Original Poetry Fan Fiction ❯ Words ❯ In the Midst ( Chapter 38 )

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I was bummed out...wrote while in said mood. This poems represents my feelings of "Blah" and the guilt associated with not having it in me to be a shoulder for others at that time

Rating: All Audiences
Genre: Drama/Angst...I guess

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In the Midst

by iloveanimecartoons

Original January 27, 1008

The world hasn't stopped spinning for those who contemplate the fates of those who cease to be

But in our quest to find our own illusive smile

To recapture the simple time

The norm that's just not so normal anymore

Sometimes, fighting that war, we become and army of me

./' We fall down…

I don't feel like getting up

Suddenly, our walls are much more interesting

Eggshell white, huh?

Never heard of that shade

Sunshine isn't as necessary as it used to be

My, I never noticed the lace on my curtains all that much

The stitching really is quite lovely

Hmmm…lithium

It's a battery and drug and a song

My, the song fits my mood do well, right now

What a cowinkidink

Sometime, life munches the brakes on our roller coaster ride

Stuck with no chance of escape, we're forced to think about things

That or '99 Bottles of Beer on the Wall'

Kinda hate that song

Sometimes, in the middle of our moments of silence

Between staring at the ceiling and envisioning violence

We happen upon the outer place

The world we've shut out to we can have our own space

And we realize, when we finally snap out of our trance

That those folks we slid away

Turned the phone off from, day by day

Ignored the door for and felt uninterested in replying to

Felt uninterested in replying to

Well, get outta here!

Some of them were at their wits end, slowly dying, too

But, I'm a bit of a mess right now

What the hell do you want me to do?

When I feel like a lump that's on proverbial life support

What can I do for you?

Teach you new ways to sigh or sarcastically snort?

All I can to is commiserate

I don't have the heart to go through the usuals

I, myself, am feeling unusual

So, to be honest, I'd just…rather not

I'm going through some issues

I'm not the best company ever…not lately

I just don't have the hears to not have a heart…yet, somehow, I can't force myself your way, either

But, I will say this

Even though I feel overwhelmed with the happenings on `Planet Me'

I'll try to make some room in my planner to think on you sometimes

Maybe then, in trying not to feel like a selfish schmuck that lately has been too self-ish

I'll spend enough time not dwelling on self to realize the world around me

And pull myself out of the middle of my self-imposed cell

Try to realize there's a real world outside of my own unfortunate hell

And simply say…`Hi'

Well, at least I'll try…