InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A forgotten past and a tragic present(kagome returns) ❯ The white moon and a demon's embrace ( Chapter 4 )

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chapter 4:

I stood frozen in inuyasha's embrace. Placid tears rolled down my cheeks and i lost myself somewhere in our kiss. Inuyasha closed his eyes tightly and hugged me back. Inuyasha we can be togather now. I had inuyasha back but keyade was right theis was not the hanyou i fell in love for. Inuyasha broke our moment of passion by pulling my face away and staring into my eyes. These crimson eyes dident belong to inuyasha. "inuyasha you dident have to change" i said choking back more tears "i loved you the way you were, why did you do this inuyasha" inuyasha looked angered but he gritted his teeth and turned away. I myself had been exspecting and outburst of rage. "kagome" inuyasha began. I looked sympatheticly up at him. " i really trie to feel, i tried to feel our kiss but i feel hollow."
I almost dropped to my knees in the snow inuyasha this isent like you. Tears fell once again freely from my eyes. "I knew that you would never come back, Yet i sat at that well every day praying, kagome i prayed for your return but you never came back to me. I decided that this hurt to much, not seeing you and i began to wish that you and i had never met but i could not forget you. I took the sacred jewel and decided to become a whole demon, i thought that if i could pull that off i would forget about you like i did all the other times but it dident work. i threw the jewel into bone eaters well hoping that it could somehow reach you, I met this demon one night about a winter ago, se said he went by SAYUMI she told me that she would give me immortality and free me of my human blood if i agreed to gather blood for her. and so here i am." "inuyasha" that was the only thing i managed to get out. "i gathered the blood like she asked and she did this to me and now i cant feel emotionly but what is so strange is that i could,and can now feel the pain, so sharp and stunning, the pain of losing you.so now it is sadly unnessisary because i wasent able to forget you kagome, and sometimes i feel so cold, my demon instincts take over and im controlled by the impulse to kill and smell blood, to see others suffer at my mercy, even now im being selfish and risking your life, your life that i may take with these claws but the tetsiaga it helps me somehow oddly control my demon instincts but kagome i do know that i love you, i can weild the tetsiaga a sword that can only be used if the person whom weilds it has a love for humans so i do know that all hope is not lost" inuyasha closed his eyes once more and it was know my turn to talk, "inuyasha i know that you love me please i know you try, dont talk like this you....you can control what has happened dont let it take you over inuyasha because i want to love you and we have already grown distant enough, you are inuyasha deep down inside, no demon can change that, you are not a demon inuyasha you are a hanyou, the hanyou i fell in love with, that showed me love like no other, you slaughtered demons and saved mortals please inuyasha im praying to" i suddenly found it difficult to breathe and inuyasha who still had his eyes closed sensed my weakness and pulled me to him once again. The white moon and the snowy silence calmed my and i began to melt in his arms. It was strange here i was in the arms of a youkai,a hanyou but i felt no need to run and no hint of fear. Inuyasha looked down at me and stared back through his smoldering amber eyes. "inuyasha your eyes" i stammered. "i know they only turn read when im unable to fight off my demonic impulses i fail at it most of the time but its easier to fight it off with you here" I smiled, for the first time in so long inuyasha was begining to remind me of himself befor our seperation. I shivered up until now i hadent noticed how cold it was. The icey wind blew agianst me numbing my skin. Inuyasha felt me shiver and silently took of his robe of the fire rat and wraped it around me. He then lifted me into his strong arms and held me like a small child. On we walked for hours under the snow moon until i finally fell asleep in inuyasha's comforting arms, the arms of a demon.