Original Poetry Fan Fiction ❯ Company's Lil Sin ❯ Company's Lil Sin ( Chapter 1 )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

Company's Lil Sin

A journey of life

Trails taken by all

Prints in the sand

Imprinting past calls

Alone my travels start

The prints only mine

The farther I walk

Old prints left behind

Sad journey…

Bitter truths…

Life's hard…

Only you…

The future is barren

A large sandy plain

Turn look behind

Past prints explain

And so I take this trail

Afraid to look ahead

Plain, terrifying dunes

Keep the past in my head

The farther I get

Prints change with my steps

Life still as hard

Now often depressed

I stumble along

Down this trail unknown

Something comes along…

Eases my lones…

It stays by my side

A visible glee

Something now and forward

Constant company

Soon however

My steps begin to slow

Seeking just ease

That glee soon owns

Trapped by its powers

And headed for death

But as odd as it sounds…

I wanted nothing less…

Drowned with self-loathing

Only wanting release

Yet still steps kept going

Without any of peace…

Darkness drags at my heart

Company's lil sin…

Bound to its callings

Yet no wanting to win…

Harshness and cruelty…

I begin to seek truth

What kind of purpose?

What's the whole ruse?

Finally my steps falter

Over death or life…

Held at the brink

At the point of a knife…

Shadows of gloom

Heavy heavy soul…

I cry out to God…?

As if suddenly bold

`Lord of my father…

Lord of my youth…

The future is desolate…

What can I do?'

`Shadows and hardships…

I've gone this life alone…

Show me great Father!

For where have I to go?'

Angry and bitter

But now at a God…

Company's lil sin…

Is all that I got…

Death is even denied

As I turn, back on Him,

Reaching out fingers

But the angles ascend

Steps in the sand

A long trail I've made

Imprints from before

The past and today…

Slowly steps

Begin again

Making more imprints…

Making more sins…

Old future now present

Present now past

It all keeps on going

And each time I hold back

Finally though in loss

I search and I plead…

When down from the heavens

That love came to me

Rays of warm light

Fall upon my soul

As God sent an angle

To lead me from the cold…

Though now with a purpose

And life seeming more full

Though closer to God…

I end up feeling fooled…

Company's lil sin…

Still as constant as before

Making hell for the angels

By showing my core

No longer caring

I fall back in despair

Shunning those that would love me

And the ones I held dear…

Love not meant for me

And heaven, I'm not sure

But company's lil sin…

Will always be my cure…

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