Yami No Matsuei Fan Fiction ❯ Sleepless Beauty ❯ Part 4 (Tatsumi) ( Chapter 4 )

Title: Sleepless Beauty (Part 4 of 4)

Author: Elf Asato

Pairings: Watari/Hisoka, Tatsumi/Watari, Tatsumi/Tsuzuki, Tsuzuki/Hisoka (O.o)

Warnings: Language, shounen-ai (obviously), mild angst, OOC?, and two incredibly stupid people…

Rating: PG

Disclaimer: Sadly, Yami no Matsuei doesn't belong to me…aaa…what a world. The song Sleepless Beauty is off Gravitation, so that doesn't belong to me, either! ;.;

Notes: Song fic to Sleepless Beauty from Gravitation. Hn, it's just various lyrics everywhere… ^_^ I suppose it sucks to have the song drawn out in FOUR parts! Regarding the lyrics…the English translation is in the story, but at the end are the Japanese lyrics used in that part. Confusing, I'm sorry…. I also didn't space them very well throughout the story! *sobs*

[Lyrics] Obvious….

Part 4 is Tatsumi's. Even though the main couple is on vacation, there's still little things left undone that will bring us into the…dum dum duuuuuum………

Sequel! Yes, I love this so much that it needs to be continued. ^_^

I wrote this while listening to Dir en Grey if that explains anything….

(Kept the notes short this time ^_^)

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Sleepless Beauty

Elf Asato

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With Tsuzuki and Hisoka gone on a much-needed vacation, Tatsumi's mind should have been at ease. It was far from that, though. Staring at the swirling black in his mug, he sighed in deep thought.

"Oi, Tatsumi-san," a familiar voice rang out, temporarily pulling out of his thoughts. "You're just standing there, staring at your coffee. Anything wrong?"

Tatsumi gave Watari that look, irritated at being caught off guard. "Funny you should ask about my problems when you won't even share your own."

"Yep! I'm the world's biggest jerk!" Watari smiled genkily, gaining the attention of most of the workers in the office. "But it would make you a jerk, too, if you didn't tell me what's wrong, since you were so inclined to grill me a few days ago."

Trying to act as dignified as possible, Tatsumi calmly stated, "I never said that there was anything wrong."

"Bullshit," Watari said with a small smirk, but Tatsumi saw his eyes were serious.

Tatsumi set his coffee mug on a desk and pushed up his glasses. "Profanity doesn't suit you, Watari."

"Neither does you being a jerk!" Watari smiled genkily as he pinched Tatsumi's cheek, like an aunt does her nephew.

The entire office froze.

Tatsumi glared at Watari, but he didn't seem to get the hint.

"Nope! Doesn't suit you at all!" he smiled as he continued tugging on the secretary's cheek.

"…Watari," Tatsumi growled through clenched teeth.

"You know, if you tell me what's wrong, I'll stop!" Watari smiled brightly.

He continued to glare at the genky scientist, taking side-glances at his petrified coworkers. "No, I won't tell you what's wrong and if you don't stop, I'm cutting your funding."

Watari immediately stopped.

"Now, if you'll excuse me, I actually have work to do," Tatsumi muttered quickly (but as dignified as possible ^_^) as he brush past the scientist.

The office sighed in relief.

Giving a quick look back, he saw that Watari hadn't moved, and kept on forward, relieved that he hadn't decided to press the matter further.

"…Tatsumi," Watari breathed as he grasped Tatsumi's shoulder from behind.

That really annoyed Tatsumi and he brushed off Watari's hand, turning around to face him. "I believe I said I had work to do." He couldn't believe that he had to actually run to catch up to him.

"I use that too many times - it's not going to work on me," Watari stated, looking Tatsumi directly in the eye. "We keep going around in circles and nobody's going to get anywhere if we don't actually talk."

Bastard.

"All right, all right, we'll talk," Tatsumi sighed in a defeated tone. "What do you want to talk about?"

"I want to talk about what's bothering you today," Watari replied casually. "I promise I won't tell a soul! Not Tsuzuki, Bon, or anyone."

"You want to know what's been bothering me lately? Fine. I'll tell you," Tatsumi said softly, giving in to Watari's irresistible charm.

"So spill it," Watari smiled as he leaned up against a wall for comfort.

"I'm worried about you," he said simply, keeping steady eye contact with the scientist.

Watari's eyes widened a little and his mouth formed a lopsided oval. "H-how so?" he finally asked after a brief period of silence.

Tatsumi sighed and leaned against Watari's wall beside him. "You haven't been yourself lately…. It seems you're more scatterbrained than usual and you're faking a lot of things - your smiles, charm, and happiness among other things. Others may not have noticed your change in behavior, but I have. …You have tell-tale eyes, Watari."

"Oh?" he asked, sounding calm and casual, but Tatsumi was right - Watari's eyes gave everything away.

"You're a little scared and mad that you've been found out," Tatsumi stated simply with a smirk while looking into those golden eyes.

"I hate how you're so perceptive," Watari muttered, breaking their eye contact and setting his gaze to the floor.

Tatsumi lifted Watari's chin up with his finger so that their eyes met again. He found himself gazing into surprised eyes. "I don't like seeing you unhappy. Your eyes…I want them to light up when you smile - just like they used to. Whatever it is that's dulling your eyes…I want to help it go away…if you'll let me."

Watari's eyes shut halfway, looking guiltily off to the side. His eyes were a mixture of guilt and sadness.

"…Everyone's entitled to a little happiness, Watari," Tatsumi continued, his finger still under his chin. "You are no exception."

With this statement, the Shinigami's eyes flashed back to Tatsumi's. "…But I've seen the way they look at each other, whether they realize it or not. I want him to be happy, I do. I'd be miserable if he was truly unhappy…but I also want to be with him. I know he'd be happier without me, but I still can't help wanting to be with him. I just…I…." Watari broke the contact between them, and gestured pleadingly, "It seems they're just so perfect for each other, but what about me?! Is it so wrong to want to be happy?!"

Tatsumi appeared unfazed by Watari's outburst as the blond clutched a fistful of his own abundant hair and sighed. "…It's perfectly normal to want to be happy…and there's no reason you shouldn't be."

"I…I…" Watari stammered with wide and frantic eyes. "I'm sorry for just bursting out with that! I mean, yeah, it was just festering inside of me, but I really didn't mean to and I really sorry about that and I-"

"Watari, you're rambling," Tatsumi stated, shutting him up. Watari just stared at him dependently as he continued on, "I assume you're talking about Kurosaki-kun?"

"Aa…yes," Watari muttered, staring at the floor again. "But how…?

"Like you said, I'm very perceptive."

Tatsumi felt his gaze on his shoulder and heard Watari sigh, "…Surely you've noticed how he and Tsuzuki look at each other. They both obviously love each other, though they may not realize it…."

"As emotional as he seems, Tsuzuki's not really the type to recognize what his feelings are immediately. It's…often a little too late before he decides to act upon them. But," he continued, "I agree with you. It's obvious to everyone that they're absolutely in love with each other. Obvious to everyone but them."

"So you see my dilemma?" Watari chuckled nervously.

Tatsumi gave him a comforting gaze and said, "Yes, I can relate to it quite well."

"…You're in love with Tsuzuki, aren't you?"

"Were."

"Were?" Watari repeated, nonplussed. "Aa, I guess I'm not as good at reading people as I thought…."

He chuckled lightly. Watari almost had him pegged. "No, you actually are…but Kurosaki has indirectly called me unreadable more than once. In a sense, though, you were right. I was deeply in love with Tsuzuki at one time in my life…."

"So what happened?" Watari asked, radiating with curiosity.

"…Nothing," Tatsumi shrugged. "We were partners at the time and I kept dropping subtle hints, hoping he'd get at least one of them, but he never did. After two and a half months of unrequited love, I decided that I couldn't be beside him each day feeling like that, so I became a secretary. Though, I do think he eventually realized I was in love with him and found himself in love, too, but by the time he figured all this out…it was too late."

"What do you mean by 'too late?'" Watari asked, interested.

"It was just too late. I still loved him, and I still do today, but…I guess someone else attracted my attention," Tatsumi sighed.

"Oh?" he asked. "Who?"

There was silence for a few seconds before Tatsumi replied, "I know Tsuzuki is in love with Kurosaki, but I don't want him to make the same mistake as he did with me. That's why I persuaded Kachou to send them on a two-week vacation, and if they don't come back all over each other…I swear I don't know what I'll do to that idiot…." Tatsumi chuckled lightly before Watari interrupted.

"You didn't answer my question."

"…You really want me to tell you whom I fell in love with at first sight…? The person who, just by looking at me, gives me the strength to live day after day?"

Watari was definitely intrigued. "Uh huh…!"

Tatsumi looked up in thought for a moment before returning back to Watari, smiling, "I believe there's this phrase…. 'That's for me to know and you to find out.' Is that it?"

"Ooh, you're so mean!" Watari cried out, all chibi-like.

"I can only tell you so much in one day," Tatsumi chuckled.

"…Tatsumi…" normal Watari {A/N: That's like 'jumbo shrimp' ^^;;} muttered, "why did you tell me about your unrequited love with Tsuzuki?"

Tatsumi just gave a soft smile to the blond. "Because we're the same."

After being motionless for a few seconds, Watari broke out into a broad smile. "So we are."

"There you go. That's the smile I like to see," he said softly, as if the noise would chase it away, and then his expression turned very serious. "But…Watari, I really want you to think about how you feel for Kurosaki-kun. Do you want to be happy with him…or do you want him to be happy with Tsuzuki more? Now, I really do have work to do now, so I'll let you think about it…."

"…You're right," he heard Watari sigh as he started to walk off, "so…ah, Tatsumi…?"

"Hmm?" he asked as he stopped and turned to face the Shinigami again.

"…I…I'd like to request a few days off."

Tatsumi shook his head. "Kachou wouldn't let you with both Tsuzuki and Kurosaki off, though you haven't missed a day of work since becoming a Shinigami."

"It's…it's not as if the Kyoto area is really busy anymore," Watari muttered, "and I'm sure it'll be easy to cover…."

Pushing up his glasses, he sighed, "I'll talk to Kachou about it and if worse comes to worse, I'll cover the area for you since we've already arranged for the Nagasaki area to be taken care of for these two weeks. He won't like it…but I think he'll understand."

"Thank you very much," he smiled. Tatsumi smiled at how his golden eyes were as happy as his expression. "I really hate to trouble anyone, but I just-"

"I understand," he nodded trying to get away again, "and like I said, I do have to get back to work…."

"And…Tatsumi?"

He sighed. "Yes…what is it, Watari?"

"…Like you said, everyone is entitled to a little happiness and you're no exception. When something's bothering you, tell someone. Don't just keep it in - you'll never be happy that way."

"This coming from you," Tatsumi muttered.

"Yeah, but you made me tell you about it and I felt better and a little happier. If you tell someone your problems, you always feel better afterwards. So…if I have to be happy, you do, too," Watari lectured seriously, but then he smiled good-naturedly, "besides, if you're happy, you're not as tight about the budget!"

"Oh…you," Tatsumi smirked, not knowing what else to say. "…But thank you."

"We're friends, right?" Watari asked abruptly.

Tatsumi just stared at him a little before nodding, "Of course we are."

That broad smile graced the scientist's face. "Great! …Okay, now, seriously, we both need to get to work…. Aa, so I'll see you later!"

"Right," Tatsumi nodded, but Watari had already bounced off in a considerably lighter mood. He sighed, heading back to the office. Whatever he had originally planned to do was forgotten.

"…I don't want it to be like it was with us," he muttered into the open air. "I don't think I could live like that anymore…."

[Hold me gently, catch me forever, do more until my heart breaks down]

~Owari~

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And that's the end of Sleepless Beauty! Oo…the ending was so terrible…. I had a little trouble keeping the focus on Tatsumi because it kept shifting to Watari! He's such an attention-whore, I swear…. ^_^

This ended up being shorter than Watari's part, but longer than Hisoka's…if…anyone cares….

Oh, and the person Tatsumi is in love with is Kachou……………………&hell ip;……………………… ………………………&he llip;……………………&helli p;…………………just kidding. ^_^

But yes, there still IS going to be the sequel so don't flame me or whatnot for the sucky ending….

And thank you SOOOOOO much everyone who reviewed! I just stared at the page of reviews for inspiration as I wrote this… ^_^ Thank you everyone!

And the lyrics! It's just one line… ^^;;

sotto dakishimete zutto tsukamaete motto kokoro made kowasu you ni

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