Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Save me from myself ❯ Confessions ( Chapter 2 )

Save me from myself

By: Anna Hibiki

Rating: NC-17, R in this chapter..

Disclaimers : Weiss is not mine! Koyasu-sama and other people with much more money than me owns it. It they were mine, KenKen and Youji would be together in the series, manga AND merchandising. But no, since it isn't mine, we YoKen fans have to cope with Koyasu's pathetic and manipulative attempts to make everybody think that there's something between RanRan and Ken.

Warnings : Shounen-ai/Yaoi, OCC, angst, lemon in later chapters and horrible spelling.

Notes : Anything written in Italic are thoughts. Things /written this way/ are mental talk.

This fic can be read in my page, mediaminer.org and ff.net.

Ne, minna! I want to thank the! So, todays arigatous go to: Firekat (arigato for reviewing!!! *glomps*) and g (arigato!! *glomps* hope ya like this chapter!)

Chapter 2: Confessions

"Nagi-kun!! Guess who has sent us a letter?" Omi exclaimed happily.

"Hn?" the younger boy smiled at the look on the other's face.

"It's from Ken-kun!"

Nagi's smile widened. Since they left the others to be together, there was nothing that made Omi happier than receive news from his friends, who seemed to be as happy as they were, or so he thought.

"Let's see what he says then." Nagi suggested.

Omi opened the envelope and took out an old picture of himself and Ken when the others hadn't joined Weiss yet and a letter. Even if it started in a happy tone, the words were written tightly, and the pen had marked the paper, wich meant that Ken wasn't too happy when he wrote it. Those details escaped Omi though.

Hey Omi!

How are you and Nagi doing? Hope you're as happy as you were last time you called!!

We're having lots of missions lately so I didn't have time to talk to you before. Just to inform Nagi, Schwarz are still operative, and we clash with them every now and then (for my disgrace).

Things at the Koneko are okay. We have lots of customers, and soon will have a new teammate (Schwarz killed the last one we got).

Look Omi... I really need to get this out of my chest.

I... I'm such a bastard! I'm sorry I'm telling you but I didn't know who else would listen to me! But I'm so confused... I need to know what to do, and nobody's here to give me advice..

I (there was a whole line deleted there) , I love someone.. someone that's not Youji. This person is an evil bastard who would never look at me, but I can't help it! I feel bad for being with Youji when all I see is (he had tried to make the following word dissapear) that other person, all I want is that other person, but I don't want to hurt my Youji!

You know, he's so caring and gentle and treats me so well... I just don't know what I'm going to do with him!

I only know that I can't be with him and pretend he's another person.

What can I do? I'm so confused...

Well, I'll better stop bothering you (if you haven't burned this yet and aren't hating me more than anything), I have to go send this before Youji finishes his turn.

Honto ni gomen nasai,

Ken

Omi was shocked. He just couldn't believe what he had read. "Ken-kun doesn't love Youji-kun anymore..."

Nagi took the letter from his hands and looked at it more closely, paying special attention to the parts that looked like Siberian didn't want them to read.

That whole line was unintelligible, but that single word after the 'all I see is' looked like it was written in katakana. Yeah, katakana. "Ne, Omi."

The blonde gave him an absent 'Hn?' before he turned teary eyes to him.

"Look, it looks like here's a name."

"Nani?"

"Yeah, eto.." He aproached a lamp and exposed the paper to the light. "It's katakana. Shurud- Schuldig?!"

"N-NANI?!?! Ken-kun what?!" he snapped. This was too much. One thing was that Ken didn't love Youji anymore, but loving such a heartless bastard like Schuldig? "N-no way. No fucking way!!" He threw himself onto the couch and took the phone, quickly dialing a number. Before the person at the other side of the phone could say a thing, he started to scream at him. "How can you say such a thing Ken-kun!?!? Have you lost your mind or what?!" his voice and words were full of anger, sadness and confusion.

"Oi? Is it you chibi?"

"Y-Youji-kun..."

"Why are you screaming like that?"

"Oh... hehe it's nothing Youji-kun! Ano.. oi! Nagi-kun's calling me out, see ya!" he babbled and hung the phone.

.::.::.::.::.

Youji blinked. Was it his imagination or Omi had just hung the phone on him? He sounded angry at Ken. Why would that be?

"KenKen?" he asked as he quietly entered the kitchen.

"Yo-tan!! Don't scare me like that!" he snapped.

The blonde blinked for the second time in the last five minutes. What was happening to Ken? He had been nervous lately, even hysteric. It was becoming usual to catch him lost in his thoughts or wanting to be alone.

That was what the playboy thought, but he didn't say anything to his lover. "Whatever. What have you done to the chibi? He called all mad at you. I think he even swore!"

"Uhh.. can't remember!" he lied, grinning sheepishly. Ken was good at lying, and they both knew that, though Youji refused to admit it. "I'll call him later.."

"KenKen no baka…"

The brunette pouted and continued giving an apple little bites. Youji couldn't help but smile. Even if he was far from innocent, Ken had this look on him… "Ai shiteru." He said causally.

Ken almost choked on the apple. He started to cough until the apple stopped trying to kill him.

"Daijobu?"

"Shut up!" He yelled, still coughing. He looked up at his lover and saw the hurt on his green eyes as he left the room. Why am I acting this way? He doesn't deserve- "I-I'm sorry Youji."

He planned to go after the blonde, but he was late to open the flower shop, so he decided to do it later.

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Schuldig wandered on the streets, hands on his pockets, looking for something to do. He was SO bored… Brad was a jerk (well, that wasn't anything new), Farfello was sedated, and the brat wasn't around anymore. It's not that he missed him (he didn't, not in the little least), but he used to harass him when he had nothing better to do, but since he left Schwarz with Bombay, he didn't have anyone to play with at the Schwarz's house.

Of course he could entertain himself with the people he found on the streets, but that wasn't funny. People thinking about their business, the little money they had, who they were going to ask for a date or what was better, if ketchup or tomato sauce weren't what he would call an entertainment.

He tried to find an interesting mind, picking the thoughs from all the people around. There was nothing important, that is, until he was surprised to find a mind that was thinking of him. He could see himself on the person's thoughts, and he could almost touch the guilt that person felt for thinking of him.

Where did that mind come from? He crossed the street and stopped in front of a shop. He looked up at the shop's logo and then down to the brunette looking at him wide eyed from the inside of the shop.

Tsu zu ku…

I'm sorry this took me so much time! But I had to rewrite everything. What do you think? I hope ya liked the chapter!

Omi and Nagi knows, Youji suspects something, and Schu… we'll you've seen that.

What's gonna happen in next chappie? You'll have to read to know!

Will you leave me a comment? I really need your opininons and suggestions! What do you think will happen?

Hasta luego!