Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Shades of Purple ❯ Girl In Your Dreams ( Chapter 5 )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

My back was hurting when I woke up. I had fallen asleep on the couch last night during my Gilmore marathon, and evidently in an awkward position. Serenity walked into the room.

"Feeling any better?"

"In a way," I said as I painfully held my back and stretched.

"Well, you missed the big rumor last night. Mercury and Zoisite are supposedly together now."

"So I heard. I guess they also want to wait before making it public."

"Also, Mars and Jadeite are a thing too. But don't tell her I told you or she'll kill me."

"I picked up on that as well. It's funny seeing them try to hide it but failing miserably. They're kind of adorable."

Serenity let out a content sigh while still smiling at me.

"Venus, that just leaves you."

"Excuse me?"

"I don't mean that in a bad way. But… you're known as the goddess of love, and so it just makes me sad that you haven't found anyone yet. Isn't there anyone you've had interest in? Anyone at all?

I figured I might as well tell her at this point. I just wanted to tell someone… and have someone else besides my cat to talk about it with.

"Yeah, actually there is." I sat up slowly. "Gosh, it's so stupid though. I mean, with you and Endymion, and the other three dating three of his generals…"

"Venus…" she said suggestively.

"It's Kunzite. And I swear it has nothing to do with the fact that he's Endymion's general or the stupid irony that all of us have fallen for someone in his kingdom."

"Oh my goodness!" she got all excited and came over to sit in front of me on the couch. "You two would be so cute! Except…"

"Yeah, I know. Carly."

"He's not on the market. I'm really sorry."

"It's fine. I never wanted to pursue him in the first place. Falling for him just sort of… happened."

"She seems kinda mean though."

"Psh, that's an understatement."

"She wasn't too bad towards Endymion and me, but she seemed pretty harsh towards most other people."

"You have no idea…"

"If you really feel strongly for him, I think you should tell him. I don't think he's happy with her. Maybe this could give him an excuse to finally leave that relationship."

"That's so not cool though. I can't just waltz in and steal someone else's man. Imagine someone trying to do that with Endymion?"

"Yeah, but he's actually happy with me. And I know Kunzite would be happy with you. I just know it!"

"Carly's a psychomaniac and I'm not gonna go there."

"Imagine the regret you'll feel years later knowing you let this chance pass. And also, by not doing this you're letting him stay miserable."

"He's a grown man. He's more than capable of breaking up with her if he wants to."

"I'm just hearing a bunch of excuses. Would you please at least just think about it?"

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I spent the whole rest of the day journaling about this idea. The more I wrote, the more motivated I got to actually do it, strangely enough. Oh gosh… do I really think that this is actually a good idea? It was Serenity's suggestion, after all. I love her to death and would take a bullet for her, but when it comes to matters in this department, well… she can get a bit too excited and carried away and isn't always the most logical in thinking.

I wrote out a million different scripts I could use to tell him how I feel. It felt so disrespectful to say something like that to someone who's taken. But at the same time… it's Carly. You wanna talk about disrespectful? Ahhh I felt awful. As crazy as she is, she's still his girlfriend and I had no right to go in and steal him away. It would have to be his choice.

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A couple weeks later, Endymion had an afternoon garden party. We all attended, and I felt a bit more content. Perhaps that time away from Kunzite did me some good. I felt ready and like I would be fine emotionally if I did see him there. Serenity, Jupiter and Mercury all took off with their loved ones, leaving just me and Queen Serenity. Mars lingered for a while, not wanting to make her relationship obvious, but she slowly disappeared too. I didn't mind though; I loved spending time with the queen and it wasn't often that I got to do that.

"This is a wonderful gathering," she said. "This garden is beautiful. It reminds me of the garden parties my mother used to throw when I was young. We would have live harp players, strung paper lanterns, and the best homemade tea you'd ever taste."

"That sounds amazing. I wish I could've been there. She obviously taught you well, my queen. You are the most elegant and graceful person I know."

"You are too kind, sweetie."

"My queen," Endymion respectfully bowed and kissed her hand. "Good of you to come."

"Mother, you have to see the cherry blossom trees. They're gorgeous!"

The queen's eager daughter stole her away to marvel at the earthly foliage. And so I was left alone. And naturally, that made me vulnerable.

I saw Carly with two female friends who looked equally snobby. When she saw me from a distance, she started whispering things to her friends. I found it genuinely hilarious how obvious she was and the lack of effort to hide it. They were by the punch table and I wanted a refill. I wasn't about to let their presence stop me.

I started pouring into my cup and ignored them, just being nonchalant. They just stood there and stared at me. It creeped me out a little. Really, what are you guys trying to accomplish right now?

Finally I turned to them and smiled, as to make them angrier. "Afternoon, ladies. Lovely weather we're having?"

"Was the last time you had an interesting thought when you considered flinging yourself off a building?"[1] Carly grumbled.

"Actually, I think the last interesting thought I had was what your face would look like if I just went up and glomped Kunzite, right now. Good guess, though."

"If you need love, get a hooker."[1] The three of them walked away and went over to where the generals were sitting. Carly eagerly put an arm around Kunzite and made sure I saw.

Endymion started giving a speech, so I went and took a seat with the guardians. He thanked everyone for coming and for their continued support of his kingdom, and began telling stories about fun times and adventures with different people. It was interesting, but I started to space out after some time. I would on and off look over at Kunzite and Carly. I couldn't help it. The more I did that, the more painful it became.

I thought I was fine. I thought I was ready, but I wasn't.

The speeches ended, the DJ started the music back up, and the party resumed.

I saw Kunzite and Carly standing by one of the food tables, and… I don't know what got into me, but it was something. Without thinking, I stormed over there and faced him.

"Venus? Is everything all right?"

"As a matter of fact, no. Everything's not all right. THIS isn't all right." I motioned towards Carly standing right there.

People went silent and watched the scene unfold.

"Maybe I don't have the brown hair you like, and maybe I don't have eyes like the sky. And I'm not sure if I'm the girl in your dreams. But I can show you what love means."

The silence dragged on. Carly gasped and kept her mouth wide open, looking back and forth between him and me. After a while she fixed her eyes on me and furiously whispered "You'll pay for this."

Kunzite just looked at me in silence, and once I came down from my high from the moment and realized what I had done, I took off and hid.

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I couldn't feel my legs. I ran and ran and ran, getting so far into the garden that I was sure I was lost, but I didn't care. I just needed to get away and disappear from existence.

I slid down and sat behind a tree. I wanted to cry, but I was too in shock and out of breath to. There was a small fountain nearby and I could hear the light water splashes. Other than that it was silent. And I wanted to keep it that way.

After about 20 minutes, I heard footsteps. Kunzite walked up to the tree. Kill me now, I thought.

"You were right," he said after a moment.

I turned to face him.

"You were right. It's not all right, with her," he continued. "She wasn't always so bad. She used to be a sweet person. But she has a diagnosed mental illness and has refused to get help. It has only gotten worse with time."

"Kunzite, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to make a scene and… humiliate you like that."

"Did you mean what you said? The second part, that is?"

I was quiet for a second. "Yes. I did. Every word."

"Okay. I'll be right back."

"Where are you going?"

"I need to take care of something. I'll be right back."

Without even standing up, I turned to watch him disappear into the distance, knowing what he was about to do.

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A/N: 1. Quotes from the classic Paris Geller.

The end of this chapter was inspired by the classic Rory and Jess scene from the "They Shoot Gilmores, Don't They?" episode. Yes, that show is integrated into this story a lot. I'm obsessed ok