.
They may kill you and they may wound you but they can't take that away…
They can't destroy it…
They can't put an end to your-
Love.