InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Drown ❯ Chapter 14: I’m not okay ( Chapter 14 )

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Title: Drown
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Inu Yasha/Kouga, Kouga/Ayame, Inuyasha/Kouga/Ayame, mentions of Inu Yasha/Kagome and Inu Yasha/Kikyo InuYasha/OC
Category: Drama, romance, slash, Mpreg, yaoi
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Non-con, Mpreg, SPOILERS!
Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Inu Yasha or its chars. They are property of Rumiko Takashi and major companies.

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Drown" by Bring Me The Horizon

Chapter 14: I'm not okay

Time always seems fleeting in the eyes of humans and as a hanyou I can say much the same. I had grown up caught between worlds and it was difficult to see everyone around me grow and change in what seemed days while I remained much the same.

Here in the caves among the wolves I had a sense of belonging and fitting in and almost normality.

As winter ended and the snow and ice melted everyone welcomed spring with open arms. It was nice to sit around and not have to wrap yourself in furs or blankets to be comfortable. Mated and unmated wolves felt the call of the spring, young and old alike felt the call of the spring and so they pounced and played and flirted with the intent to pair up and mate.

The pairs that formed and bonded were as diversified as wolves in Kouga and Ayame's packs. I wasn't surprised to see Ginta and Hakaku constantly sniffing and rubbing against each other exchanging nips and licks out in the open and I wasn't even surprised to see Kouga and Ayame acting like young pups even with Ranken around them. I was a little surprised to see Kira and Sachi acting much the same as Ginta and Hakaku with the gentle nips and licks and tender touches.

I found myself oddly amused and at the same time the odd man out. I watched from the sidelines and cared for Yuki'ren and as of late Ranken as well. I often offered to care for the bundle of adorable energy that was now going on four months old. Right now caring for him and Yuki was pretty simple. Neither could crawl just yet, they both could coo and babble and support their own head weight. They offered dazzling baby smiles and sweet interest in everything I did.

Ranken's eyes had begun to change from blue to a beautiful pale green that sparkled as much his mothers eyes. Yuki'rens eyes had lightened and were almost a silvery blue and I hoped that meant they would be gold, though oddly enough his left eye was slightly darker.

There was a room in the den dedicated to the care of the young and I found myself there with a few of the single pack members whose job it is to care for the young. Often it was the lowest pack members, the elderly or those too young to help with hunts or too young to participate in the mating that was taking place all around us.

Every morning I left the furs and den that I shared with both Ranken and Yuki in my arms and headed to the den. I would appease Ranken and Yuki by nursing both in the midday and when the evening came Kouga or Ayame and sometimes both would come to fetch us and we would make our way back to our den and our shared furs.

It had only taken a week for things to settle down and for the new pairs to settle in to new dens which were dug out up and down the mountain with help as Kouga's pack expanded further.

Though public displays had lessened what happened in the privacy of your own den was something completely different.

I often pretended not to notice the caresses and lingering touches exchanged between Ayame and Kouga and I tried to stay far from them, giving them their space. Though I tried it didn't seem to bother either of them. I often found myself sandwiched between the two of them an innocent victim of a touch here and a grope there. They had been particularly “affectionate” today.

I had decided to wear a lighter yukata that Sesshomaru had left for me in a deep shade of red with a pale blue obi. It was airy and easy to push down for nursing. I brought Yuki to my chest to ease his fussing. Ran continued fussing and as I looked up I saw Ayame was busy finishing up some sewing on the bed furs. Kouga lifted his son rocking him but it did nothing for his hungry cries.

“Bring him here.”

Kouga looked down at me surprised but did as I asked. I shrugged my yukata further open so that my other milk swollen nipple was exposed. He passed me Ran and I cradled him, directing him towards my body. It took him no time at all to latch on and feed.

Kouga and Ayame knew I fed their son but upon looking up I saw identical looks of surprise, awe and something that oddly resembled want. I found Kouga's cerulean eyes unnerving and blushed as he continued to watch his son nurse at my chest. Yuki finished first and I gently patted his back one handed until finally Kouga took him from my arm and lifted him, helping to burp him.

Yuki burped and Kouga chuckled rocking my son gently in his arms. I watched as Yuki blinked owlishly up at Kouga, his eyes closing and then blinking opening and repeating until finally they closed in slumber. I expected Kouga to lay him down on my furs but what he did with Ayame's assistance is make a bed of furs in my old sleep nook where he laid him down for his nap.

As I lifted Ran to my shoulder and patted him my thoughts ran rampant. I had no time to react as Ayame put away her sewing and came to stand next to me holding out her arms. I handed her Ran and she leaned over placing a gently kiss on my forehead.

“Don't look so worried, Yasha. The boys are old enough to start napping on their own. Besides they won't be far from us,” Ayame spoke softly and smiled down at me leaning over once more to place a kiss on each cheek and then my lips.

My face felt hot and I knew I must have been as red as a tomato as I panicked looking over at Kouga where he stood a few feet away. I turned to watch Ayame gently bounce and rock Ran as he too began to fall into a milk laden nap. When Ran was asleep he was laid next to Yuki among the furs in the small nook and both were covered with a light sheet.

Ayame came to stand in front of me offering me a hand up. Once I was standing she didn't let go of my hand and instead lead me over to the furs where Kouga stood with an anticipatory and predatory gaze. I felt my breath catch in my throat as I came to stand in front of Kouga. Ayame continued holding my hand as Kouga leaned down, gently taking my face between his two hands and leaning in close. I closed my eyes as my heart beat frantically. I gasped as I felt his warm lips against my jaw which he nibbled and licked, making his way to my lips which he nibbled and and sucked on before he pressed his lips against mine.

Ayame's hands played along sides in such and soft playful way that when she finally brought them to my waist where they wandered lower I gasped, finally allowing Kouga's mouth to plunder mine fully; his tongue darting into my mouth and delving deeply. Ayame's hands made their way under my yukata and worked my fundoshi loose so that it fell to the floor. I opened my eyes starring into those heated cerulean depths as he pulled back. He stepped back and watched as Ayame came to kneel in front of me with her hands on my thighs pulling me in closer to her.

I felt her hands on my length pulling gently bringing it to her mouth as she nibbled and licked and finally it was engulfed in the warmth that was her small mouth. I gasped once more and mewled as pleasure overwhelmed my body. Kouga grinned then and I watched out of the corner of my eye as he circled and came to stand behind me. I felt his hands play along my shoulders and chest, stopping to caress and playfully pinch and tug at my sensitive and swollen nipples.

I swayed and came to lean against his muscled chest while Ayame's gentle hands still played along my thighs; one gentle hand cupped and massaged my sac while her talented mouth continued to suck and nibble my length. Kouga's hands wandered lower as he lowered himself into a kneeling position. They're hands touched along my thighs and I looked down watching as Ayame released me and instead took Kouga's offered fingers into her mouth, sucking nibbling them like she had my length until they were slick with saliva.

I watched as those fingers retracted and then I felt my self spread and if there had been a trace of panic it was chased off by Ayame who returned to her earlier task. I was lost in the sensation of warmth and then I felt a digit circle my entrance and push its way in. I gasped and writhed but Kouga gently ran his hand along my thigh as I adjusted. I felt him move it in and out in tandem with Ayame until Ayame took a break to stare up at me with her mischievous and lust filled green eyes. She watched and I felt a second finger join the first and I shook my head frantically as she palmed my length at the same time as a finger hooked deep inside and hit something that caused lights to dance in my vision.

I started swaying and Ayame backed up a few feet and then gently held out her hands which I took so that she could help me into a kneeling position on the furs, a position that gave Kouga a better view and an easier position in which to plunder my body.

Ayame removed her fur pelts and lay down before me barring her and as she did so I saw her inner most parts. I leaned in closer and did as she had done to me. I gave a tennitive lick along her thigh and worked closer and closer until she finally spread herself for me.

I had been with Kikyou in the marital way as well as Kagome, this was not foreign territory and so I leaned in and began to lick and nibble and suck until she moaned and writhed. I felt a third finger enter me and Kouga began a rhythm rocking my body forward into Ayame, hitting that bundle of nerves deep inside my body causing me to gyrate against Ayame. Finally I felt Ayame shake and she practically screamed out my names as we both came.

I felt Kouga's fingers leave my body and I fought to stay on my hands and knees over Ayame as I collected my breath. Kouga came around and leaned in licking along my jaw and lips before his mouth covered my own in a searing kiss. He pulled back grinning and licking his own lips before he went over to Ayame and caught her in a searing kiss. I watched them kiss when they parted Kouga leaned over and whispered into Ayame's ear so softly that not even my sensitive ears could pick up any of the words.

Kouga sat up and I watched as Ayame knelt on the furs before me. I sat back on my haunches and watched as Kouga beckoned me forward and as I did so I felt myself grow hard again as I realized what they both wanted. I knelt behind Ayame and slid my length into her warm and slick body and felt my eyes close as pleasure threatening to take me over the edge too soon.

I watched as Kouga grabbed a jar of scented oil before removing his furs and armor revealing is length; large and engorged. As I looked him I could easily say he was larger than Kiba in both length and girth. I watched as he took those oil slick fingers and slid them along his length coating it liberally and then he left my line of vision. I felt his hands grab a hold of my bottom and part it and then I felt that hot and hard flesh slowly push its way one painful inch at a time into my opening. I gasped and fought the burning friction but felt myself pressed deeper into Ayame as he pressed into me. I had a moment to gather myself as I felt my self filled to capacity and trapped in delicious heat at the same time.

I felt that length and girth leave me just as slowly he pulled me back and I felt my length pull out of Ayame and then just as sudden I was slammed into and thus I slammed into Ayame. It was Kouga who set the pace as his body pistoned in and out of my own, causing me to do much the same to Ayame. With each slam those nerves were hit and I rubbed against that spot deep inside of Ayame and as Kouga neared his end we began to find our second release. Ayame was pushed over hers first as she gripped me deep inside and writhed moaning and gasping out both of our names. I fought my release as long as I could and then Kouga grew larger inside of me and I felt heat fill my body and that sent me over the edge as I too filled Ayame with my seed. I shook in my need to collapse but I didn't want to crush Ayame with mine and Kouga's joined weight.

Kouga eventually pulled himself from my body and came to lie on the furs leaving space between himself and Ayame. I writhed inside of her as my sensitive body came once more as did Ayame and we both shuddered and when I was freed from her body I collapsed beside her gasping for breath and thinking I had died and gone to the next life.

Ayame giggled and came to wrap her arms around my body and Kouga chuckled doing the same so that I was wrapped in their arms, their comfort and their love.

“You are ours now,” said Ayame breathily.

I felt my eyes widen as I looked back and forth between them.

“Don't tell me you never noticed,” asked Kouga.

I must have looked as confused as I felt and finally Kouga gave a deep sigh, “You really are quite dense aren't you?”

“Kouga and I have been telling others you were off limits since the spring started. You were quite popular among the young and unmated. Now no one will doubt you are claimed as we said so,” said Ayame snuggling against me and smiling.

“You are ours until you choose not to be. You are free here but I want you to know that you are loved and will be cared for so never doubt yourself or your place in this pack. It's not unusual for pack leaders to take on more than one mate,” said Kouga as he sat up slightly and began stretching.

I nodded and my mind filled with thoughts and then I felt Ayame sat up frowning down at me.

“I think he needs further convincing,” she said and as she said it I felt Kouga lean over me kissing Ayame soundly and then they parted and covered my face in kisses.

The spent the rest of the afternoon convincing me and we bathed and had dinner, caring for the boys and when not came they spent that evening up into the early morning “convincing me”.

I must say…I was convince and then some.

To Be Continued…..

So rusty when it comes to straight sex but I think I did okay.

More to come tomorrow.

Thanks for reading~!

Kat