Saiyuki Reload Fan Fiction / Saiyuki Reload Gunlock Fan Fiction / Gensomaden Saiyuki Fan Fiction ❯ Longing2: The Silent Path ❯ IX. ( Chapter 9 )

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By: Befanini
Sonnet for Genjyo Sanzo and Sha Gojyo. Part 2 of the “Longing” thread.

Anime/Manga: Saiyuki Reload Fan Fiction / Saiyuki Reload Gunlock Fan Fiction / Gensomaden Saiyuki Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / Romance / Angst | Type: Poetry | Uploaded On: 08.31.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.0K | Visits: 281 | Status: Completed

Chapter IX. Amethyst
 
Boundless
 
 
I know not if curse or blessing
This love Heaven's granted me
It has conquered and enslaved
Yet has also set me free
 
Allowed me a glimpse of heaven
Given me samples of dark hell
Is there a lesson to be learned?
And have I learned it well?
 
I have tasted youthful passion
Known the sweetness of romance
Grasped the poignance of true love
Held its promise in my hands
 
Then discovered its real meaning
When I had to set him free
Follow in God's footsteps
Try to love unselfishly
 
Then did love reveal its flip side
The dark nature of the coin
My passion became my misery
Morbid fancies were then born
 
Sacrifice seemed romantic
But has only brought me grief:
I lost my faith, I lost my will
And all desire to live.
 
Am I expected to survive?
Am I supposed to fight?
And if I am, then tell me how
To turn darkness into light
 
For I cannot see
I cannot hear
My senses have gone numb
I cannot escape the hole
I'm in
No matter how
I jump
 
Love has crippled me, you see
It has weakened me
Given me strength only to cry
For all that was
And what might have been
As endless time drones by
 
And yet…
 
There IS virtue in suffering,
And this I have come to see;
With a spirit purified by pain
I accept this reality:
 
The lesson we were born to grasp
Is to learn of love divine -
Love that is free, unconditional
Without any ties that bind
 
The kind that says “I love you”
With no cause but “Just because”
The way God loves, with no - “What for?”
… I only wish
I could have held him more.