Yami No Matsuei Fan Fiction ❯ Sleepless Beauty ❯ Part 2 (Watari) ( Chapter 2 )

Title: Sleepless Beauty (Part 2 of 4)

Author: Elf Asato

Pairings: Eventual Tsuzuki/Hisoka, implied Watari

Warnings: Shounen-ai (obviously), language, angst, OOC?

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: Sadly, Yami no Matsuei doesn't belong to me…aaa…what a world. The song Sleepless Beauty is off Gravitation, so that doesn't belong to me, either! ;.;

Notes: Aa…I usually don't really like to swear, but I fear it would be so un-YnM-like…the troubles of being a writer…

Song fic to Sleepless Beauty from Gravitation. Hn, it's just various lyrics everywhere… ^_^ I suppose it sucks to have the song drawn out in three parts! Regarding the lyrics…I'm going to have just the English translation in the story, but at the end of each part I'll have the Japanese lyrics used in that part. Confusing, I'm sorry….

Italics is Hisoka's journal. [Lyrics] Obvious….

Part 1 is Hisoka's part. Part 2 is Watari's part , 3 Tsuzuki, and part 4 will most likely be short and Tatsumi's. I got to thinking…and I really want to write a sequel! You can't stop me! Ha ha! But Tatsumi's part will set up for it and to make up for his lack of parts, the entire sequel is going to be his! …Probably. I may change it…like I changed it to 4 parts….

This part is more than twice the length of Hisoka's part…. Guess I can't write when he's passed out, ne?

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Sleepless Beauty

By Elf Asato

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[I see you haven't changed at all; the petals scatter from the flower

Polish the gem in your hand everyday so it will build up and start over]

Watari should have been expecting the Inu-Tsuzuki to tackle him as soon as he stepped foot out of the infirmary where Hisoka slept.

"WATARI!!!!!!" Inu-Tsuzuki squealed. "Is he okay, is he alright? Will he get better???????"

It was all he could do to keep from laughing outright at Tsuzuki's cuteness and incredible concern for his partner. "Yes, Tsuzuki, Hisoka's fine. He's a little worn out, though. He should be up and moving in a couple of hours."

"That's good to hear," Tatsumi muttered. "I can't tell you how much of a pain it was to keep Tsuzuki calm…."

Watari laughed while Inu-Tsuzuki scowled. "I was really worried!"

"…There's not anything wrong with Kurosaki, is there?" Tatsumi asked out of curiosity - and Watari knew it would satisfy Tsuzuki's worry.

"Nah, of course not!" he smiled. "Just too many emotions, I suppose. He'll be fine, so don't worry." This was directed mainly at the incredibly cute puppy with huge, googly, wet eyes.

It had an adverse effect than what Watari and Tatsumi had hoped.

Inu-Tsuzuki started bawling. "IT'S ALL MY FAULT!!!!!! I SHOULDN'T HAVE TAKEN HIM TO KYOTO!!!!!!! IN PUBLIC! I'M SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!! DON'T HATE ME, HISOKA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Tatsumi twitched mildly while Watari erupted into full-blown laughter.

"…Why are you laughing?" Tatsumi muttered quietly.

Watari reached down to pat Inu-Tsuzuki's head as his laughter subsided. "Ah, I'm sorry! It's just that you're so cute!"

"Watari!" he squealed (no longer Inu…just…incredibly genki) and glomped the said Shinigami. Then the sad puppy eyes returned. "But…Hisoka…he probably hates me now!"

Smiling reassuringly, the scientist said, "No, he probably doesn't hate you. You couldn't have known that being out there would be too much. In fact, he's probably very grateful for the sleep. You know Bon doesn't seem like he gets enough sleep. You know, he's probably very happy right now. Hey, he'll probably be awake in a couple of hours or so. In the meantime, why don't you go down to earth and get him a present or something?" With this, he fished around in his lab coat pocket for yen - giving whatever he could find to Tsuzuki.

Tsuzuki lit up. "Sankyuu Watari!!!!!!!!!!" he squealed gleefully and bounded away.

"…You have a knack for cheering him up," Tatsumi remarked as soon as the aforementioned was out of sight.

The blond Shinigami shrugged. "I try my best."

"…So Kurosaki is actually alright?"

"Yep!" Watari replied cheerfully. "No sign of anything suspicious. It just seems he took in too many emotions. He's fine."

Tatsumi gave the scientist a long stare.

"…What?"

"Kurosaki has gotten used to public places for the most part. It doesn't seem right that he just up and fainted because of that."

Watari gave one of his thoughtful gazes and muttered, "…He hasn't had an episode in a while…Bon was probably due for one anyway…."

"…Watari…."

Completely ignoring him, he said cheerfully as he bounded away similar to Tsuzuki, "Well, 003 and I have a lot of work to do. If Bon happens to wake up, please come get me!"

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Watari had been grateful that he had stopped by and was the first one to see Hisoka awake. "Hey Bon. Feel alright?"

Hisoka looked around the room and muttered, "…Yeah…. Just tired."

"Aa, well it's expected," he smiled. "…It sucks that you fainted on your day off, ne?"

Staring at him blankly, Hisoka replied, "I'm just glad that we weren't on an assignment."

"True, true," Watari mused. "So…is anything wrong?"

"…What do you mean?" the younger one asked. "I'm almost positive it was just because I took in too many emotions…if that is what you mean."

Watari just stared thoughtfully at the wall. "No…I mean…are things going well between you and Tsuzuki?"

That comment put Hisoka on guard. "…Yeah…why?"

Giving just a smile, Watari offered, "You know…if you ever feel like you need to talk to someone, you know where I am."

"W-what?!"

"I mean it," he continued. "Just come to me if you need to talk. We don't even have to talk about what's bothering you…we could talk about the weather…work…whatever you want."

"I…I don't know what the hell what you're talking about! There's nothing bothering me!" Hisoka exclaimed, obviously defensive.

"Oh, I never said that there was," Watari replied smoothly. "I was just saying that if you ever did need to talk, you know where I am."

"…That's…if I ever need to talk?"

"Yep," he replied cheerfully.

"…Not that I do need to talk, mind you…."

"Oh of course not. Just thought I'd offer."

"…Oh…alright…."

"HISOKA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" < p class="MsoNormal">

It was obvious to everyone that Tsuzuki was back, bearing gifts for Hisoka. As the newly-turned-Inu-Tsuzuki bubbled on and on about how sorry he was, and as Hisoka seemed to blush at every word and movement the inu made, Watari couldn't help but smile inside and out.

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"Naa...Watari?" Hisoka breathed softly, as if not to disturb the wonderfully chaotic balance of the scientist's lab hours later.

003 gave a small hoot as Watari replied enthusiastically without looking up, "Bon! What brings you here?" He hadn't expected a visit from the pair so soon…and he figured it would take a nuclear war for Hisoka to let down his defenses and come to Watari to talk…. Quickly he glanced up from his beloved experiment and his eyebrows furrowed slightly. "Tsuzuki's not with you?"

"Nn...no," Hisoka responded, barely above a whisper. "I...ah...I came alone, Watari."

"Oh," 003 and Watari hooted in unison. {A/N: Weird ^^;;}

Deciding that Bon was obviously more important, Watari set his experiment aside and motioned for Hisoka to sit down in a little chair. He leaned up against a counter and asked, "So, what can I do for you?"

"...You know how you said I could come to you if I needed to talk...?" Hisoka began as Watari's expression grew shocked. With the boy's pride, he hadn't expected him to actually come to him.

"Yes."

"Well...I...I need your help, Watari."

The scientist's mouth gaped open. "...You...actually....?"

Hisoka gave him that look that said not to push it. "...Yeah.... Look...I fainted because I was overwhelmed by Tsuzuki's emotions. Since then, I've been trying to sort them out...but they're so confusing. So unfamiliar."

"It's alright.... I'll help you," Watari smiled warmly. He had offered, but never dreamed that the boy would let down his defenses and share himself with him.

Hisoka said nothing and stared off, trying to gather the remnants of Tsuzuki's emotions. With great reluctance, he began, "…I suppose it's a great amount of respect…and this genuine warmth. It's…it's not often he lets me get the majority of his feelings…."

"…Perhaps he wanted you to know them?" Watari suggested patiently. 003 just perched on his shoulder, like always.

"…Maybe…but I just…" Hisoka muttered. "There's something really bothering me, though…."

"Oh?"

Hisoka sighed and looked the other way.

Watari took as if what he was about to say was painful. And that was quite all right.

"His…his feelings…. I…I remember my father sharing them. Though Tsuzuki's is more intense…deeper…it's still just the same. They felt the same way," Hisoka choked.

The scientist stared at the boy sympathetically for a while, but then erupted into a smile. "But those feelings…do they feel good?"

"Hell no," Hisoka spat out, as if he was disgusted at Watari's question.

"…No…I'm not asking how you feel when you're reminded of them…but think, Bon. Are they good?" Watari asked seriously, his voice a low whisper. "I want you to actually take time to think about this."

Several minutes passed in silence before Hisoka muttered, "…In…a strange sense, yes…."

Watari's smile returned. "I think I know what Tsuzuki feels for you."

"Eh?"

"Unconditional love."

"WHAT???" Hisoka shrieked.

Watari's smile grew wider. "Yep! The feeling. It's warm isn't it? It makes you feel safe and cared for. Content, ne?"

"Y-yes…with…Tsuzuki yes…but…that's not how my father…that's…that's not how that bastard felt!" the young Shinigami spat out.

"It's likely that he put up a shield after he found out you were an empath. You were probably too busy hating him to notice," he said with a smug smile.

"I…I was not! I would have known!" Hisoka yelled, his face red.

Watari shrugged. "Your abilities weren't as finely tuned as they are know. It could have gone unnoticed. You know…just because you can feel others' emotions…doesn't mean you can feel ALL their emotions, ne?"

Hisoka's shoulders slumped and Watari took it as if he knew he was right.

"Unconditional love is probably what your father felt for you and Tsuzuki, too…though…" he said with a funny smirk, "I think Tsuzuki's is a bit different…."

"…Eh? How so?" Hisoka asked curiously.

"It's more intense…it's deeper…. It's not the unconditional love that a parent feels for a child…. It's like, not to scare you…what a couple feels when they're truly in love. That sort of thing…on an intimate level, I suppose," Watari said gently, wondering if he should have said it at all.

Hisoka's mouth gaped open.

"Aa, but you shouldn't trust me! Go ask Tsuzuki yourself!" Watari said quickly, laughing nervously.

The beautiful green eyes that fell on the scientist looked at him strangely. "…Have you ever felt that way, Watari?"

The Shinigami just stared at a random spot on the floor while 003 hooted softly. "…This isn't about me. It's about you and Tsuzuki…but…yes. I suppose I have felt that way…." Watari's normal smile returned and he said warmly, "Feel better?"

Hisoka eyed him a little before muttering, "I suppose."

"Good!" Watari chirped. "I have a lot of work to do…but you can come back any time if you want!"

"Oh…okay," Hisoka agreed softly as he was led to the door. Turning to face the scientist, he said edgily, "…This conversation never happened. I was never here."

"Bon! How good of you to see me! You haven't stopped by in a while!" Watari smiled animatedly.

Hisoka almost smiled. Almost.

[(Your cold hand) because of thorns shed through weariness

(A doused flame) the smoke carries on]

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Yet again it was a few hours later when Watari came across Tatsumi comforting Inu-Tsuzuki in Kachou's office.

"He HATES me!" Tsuzuki sobbed into Tatsumi's chest. Neither of them noticed Watari and 003 standing in the doorway.

"…Tsuzuki, why do you think he hates you?" Tatsumi asked gently.

"'Cause…'cause…he won't talk to me…and…and…he's avoiding me…and…and…" Inu-Tsuzuki choked before he broke off into a sob.

Tatsumi pet the inu's head, not really knowing what to say.

"He's just tired, that's all. You know Bon doesn't like to talk to anyone when he's not feeling good. He's just had a rough day," Watari reassured cheerfully.

"AND IT'S ALL MY FAULT! HE HATES ME!!!!!!" Inu-Tsuzuki sobbed even more.

Tatsumi twitched.

"Bon doesn't think so," Watari said calmly.

"He…he doesn't?"

"Nope!" Watari said cheerfully. "He's just really tired from fainting, but he doesn't think that any of it is your fault. He's not even mad."

"…He's not?"

"Nope!"

"YAY!!!!!!!" the little inu squealed as he flung himself onto Watari, who just laughed. "I mean, I don't think he really liked the chocolate cake I brought for him, but I'm glad he's not mad!!"

Watari laughed some more before Tatsumi brushed past him. "I've got work to do now, Tsuzuki, so I'll leave you with Watari."

"Okay!" Tsuzuki (no longer inu ;.;) chirped, seeing Tatsumi out. He turned back to Watari with a smile, but it fell quickly as he looked past him. "…Hisoka's journal…he must have left it."

"Hisoka's journal?" Watari asked. 003 hooted.

"…Yeah…" Tsuzuki said softly as he walked hesitantly past the other Shinigami and picked up the said object. "Kachou was talking to him about being all right and…I remember he had it with him. He forgot it…. I have to take it back to him!" He paused and continued staring at the journal. "…But…I wonder what he's written…."

Watari took the journal from Tsuzuki's hands. "Tsuzuki, if Hisoka finds out you've been reading his journal, he really WILL get mad at you."

Tsuzuki's eyes widened. "Yeah, he will! …Watari, can you stay here with it? I'm going to get Hisoka. I don't want to be tempted…is that all right?"

Watari smiled. "Yeah, that's fine!"

"Thanks!" Tsuzuki said as he rushed off.

There was silence in the room as Watari stared at the journal. Carefully he opened it.

003 hooted disapprovingly.

"…Yes, I know, but I don't need to hear it from you," Watari muttered as he looked at the pages. There were only three entries, he noticed. Two were written before Hisoka fainted and one after. Quickly skimming over the two, be began to read the third.

003 hooted again.

"…It's for his own good," Watari justified to the owl. He thought he was probably the only one who understood what 003 said. Nevertheless, he continued on.

(same day, hours later)

…I've written in this so much today, but it's kind of sad how I'll just eventually forget about it. It's nice to let my thoughts out sometimes, though…

I actually fainted in Kyoto from Tsuzuki's emotions. Apparently, he thinks I'm mad at him or something, but I'm not. He also thinks I didn't like the present he gave to me after I woke up - a chocolate cake. True, I didn't want to eat it, but I did appreciate it.

That was after Watari came to see me. It was kind of odd…he just…offered to talk to me if I needed it. Normally I wouldn't have under any circumstances…but there was just something about the gentleness in his voice. His genuine desire to help me.

Also the fact that I was really confused trying to sort out Tsuzuki's emotions.

…So I actually did take Watari up on his offer. I always thought he was more scatterbrained than Tsuzuki…but he's actually got it all together, it seems. The more I think about what he said, the more I realize that it's true.

And the more everything scares me.

He told me that what I felt from Tsuzuki was unconditional love…on an intimate level. It reminded me of what I felt from my father…but Watari reassured me that it was unconditional love…but between a parent and a child. I suppose he would know. I assume he had a semi-normal childhood, unlike me. I also suppose he would know about the unconditional love on an intimate level…because he told me he felt it himself.

I hate to admit it, but I guess I can trust him.

There was something odd, though. Usually the feelings I get from Watari are very simple and familiar. Curiosity, familiarity, excitement, happiness…discouragement. Fairly simple emotions compared to, say, Tsuzuki or Tatsumi. I just can't feel anything from Tatsumi…and I know he's hiding it. …But I'm not talking about him…

…When I asked Watari…if he ever felt that sort of unconditional love…I felt something weird. It wasn't what I usually feel from him. I felt a multiple of things… But foremost was a slight…pang. Along with it were things I had never felt from him before… It was a mixture of pleasant and unpleasant emotions. It occurs to me that Watari has a natural wall. I never thought that he would need to have a wall. I always assumed that his emotions were fairly simple. It's not like Tsuzuki…or Tatsumi for whatever reason he has. I'm sure there is one, though.

It was just odd. Like I was enlightened.

Just odd…but it makes me feel I can trust him all the more…

Weird.

Kachou wants to talk to me about my fainting…if I'm okay…ugh…I don't really want to talk to anyone. I'm just content to sit here and think…but that's all right. Sometimes we do things we don't want to - but we have to.

I feel better about Tsuzuki, though.

003 hooted.

"Dammit, don't give me that, 003. You were reading over my shoulder," Watari smirked, but there was no light in his eyes.

There was a soft hooting again as Watari closed the journal.

"…I don't suppose I really meant for him to feel that. I wonder how long it'll take him to sort it out…."

003 ruffled her feathers and hooted again, this time at Hisoka's arrival.

"…I…left my journal here," he muttered. "…Tsuzuki told me."

Watari smiled as he handed it over. "Yes, he left it with me. Seemed to think he'd be too tempted to look at it if he had it with him."

"…Yeah…that's…that's…" Hisoka trailed off as a confused gaze turned into a glare. "Tsuzuki."

He kept smiling and nodded goodbye as he strode quickly out of the office. Though he smiled, it never reached his eyes.

[Now tell me where the light is, sketch it as it dances vividly

Guided words overflow and come out in times of fear]

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It was the following day and Watari knew Kachou and Tatsumi felt bad about sending Hisoka and Tsuzuki on the field, but after it the entire office was sending them on an overdue two-week vacation after everything that happened in Kyoto (not the fainting - the other thing).

"Kurosaki, Tsuzuki, I've got good and bad news. Please sit down," Kachou said as a greeting when they walked into his office.

Obediently, they did so.

"Bad news first," Kachou began. "You have a field assignment. It's nothing major at all, though. A woman died of cancer, but her soul isn't anywhere to be found. We just want you to find out where it is, that's all. You don't have to do anything more, because after that…and this is the good news, we're sending you two on a two-week vacation."

"All expenses paid?" Tsuzuki asked hopefully.

Tatsumi smiled. "Yes, all expenses paid, and we're giving you extra spending money, too."

"YAY!!!!!!" Tsuzuki squealed as he hugged everyone in the room. When he hugged Hisoka, a blush rose from his gloomy face.

"Ahem," Kachou cleared his throat. "There's still the matter of the investigation. Watari?"

As Watari stood up from his chair, Hisoka absolutely glared at him. "…I honestly think that there's no foul play in this, but since her soul is missing, we thought it would be a good idea for you two to check it out. Stop by in my lab in a few hours and I should have all the information ready for you."

"…There's no rush?" Tatsumi muttered.

"No, none at all. I don't think that anyone's endangered or anything…so no, there's really no rush," Watari smiled, stressing his point of no rush.

"And why didn't you have the information ready for the staff meeting?" Kachou asked tensely. Watari could clearly see the vein popping out of his forehead.

…And to this, Watari really had no answer. The remainder of the night, he hadn't done a thing…just…thought things over. "Well…um…you see…" he muttered, growing red naturally, but trying to look sheepish on purpose. "There was one vial of liquid…and then there was another…and you know, one thing led to another and…."

"Not those damned experiments of yours again!" Kachou seethed.

"Eheh…yep," Watari laughed nervously as 003 hooted, attaining full sheepishness.

"Dammit, Watari, if you don't have the information because of your damned experiments one more time, then I'm sending Tsuzuki out to blow up your lab!" Kachou threatened.

"Goodness knows it's the only thing he can do," Tatsumi smirked at Tsuzuki's put out expression.

Watari laughed nervously. "Duly noted. So…ah, I'll just get to work on that and you two can stop by my lab a little later."

"Okay!" Tsuzuki chirped as he hopped up. "Ah, I'm tired…."

"Then go sleep," Hisoka muttered, continuing to glare at Watari.

"Will you come with me, 'Soka-chan?" Tsuzuki said with the kicked puppy expression.

"Hell no!" Hisoka said, more defensively than Watari imagined.

"Meanie," Tsuzuki smiled as he bounded away.

Hisoka gave a quick glare to Watari again and sulked out of Kachou's office.

Watari went to leave, fully intending to work on the information, when 003 hooted. Of course he knew what she said.

"…I know Bon's angry with me for reading his journal…."

She hooted again.

"How does he know?" he asked, repeating her question (only translated). Watari looked away from 003 and stared at the wall. "Because I let him."

003 let out another soft hoot. Watari ignored this and stepped a few feet before Tatsumi stopped him.

"…Watari…."

Watari spun around, a bit startled. "Naaaaaaa, Tatsumi!"

"…What's wrong?" Tatsumi asked abruptly.

Dammit, that man really had a knack for seeing through things, Watari mused. However…it wasn't anything he was willing to share. "…Hmm…well let's see…uh…nothing seems to be wrong at the time, other than getting yelled at by Kachou, of course."

"Liar," Tatsumi breathed.

Watari just gave a soft, but small smile.

"I could see through your lie to Kachou. In fact, he'd be absolutely furious to know that you lied to him…but I'm not going to tell him."

"Then you should probably keep your voice a little down, ne? We are outside his office after all," Watari smiled nervously.

"…It's not any of my business to know what you were actually doing. I just want to know what's wrong because I know there is something," Tatsumi said sternly.

Watari put on a bright, but incredibly fake smile. "Oh of course there's something, but nothing I'll tell you, dear Tatsumi-san."

To Watari's relief, Tatsumi wasn't mad at this. He just…shook his head sadly. "…I don't understand you, Watari."

The scientist kept up his bright smile. "Well, there's nothing to understand. I have work to do, ja ne!" He bounded away with that bright smile on his face, but it didn't reach his eyes.

Nothing did.

[(Cry for a way out)

(It crumbles down)]

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End of Part 2

So how do you like it so far? O.O I don't think I've ever gotten a part out so fast! Oo…but I really like writing this! Especially Watari ^_^

Hope you enjoy! And…as always, questions, comments, concerns, and suggestions ALWAYS welcome! I wanna know what you think! Thank you!

The lyrics!

muku na mama de sarasarete hanabira o chirasu hana no you ni

migaku houseki te no naka no HIBI ni sae kizukihajimeteru

(tsumetai te ga) nukeochita toge o hirou kara

(madoromu hi ga) kusuburitsuzukeru

ima mo todokanu hikari no yukue azayaka ni mau omoi o egakou

michibiku kotoba ga koborete shimawanu you ni utsuru toki o osorenaide

(deguchi mo naku)

(kuzureochiru)