Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Equinity ❯ Chapter 27 ( Chapter 27 )

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Notes: All the information on showjumping, horses, etc is taken from my own knowledge of the sport having been a competitor and now judge for many years and is written from an Australian perspective. The rules and regulations are courtesy of the E.F.A Handbook. (Equestrian Federation of Australia) Should you have any questions just e-mail me.

 

Many thanks to Yami_tai for the title! *hugs*

 

"Equinity"

 

October. 2004 ShenLong

 

Chapter 27

 

By the time the evening consults were over, Duo was beginning to feel the effects of his riding lesson even more. Not only was his as sore but his thighs were aching as well. He shuffled into the reception area just as Heero was returning from closing and locking the door.

 

"You okay, Duo?" Heero asked. "You're walking a little stiffly."

 

"I'll live," replied Duo. "Tell me something, Heero. Why do horses have to have such broad backs? I feel as if I've been sitting on an armchair with a leg over each side. Talk about doing the splits."

 

Heero couldn't help but chuckle. "It does get better, you know. The more riding you do, the more accustomed to it your muscles become and gradually they build up and develop and soon you don't feel any discomfort at all."

 

"I think I've discovered muscles I never knew I had," moaned Duo as he sat down. "Ow! Shit, that's sore," he yelped and stood up hastily.

 

"Come on, I'll take you back up to the house and after dinner I'll massage those muscles."

 

"I think I'm beginning to feel better already," snickered Duo, allowing himself to be led back out of the surgery and towards the house.

 

***

 

Heero finished drying the dishes and wandered into the lounge room where Duo lay sprawled on his stomach on the couch watching a soap opera on television. "Ready for that massage now?"

 

Rolling slightly onto his side, Duo contemplated his boyfriend's words and nodded. "If you don't mind."

 

"I wouldn't have offered if I minded," said Heero as he approached the reclining vet and kissed him. "I'll just go and grab some ointment then. Won't be a sec." Heero disappeared in the direction of his bedroom and returned a few moments later clutching a tube of ointment.

 

"What's that stuff?" asked Duo suspiciously.

 

"It's called 'Deep Heat'. [1] It's an ointment that soothes stressed muscles. I usually use it after a show to ease any aches I may get from being in the saddle for so long," replied Heero.

 

"Ahh. Does it work?" Duo had complete faith in his own treatments for the animals, but when it came to human treatments he was always skeptical and preferred to avoid using anything at all unless completely necessary.

 

"I wouldn't still be using it if it didn't. Now, hop up and take off your pants for me."

 

"Ohhh, working a little fast aren't we?" Duo teased.

 

Heero turned a bright shade of red. "That's not quite what I meant, Duo."

 

Duo grinned as he complied and removed his pants. "How would you like me?" he teased.

 

"Bent over the couch with your legs spread wide," Heero quipped and tried hard to hold his laughter as Duo turned crimson.

 

"Uhh..."

 

"I'm teasing, Duo. Just lie down on the couch; on your stomach will be fine."

 

Duo gave a sigh of relief. For a moment there Heero had caught him off guard and Duo hadn't been sure if Heero was serious or not.

 

"You'll need to remove your underwear too," Heero added. "I can't massage the ointment in through your boxers."

 

"Yeah... Errr... Right." Duo removed his boxers, trying to keep the flush from his face. Despite the fact that Heero had seen him naked before he still couldn't help but be a little shy around the other man. Actually, he wasn't completely naked, he still had his shirt on but Duo figured that was a moot point really. Boxers removed he gingerly lowered himself back to the couch and got comfortable.

 

Swallowing hard and trying to keep his hormones from jumping for joy at the sight of Duo's naked lower half lying before him like some forbidden fruit, Heero moved towards the couch. "Where exactly is it sore?"

 

"My inner thighs and lower butt."

 

"You mean here?" Heero gently ran his fingers over the base of Duo's cheeks, just above the crease where thigh met rear end.

 

"Mmm... Yeah," Duo moaned softly.

 

"At least we know you were using your seat bones," chuckled Heero.

 

"I didn't know I had any until today," retorted Duo. "Now I'm beginning to wish I'd never found them. You sure you can't get a padded saddle?"

 

Heero opened the tube and spread some of the cream on his fingers. Placing the tube to the side he gently pushed Duo's legs apart. "I need you to spread your legs a little so I can massage your inner thighs," he explained as he felt Duo's body tense.

 

"Ummm.. Okay." Duo was glad his face was in the cushion so that Heero couldn't see his blush as he spread his legs a bit more. He felt Heero's strong hands connect with the sensitive skin of his inner thigh and begin to massage, working the ointment into his sore muscles. "Ahhh... that feels good," he moaned.

 

"Good, I'd hate to think I was doing it wrong," returned Heero with a smile. Gently he continued to work the ointment into Duo's skin, strong fingers easing the ache in the sore muscles. More cream was applied and Heero began to work it into the skin around Duo's seat bones, softly running his hands across the base of Duo's cheeks and digging his thumbs into the flesh to coax away the ache. As he massaged so Heero felt his struggle with his hormones increase; unfortunately, his hormones were winning. With Duo's legs slightly spread he could see the base of the vet's sac and longed to massage it as well. Duo's ass lay before him, tempting him to explore a little and Heero was desperately trying not to give in to the urge to trace his fingers along the crevice.

 

Lying face down on the couch, Duo was unaware of Heero's inner battle with his libido; even if he had been aware of it there wasn't anything he could have done, he was suffering with his own turmoil. Heero's hands and fingers upon his flesh were triggering their own reaction in his body and he felt the warmth traveling down to settle in his groin. His cock began to harden and press against the roughness of the couch fabric. Duo longed to move his hips and find some friction to ease the ache but didn't dare move lest he upset Heero and the accountant's current ministrations. He bit his lip and tried to bring his body back under control.

 

Heero was fighting a losing battle, his cock refused to listen to him and hardened to the point of being painful, pressed tight against his restrictive jeans. He moaned softly and surrendered to the temptation before him, hoping that Duo wouldn't abuse him for taking such liberties with his body. So far in their pleasuring of each other they'd stuck to the simple things such as hand and blow jobs, never had they ventured towards anything else other than the odd grope of each other's ass through their clothing. Heero was about to step over that line and could only hope that Duo would forgive him, but he couldn't hold back any longer.

 

Carefully Heero let his fingers wander up a little and then ghosted them along the crevice of the milky ass before him. When Duo didn't leap up and deck him, Heero got a little bolder. He trailed his fingers up again, this time dipping in a little deeper. Gradually he worked his hands so they were massaging Duo's entire cheeks and then easing them apart a bit so as he could run his thumbs along the cleft. A muffled moan met his ears but it was the encouragement Heero needed. Carefully he spread Duo's cheeks, exposing the small, pink entrance to his sight and touch, drawing a sharp breath of excitement as his body flushed warm with the vision before him.

 

It was all Duo could do to stop himself from groaning out loud. Heero's fingers teasing his cleft was turning him on so much. His cock throbbed and ached and he longed to touch himself, to relieve some of the built up frustration; but he held still, worried that if he did, Heero would stop; and Duo didn't want Heero to stop. He moaned softly into the cushion and then his body froze completely, his eyes fluttered shut and he did groan; loudly as he was suddenly assaulted by pleasure he never knew he could feel. // Oh Gods, was Heero...? Oh, fuck, he was...//

 

Continuing to run his thumbs along the crevice, Heero slowly leaned closer to Duo's ass. His hot breath drifted over those cheeks and then Heero's tongue came out to play. He gently licked along the cleft, holding Duo's cheeks apart to give his mouth and tongue unhindered access. He heard the groan from Duo and felt the vet's body shudder with sensation, encouraging him to continue. Heero had never rimmed anyone before, so wasn't sure if he was doing this right or not but he guessed from Duo's reactions that he must be doing something along the correct lines. His tongue continued to wander along the cleft, licking and flicking, teeth came into play, softly nibbling as Heero explored every inch of Duo's rear end. The tip of his tongue circled the small entrance causing his partner to squirm and wriggle and slowly he pushed the tip of his tongue just inside.

 

"Oh, shit, Heero," Duo moaned as his head tossed from side to side. "Feels good. Don't stop."

 

Heero had no intention of stopping but couldn't voice his reply as his mouth was too occupied with more pleasurable things. Duo's flesh tasted sweet with a hint of the lavender soap he favored and Heero's tongue eagerly sought out more of the delicious taste. His tongue probed gently at the pink entrance, pushing just a little way inside.

 

"Ahhh..." Duo had no idea he could be so sensitive there. His nerves were singing, body straining for more and Duo happily squirmed under the assault. Obviously his anus had a rich nerve supply, one he was discovering with remarkable clarity. As he wriggled so his cock rubbed against the couch, offering some friction but not enough to satisfy, only enough to torment him further.

 

Leaving his teasing of Duo's entrance, Heero moved his ministrations lower, licking along the cleft and to the sensitive patch of skin below. He managed to lift Duo's hips slightly and began to tongue the vet's balls, feeling the tightness and fullness of them. He sucked one into his mouth and played gently with it, feeling his own need rise further with Duo's moans and pleading for more. Eventually he couldn't take anymore and released his boyfriend from his torment. "Roll over for me, Duo," he demanded softly.

 

Hearing those words, Duo was happy to comply, shifting his body and lying on his back, cock pressed against his belly and dribbling fluid.

 

Heero climbed off the couch and removed his jeans, his cock straining against his underwear. The underwear was soon history and both men allowed their eyes to rake over each other's aroused body. Heero turned and giving Duo a smirk, pulled the vet further down the couch and then straddled the vet's shoulders.

 

Duo was caught off guard and wondered exactly what Heero was up to when the accountant pulled him down the couch a bit and then settled with his knees on either side of Duo's head. His unspoken question was soon answered though as Heero lowered himself slightly and leant forwards to take the tip of Duo's cock in his mouth. Heero's cock suddenly appeared in Duo's line of sight and he quickly registered what Heero had in mind. Duo opened his mouth and his tongue darted out to lick at the head of Heero's very swollen penis.

 

It was Heero's turn to moan as the sensation of Duo's tongue gently bathing the head of his cock registered in his brain. He carefully took the head of Duo's penis into his mouth and began to suck, running his tongue around the ridge, across the smooth head and teasing the tiny slit. Precum leaked steadily and Heero lapped it up, savoring the taste of Duo's essence. Gradually he slipped the rest of Duo's shaft into his mouth, sucking and licking as he went until he had as much of Duo in his mouth as he could take. Heero's cheeks hollowed as his mouth began to work, sucking as he slid up and down the shaft.

 

Mouths continued to pleasure, hands rested upon partner's hips to anchor each other as tongues discovered and reacquainted themselves with familiar territory. Duo's tongue explored every inch of Heero's shaft, sliding along the soft skin, pausing to flick over the head and slit then swirling once more around the thick length. He found Heero's sac and applied his skills to the swollen balls, delighting in the feel of Heero's testicles moving inside their protective scrotum.

 

The pleasure continued to build, each man trying to out do the other and make their partner come first. Heero thought he was winning until Duo began to hum around his erection. That was something new and Heero almost screamed with pleasure. Duo's throat vibrating around his sensitive flesh brought further heat to his groin and he knew he was about to fall from grace. He moaned and drew his mouth back a little, trying to warn Duo of his impending climax but unable to form coherent words.

 

Duo could sense Heero's building orgasm and hummed in appreciation, the effect it had on Heero was electrifying and Duo chuckled around his mouthful. He hummed again and felt Heero beginning to tense. Duo eased his mouth back a little but continued to hum and seconds later he was rewarded with Heero's seed, the thick, creamy fluid filling his mouth as he swallowed hastily.

 

With his orgasm sweeping over and through him, Heero's ministrations to Duo's cock slowed a little but as soon as he was able to focus again, Heero redoubled his efforts and brought the vet to his own climax. Duo's hips moved beneath him, thrusting the thick length into his mouth as Heero applied suction to the shaft and head. He was rewarded for his efforts as Duo's penis swelled and then burst forth with Duo's essence. Heero drank it all down, enjoying the taste of his boyfriend and suckling hungrily for more. As Duo's cock softened so Heero let it slip from his mouth, licking gently at the head to make sure he'd gotten every drop. Heero's own cock had also softened and Heero shifted himself to lie next to Duo, the sated organ flopping against his thigh. He brushed Duo's bangs away from his sweaty face and leant down to press a tender kiss against Duo's lips. "Enjoy that?"

 

"Mmmm..."

 

"Good." Heero snuggled a little closer, content to bathe in the afterglow.

 

"Shit, Heero. You never cease to amaze me. I've... I've never had anyone do that to me before," confessed Duo. "I didn't know it could feel like that."

 

"I've never done it myself either," Heero stated with a blush. "Did I do it right?'

 

"Fuck, yes! Well I think so, not having experienced it before and all... It felt wonderful." Duo thought it best to shut up now as he was beginning to babble a bit.

 

"I'm glad. I've always wanted to try it out, I mean, I've read about it but never tried it out on anyone or had it done to me so I thought with you lying there, all sort of open and... well... I couldn't help myself..." Heero trailed off, unable to find the correct words to express himself with and not completely sure that Duo wasn't mad at him for taking advantage of the situation.

 

Sensing Heero's inner struggle with himself, Duo was quick to put the accountant at ease. "Heero... You didn't take advantage of the situation or me. I enjoyed it, really I did and if I'd wanted too I could have stopped you at any time. I didn't want you to stop though, I wanted it as much as you did so don't start beating yourself up over it."

 

Heero stared into the violet eyes and saw that Duo was sincere with his words.

 

Duo reached a hand to cup Heero's cheek. "I'll be pissed off if you don't do that again some time," he murmured softly.

 

With a smile, Heero swooped in and stole another kiss. "I'd love to do it again, Duo, anytime you want."

 

***

 

True to Heero's prediction, Duo's muscles didn't ache or feel as sore the next day, the cream had helped. He could move around quite easily and assisted Heero to put the horses out in the paddock and clean the stables. Heero went off to work and Duo tidied up before opening the surgery for morning consults. The day went well and before he knew it Heero was home again. They shared lunch, discussing the morning's activities before Heero said he was was going to try Zero over some small jumps that afternoon. The horse had pulled up okay without any sign of lameness, heat or swelling in his ligaments or tendons from the work over the cavaletties these past couple of weeks and with the show circuit going to commence in a couple of months, Heero was eager to get his horse fit and ready.

 

Duo was just relieved that Heero hadn't suggested he have another riding lesson that day. His muscles may have been recovering fine but he would prefer another day or two before venturing into the saddle again.

 

He followed Heero out to the paddock after the lunch dishes had been dealt with and helped to get the big gray ready. When Heero had brought his possessions over to Duo's he'd also brought his set of jump wings and poles. These had been placed into one of the paddocks and now Heero busied himself setting them up in a random pattern. With the wings positioned, Heero set the poles and height of the fences. "You think that should be all right to start him off with?" Heero asked Duo as he eyed the jumps.

 

"Should be okay," replied Duo. "Warm him up first and then pop him over a couple of the lower ones, see how he handles those then you can move onto the bigger ones."

 

The fences were set between two foot three and three feet, Heero didn't want to try anything too much higher until he felt certain that Zero's leg would take the pressure. With Zero saddled and bridled, Heero checked the jumping boots he'd put on Zero's forelegs and then mounted.

 

Duo moved to stand under a tree and watch, that way he was close at hand to raise and lower the jumps as well as assist should Zero show any sign of going sore.

 

Heero picked up his reins and pushed Zero into the walk, the gray moving effortlessly over the ground. The work he'd been doing over the past few months had begun to tone his muscles again and once more Zero was looking like a show horse. The sun glinted off his coat and despite the coolness of the autumn air Zero couldn't help but throw in a few dancing steps. Heero allowed the horse to settle before asking for the trot.

 

Zero could see the jumps set up and his muscles quivered in anticipation. He loved to jump and eyed the fences as he trotted around. He gave a little buck then arched his neck and strode out. Zero could see the mare watching from her paddock and began to show himself off, picking his feet up and stepping with extra spring and bounce. He felt the aid from his master and tossed his head as he broke into a canter, enjoying and reveling in his fitness.

 

Watching from under the tree, Duo couldn't help but be impressed again. Heero sat the horse beautifully, seeming to melt into the animal's back. It was as if they became one together and Duo's awe only increased. He noted the smoothness with which the pair changed from one gait to another, as if communicating through telepathy and it left him feeling dizzy.

 

Heero was enjoying himself. The wind in his face the feeling of the horse powerful beneath him sent thrills down his spine. He changed gait and direction from time to time, feeling Zero respond and relax underneath him as his muscles warmed and loosened. At first the horse was fresh and eager, pulling a little, wanting Heero to let him go and get the tickle out of his feet. Gradually though he settled and listened to his master, obeying the commands he was given with a willingness to please. Once Heero decided that Zero was ready he brought the animal back to a walk and let him stretch out. He looked for Duo and spotted the vet sitting under one of the large trees and guided Zero over to him.

 

"I think he's ready now," Heero said softly as he drew the horse to a halt and petted the sweaty, gray neck.

 

"Okay," replied Duo with a smile. "Anything in particular you want me to do?"

 

"Would you mind keeping an eye on him as he goes around? I can only feel so much from up here so it helps to have someone on the ground to watch and let me know if there's any sign of lameness at all."

 

"No problem."

 

"Arigato." Heero turned Zero around and pushed the horse back into a canter again, circling around and picking out the first jump he would try. Having selected his 'target', Heero turned the horse towards the jump, shortened his reins and rode Zero into a more collected state.

 

Zero brought his hocks further under himself, shortening his stride but keeping the impulsion there. He spotted the jump ahead and his ears pricked up.

 

Steadying the horse, Heero rode him carefully at the jump; whilst it was only small compared to what they were used to jumping, Heero didn't want any mistakes. His practiced eye sought out the take off point and he applied his legs, giving with his hands as he allowed Zero to lengthen his frame then gather himself together for the jump.

 

Being a seasoned horse, Zero knew what his master was doing and eyed up the jump. He lengthened out, measured the height of the fence, selected his own take off point and then gathered himself together for the spring. The fence disappeared from his sight [2] as Zero brought his hocks right underneath his body and propelled himself into the air. His hind legs followed as he soared over the poles, forelegs neatly tucked under his chest and then extended out to take the shock of impact as he returned to the earth. Zero's hooves bit into the turf, his head came up to balance himself and as his hind legs came down and connected with the ground so Zero lifted his front end and pushed off and away from the fence, ears pricked and looking for the next jump.

 

Heero followed the movement of the horse, lifting his body up and forwards as Zero took off over the fence, his hands sliding up the neck so as not to jab Zero in the mouth but maintain a steady, soft contact. As Zero began to return to earth so Heero's body lowered and came back to the saddle, his hands returning along the neck to keep the contact, legs pressing against the horse's sides and pushing the momentum together. He picked up the slack in the reins and drove Zero together with his seat and legs, rebalancing the horse and preparing him for the next jump.

 

Holding his breath, Duo watched as Zero took the jump. With seemingly effortless grace the horse lifted from the ground and sailed over the fence, landing seconds later and cantering away to the next jump. Staring critically at Zero's legs, Duo could see no hint of lameness at all and that brought a smile to his lips. He watched carefully as Zero completed the rest of the jumps, clearing them all with ease and looking for more.

 

Having jumped each fence twice, Heero brought the gray to a walk and patted the long neck enthusiastically. He could feel Zero's stride beneath, still even, so he knew the leg had stood up to the strain of the jumping so far. Bringing Zero to a halt beside the vet he quickly dismounted, ran up the stirrups and loosened the girth. "What do you think, Duo?" Heero asked as he fed Zero a couple of carrots.

 

Duo rubbed the horse affectionately between the eyes. "He did beautifully, Heero He cleared everything and I couldn't detect any difference to his gait. I'd like to check the leg though once he's cooled off and you remove the jumping boots. If there's going to be any problems at all I'd say they will show up in the next twelve to twenty four hours."

 

"Anything you recommend I should do in the meantime, Duo?"

 

"I'd suggest hosing the leg down to remove any heat that may occur and it wouldn't hurt to rub in some of the liniment as well. That way if there is any soreness it will help to disperse it quickly."

 

"Thanks." Heero wrapped his free arm around Duo's waist and pulled the vet close. "Have I told you today how much I love you, Duo?"

 

"Not in the last hour you haven't," chuckled Duo and kissed his boyfriend. Releasing Heero from the kiss, Duo smacked the accountant lightly on his ass. "You'd better take Zero up to the stables and unsaddle him before he gets cold and causes more problems. I'll go get Scythe and bring her in, it's starting to get a little cool out here."

 

"Okay. I'll meet you up there then." Heero gave Duo a smirk and turned to leave, leading Zero beside him.

 

Duo watched as Heero left, his eyes wandering over the slim form of his boyfriend and stopping at that sweet rear end. He licked his lips and felt the heat in his groin. Heero had really crawled under his skin, worked his way into his life until Duo couldn't imagine life without the dark haired man. He was happy, content, safe in the knowledge that Heero enjoyed his company as well, they shared a lot of common interests as well as some totally different ones. Heero appreciated the little things that Duo did for him just as Duo appreciated the things Heero did. Here was someone with whom Duo truly felt a kinship. Heero never talked down to him, he treated him with respect and was genuinely interested in the vet for who he was inside, not simply his looks and body. The side benefits of fooling around and discovering each other was an added bonus, one Duo was enjoying more and more. With a sigh and a smile, Duo turned to fetch Scythe from the paddock.

 

Catching the mare and clipping the lead rope to the halter, Duo spoke softly to the horse, confiding in her. "What am I going to do, Scythe?" he said softly as he opened the gate. "He's everything I want in a partner; kind, considerate, thoughtful, intelligent and has a great sense of humor when he lets it out. Why is he still with me? He could have anyone he wanted and yet he still stays with me. I don't have much to offer him and I know he wants to go all the way, fuck; I want to go all the way too; but..."

 

Scythe rubbed her head against Duo's arm.

 

"I'm scared, Scythe. If I give in to my feelings I'm frightened he won't respect me anymore, that he'll see me as an easy lay. But if I don't let more happen between us then I'm scared he will leave me, go and find someone else that he can bed that won't give him the excuses I have." Duo sighed. "I suppose it's a catch 22 situation, I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't."

 

Reaching the stable block, Duo shoved his thoughts aside and concentrated on the horses. He didn't need for Heero to see his troubled look and start to ask questions that Duo would find awkward to answer. He slipped on a mask and carried on as if nothing was on his mind.

 

With the horses safe inside the stables the pair returned to the house to get ready for the evening consults. Heero couldn't help but notice that Duo seemed a little distracted. He wondered what could be on the vet's mind. He decided to wait until they were in the house and having dinner before he questioned the other man.

 

The evening consults flew by for Duo, even in his slightly distracted state. With Zero now fully recovered and looking like his leg would stand up to the rigors of competition, Duo knew he was going to see less and less of Heero The man had to work the horse and get it fit and then there would be the shows to attend if Heero was to attain his goal. Somehow Duo felt as if his ideal life was slipping through his fingers and there wasn't anything he could do about it. He didn't want to lose Heero but he didn't want to stop the accountant from achieving his goal either. Frankly, Duo didn't know what to do.

 

Sitting down to eat the casserole that Heero had prepared earlier they ate in relative silence, discussing the odd client from time to time and then falling back into silence again. Finally Heero couldn't take it anymore.

 

"Duo?"

 

At the sound of his name, Duo looked up and met Heero's eyes before looking away. "Yes?"

 

"Something's bothering you. Don't say there's nothing, I can tell by your actions. Care to tell me what it is?"

 

Duo knew he should confide his fears but he was frightened that once Heero knew the other man would think him silly and that was something Duo didn't want. "It's... I'm just concerned about Zero, that's all," he lied.

 

Heero quirked an eyebrow. He knew an evasion when he heard one. "Oh? Why?" Heero decided to play Duo's game. He'd get the truth from the vet... eventually.

 

Knowing he was digging himself a deeper hole, Duo had no choice but to answer and try to be as convincing about it as he could. "I'm hoping that his leg stands up to all this work."

 

"You said earlier that his leg was fine."

 

"Yes, but..."

 

Heero lay his hand over the top of Duo's. "Are you going to tell me what's really bothering you, Duo?" Dark blue eyes pleaded with the vet's to let him in.

 

He couldn't fool Heero He should have known better than to try. Heero knew him far too well now and so Duo gave a soft sigh and shrugged his shoulders.

 

"Please, Duo," Heero pleaded. "It can't be that bad can it?"

 

"I'm scared," Duo whispered and hung his head.

 

Instantly Heero was out of his chair and squatted beside Duo's. He took both of Duo's hands into his own and gazed at the vet. "Scared? I don't understand. What are you scared about? Has someone threatened you? What's happened to make you scared?"

 

"No, it's nothing like threats. It's..."

 

"What? What is it, Duo? Tell me, please."

 

"I'm scared that I'm going to lose you, Heero" There, he'd said it. Now all he had to do was wait for Heero's laughter for him being so weak.

 

"Lose me?" Heero's brain was swimming; he hadn't a clue what had brought this on. "Why would you lose me?"

 

Duo took a deep breath and let it out slowly. He should have known better than to try and hide his feelings from Heero It was time to spill it all and if Heero thought him stupid, then so be it. He'd have to learn to live with it. "With Zero now pretty much back to normal you're going to be spending a lot of time working him and getting him back into shape. Once the shows start again you'll be off competing and I understand all that, Heero, really I do. I don't want you to give up your dream, that's the last thing I want, but..."

 

"Yes?" Heero said softly, encouraging Duo to continue.

 

Duo decided to say it all. "Once you're back out there on the circuit you'll meet all kinds of new and interesting people, people that will want to know you better; and, well... I'm just a boring vet with a country practice that can't get over his inhibitions and let you take that final step with me. You're a hot guy, Heero, a guy with needs and urges the same as me but I can't overcome that final barrier. I couldn't blame you if you get the offer to bed someone, fuck knows, you're not getting any from me with my stupid inhibitions and hang ups." Duo bit down hard on his lip to stop the tears that were gathering from spilling over. That was all he'd need, to start crying in front of Heero and confirm that he was a sissy.

 

Heero's heart crumpled in his chest. "Is that what you think, Duo? That simply because we haven't made love together that I'm going to find someone else when I'm competing and fuck them instead?"

 

Duo nodded.

 

"Then you don't know me very well." Heero's voice held a touch of anger to it that he quickly tried to quell. Duo didn't need him to be angry, Duo needed reassurance. Heero stood up and drew Duo from his chair. Heero sat down and placed Duo on his lap, bringing the vet's face into his line of vision and making sure he had Duo's complete attention. "Baka," he began softly. "Yes, I am going to be busy with Zero getting him fit for the shows and all. Yes, I will be out competing on the weekends but I had hoped you would go with me when you can. You're my good luck charm, Duo. As for other people and getting laid... I told you before, I'm not interested in you just for sex, Duo. I care about you, a lot. I want to spend my time with you and only you, I don't want anyone else. Duo, I'm not about to leave you, not now and not in the future. I want to stay here with you for as long as you will have me. I don't care if we never have sex, what we do share is special and enough for me. Duo, I'm happy here, you make me happy. Do you want me to go and give all that up?"

 

Duo gave a soft sob. "No," he choked out.

 

"Then stop thinking about it because it's never going to happen. I'm in love with you, Duo. Deeply, madly, passionately in love with you. Don't push me away, I don't want to leave, I don't want anyone else; I only want you. You will have to prise me away with a crow bar if you want to get rid of me. I'm like a parasite, I can only exist with your love, Duo."

 

Staring into Heero's blue eyes, Duo could see the pain he'd caused with his words and regretted them. He should have known better than to think Heero would leave him. "I'm sorry," he murmured as his tears broke and ran freely down his face.

 

"No, I'm sorry, Duo. I should have realized you might be feeling threatened with the amount of time I put into Zero and my hobby. Please believe me when I say I'll give it all up for you, Duo if that's what you want."

 

Duo's head whipped up. "NO! Don't you dare stop riding or competing, Heero. You're good at it, you and Zero, you can be the best. I'd never forgive myself if you didn't compete, if you gave all that up for me. I promise to try and stop these silly feelings I have. I know you care about me, Heero, I just can't help but think you must be getting frustrated though."

 

"I'm not frustrated at all, Duo; well, not sexually that is, I'm more frustrated that you can't accept that I'm willingly here, that having sex together isn't what's important to me. Your love and friendship is what's important to me, Duo."

 

Hanging his head, Duo had to admit that Heero was sincere. He felt foolish for ever having doubted the accountant.

 

"You're not going to lose me, Duo. Not now, not ever. I'm here because I want to be and I want to stay." Heero wrapped his arms firmly around Duo and kissed every inch of Duo's face that he could find.

 

Duo began to feel a little better. He was still uncomfortable with his having had doubts, but was equally determined to make it up to Heero. "Heero?" he hiccuped softly as his tears stopped.

 

"Hai?"

 

"When you start competing again... Would I... Would you let me come along and be your groom?"

 

"I won't compete if you're not there with me," replied Heero. "I meant what I said about you being my good luck charm. If you hadn't been at that Agricultural show I don't know if Zero would have made a full recovery, but I do know that I would have been completely lost without the help and care you gave both of us."

 

Duo chuckled. "It was a pretty spectacular fall."

 

"One I'm in no hurry to repeat. At least I'll be the only competitor there with my own personal physician," snickered Heero

 

"I'm sorry for doubting your integrity, Heero I guess I was just a little overwhelmed by everything that's happened lately."

 

"Put it out of your head, Duo. I'm here to stay, for better or for worse."

 

"This isn't a wedding, Yuy."

 

"I wouldn't mind if it was."

 

"Homosexual weddings are against the law, Heero."

 

"Too bad. No one says we can't hold our own ceremony though." Heero winked at Duo.

 

"You mean you would...?"

 

"I said I loved you and I do."

 

"I love you too, Heero," sighed Duo. Feeling a lot happier, Duo snuggled close to his boyfriend's chest.

 

"There is of course the small matter of the wedding night and honeymoon..."

 

"HEERO!"

 

The accountant chuckled and hugged Duo closer. "There's no rush, Duo. If and when you're ready we will take that step and not before."

 

"Thanks, Heero."

 

~ * ~

 

tbc.....

 

 

[1] Deep heat: This is the brand name of a gel available here in Aussie and is used to ease muscular aches, sprains and strains.

 

[2] Believe it or not but given the way a horse's eyes are attached anatomically to its head it loses sight of a showjump roughly three strides away from take off, this is why it becomes important for the rider to allow the horse to have a clear view of the fence on the approach and then to apply the seat and legs in those final three strides; ie; push, push and the third push is the strongest telling the horse that this is the take off point.